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 speculating that people are lying for political cover may be "uncharitable", but what else can I do when I _can't_ take people seriously?!
 
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 https://rationalconspiracy.com/2017/01/03/four-layers-of-intellectual-conversation/
 
+whether it's too late for the pebbles to vote https://status451.com/2016/08/10/too-late-for-the-pebbles-to-vote-part-2/
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+A world that makes sense. A world that's not lying to me.
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+_(But this time not for you, but just for me—)_
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+_(Well, no more; I won't beg to buy a shot at your back door)_
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+_(If I'm aching at the thought of you, what for? That's not me anymore)_
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+The "truth/anti-truth attractors in human psychology" hypothesis feels more plausible when I emphasize the need to cover-up cover-ups as the specific mechanism for anti-truth.
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+Introspectively, I think I can almost feel the oscillation between "I'm embarrassed and upset about {thing} that I don't want to acknowledge or explain, but that makes me not want to acknowledge or explain the fact that I feel embarrassed an upset" vs. "Yes, {thing} is real; real things are allowed to appear on maps."
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+an implicit don't-ask-don't-tell agreement, where they certainly had clues that something was wrong with me gender-wise, but no one had an incentive to bring it up.
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+(Contrary to popular belief, it's not exactly ignorance that's bliss, but more generally lack of game-theoretic common knowledge: if they know, and I know that they know, but they don't know that I know that they know, that's often close enough.)
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+For example, I seem to remember my first pair of breastforms mysteriously disappearing just after the time my mother unilaterally cleaned out my closet. (And a friend not long thereafter reported overhearing her telling his parents that she was pretty sure I wasn't gay.)
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+my history of email exchanges with the Popular Author being demanding
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+posting on LW because it's the conversational locus https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/8rYxw9xZfwy86jkpG/on-the-importance-of-less-wrong-or-another-single
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+M.L. Morris "Vocational Interests in the United States" d=1.7 on occupational preferences
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+playing for scraps vs. playing for keeps https://twitter.com/DarrenJBeattie/status/1151902363059392512