X-Git-Url: http://unremediatedgender.space/source?a=blobdiff_plain;f=content%2Fdrafts%2Fa-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md;h=2e41ea58c1ddbca6ddea85cf2dc0f4e5f857d2fc;hb=72327487792b1a050ef30691a74477dd96ccb323;hp=01f63545a3c28997d17cc944596c623046e200ea;hpb=46f8a69ac245dd820338c8b9bda654ec367e444b;p=Ultimately_Untrue_Thought.git diff --git a/content/drafts/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md b/content/drafts/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md index 01f6354..2e41ea5 100644 --- a/content/drafts/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md +++ b/content/drafts/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md @@ -4,16 +4,33 @@ Category: other Tags: anecdotal, cosplay, Steven Universe Status: draft +_(Attention conservation notice: Diary-like navel-gazing today. If you're here for the Actual Philosophy, come back next week.)_ + > ROSE: [...] we can't both exist. I'm going to become half of you. And I need you to know that every moment you love being yourself, that's me, loving you, and loving _being_ you. > > —_Steven Universe_, "Lion 3: Straight to Video" -I cosplayed [Rose Quartz](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Steven_Universe_characters#Rose_Quartz) at [FanimeCon](https://www.fanime.com/) the other month! It was fun, I think! I guess? +I cosplayed [Rose Quartz](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Steven_Universe_characters#Rose_Quartz) on Saturday at [FanimeCon](https://www.fanime.com/) the other month! (Okay, it was May. I'm [not a very productive writer](/2017/Nov/the-blockhead/).) It was fun, I think! I guess? + +I'm not really sure what other people get out of fandom conventions. There are panels, but pop-culture analysis is better in blog form than live discussion. There are autographs, but there are only so many celebrities I want to pay forty dollars in order to meet for forty seconds. There's the vendor hall, but I don't need more useless material possessions: my life is about bits, not atoms. -I'm not really sure what other people get out of fandom conventions. + For me, it's my one socially-acceptable excuse for crossdressing in public. +... well, that's not quite right; "socially-acceptable" isn't the concept I want. I live in goddamned _"Portland"_. (Which is actually Berkeley, but when I started my pseudonymous gender blog, I took my savvy friends' cowardly and paranoid advice to obfuscate even my location, and now I have to keep saying "'Portland'" for backwards compatibility, even though at this point my bad opsec is more akin to a genre convention or a running joke, rather than a real attempt to conceal my identity.) Everyone _and her dog_ has trans friends here. My new young male coworker just staight-up wears a dress and makeup some days, and no one bats an eye. (My attempt to "Blanchpill" him was ... uneventful.) + +So if I don't need to fear getting beaten up or even menacing stares, why do I need conventions to dress up? Could part of it be that I'm too old? (The fact that I wouldn't be caught dead wearing a dress _to work_ (!!) probably has something to do with my sense of propriety being calibrated to the world of 'aught-six, in contrast to my coworker, who I guess would have come of age in the _Obergefell_- and Jenner-era world of 'fifteen.) + +Maybe. But I think another part of it is that I don't + + + + +I'm not very good at it + +colorful sandals + [thousand-dollar ultra-realistic mask](https://www.creafx.com/en/special-make-up-effects/taylor-silicone-mask/) That I don't feel comfortable cross-dressing is important to notice @@ -21,8 +38,6 @@ That I don't feel comfortable cross-dressing is important to notice https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGTKL9LokHg (wait for the reveal at 0:44!) - - (_I will fight for the place where I'm free!_) (_I will fight for the world I was made in!_) @@ -30,3 +45,5 @@ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGTKL9LokHg (wait for the reveal at 0:44!) (previously: as Ens. Silvia Tilly at San Francisco Comic-Con 2018, as _Equestria Girls_ Twilight Sparkle at BABSCon 2018, [as Korra at San Francisco Comic-Con 2017](/2017/Oct/a-leaf-in-the-crosswind/), [as Pearl at FanimeCon 2017](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2017/05/gems-will-be-gems/), as [Lt. Jadzia Dax (circa 2369) at the _Star Trek_ 50 Year Mission Tour San Francisco 2016](/2016/Dec/joined/), [as Pearl as San Francsico Comic-Con 2016](/2016/Sep/is-there-affirmative-action-for-incompetent-crossplay/)) Raven is cosplayed more than any other Teen Titan + +Amazon authored my costome; I'm kind of a low-effort cosplayer \ No newline at end of file