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@@ -534,3 +534,12 @@ https://twitter.com/ESYudkowsky/status/1096769579362115584
 Ooh, how I wish they'd want me to stay.
 
 [trade arrangments: if that's the world we live in, fine]
+
+that's what makes it so hard: the only thing that actually helped me stop being bitter about school, was exiting the entire social context that made it an issue: once I had a grown-up software job
+it became irrelevant
+I was able to ragequit school (which was claiming to be one thing, education, but I don't think was living up to its marketing message) because I had somewhere else to go
+the obvious analogy here is to ragequit the "rationalist community" (which is claiming ot be one thing, but I don't think is living up to its marketing message)
+but ... that's my entire social circle
+
+If I can't ragequit the community, I have to do the analogue of going to grad school, while hating school—I don't have an exit this time
+