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+For a while, I've been meaning to write up a _different_ multi-thousand word blog post telling the Whole Dumb Story about that—not because it's an interesting story, but because I'll never be able to stop grieving and move on with my life until I get it all out of my system. (Working title: ["A Hill of Validity in Defense of Meaning"](https://twitter.com/ESYudkowsky/status/1067185907843756032). Epigraph quote: Zora Neale Hurston, "If you are silent about your pain, they'll kill you and say you enjoyed it.")
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+It's been hard to write. It _hurts_ to write. It's hard and it hurts because it's not something that _should_ need to be written.
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+[TODO outlining coda—
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+We prefer to have a good-faith discussion of ideas in themselves; talking about your interlocutors and speculating about their hidden motives is not what we do
+I tried the good-faith debate thing first. I tried it for years; at some point, you have to jump up a meta level and explain what you think is actually going on
+Since the Whole Dumb Story is longer and harder to write, I hope it's OK if I _briefly_ hit some of the highlights here that are relevant to analyzing Yudkowsky's comments on "speakable" arguments, with the understanding that I might write a longer post later
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+The Sequences taught me some really important things about sex differences and why not to take my cross-sex fantasies literally; I wrote about this in ["Sexual Dimorphism in Yudkowsky's Sequences"](/2021/May/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems/)
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+The ]
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+https://astralcodexten.substack.com/p/bounded-distrust
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+If "rationalists" are both a social cluster, and seekers of systematically-correct-reasoning, then people trying to protect the power and prestige of the social cluster face an incentive to invent fake epistemology lessons when the correct answer is unpopular! That's fatal!!
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+If someone fires back bad faith allegations at me and is prepared to defend them, that's actually more invigorating and productive than the Berkeley equilibrium
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+I don't think I'm setting [my price for joining](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/Q8evewZW5SeidLdbA/your-price-for-joining) particularly high here?
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+[principled trans people should be offended, too!]
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+[our beliefs about dolphins are downstream of Scott's political incentives]