X-Git-Url: http://unremediatedgender.space/source?a=blobdiff_plain;f=notes%2Fmemoir-sections.md;h=09efd11b2e4cded5566d38fd0c2c62535c9f2594;hb=034eb43395c093b7a9dfc2faa5b23688b8f1f081;hp=8ba7a98e0e8fefbf6795b956dc6839eff85f183e;hpb=880bbeda8c1e88da68136876de0d293aa1be27bc;p=Ultimately_Untrue_Thought.git diff --git a/notes/memoir-sections.md b/notes/memoir-sections.md index 8ba7a98..09efd11 100644 --- a/notes/memoir-sections.md +++ b/notes/memoir-sections.md @@ -4,12 +4,9 @@ _ Michael Vassar and the Theory of Optimal Gossip _ psychiatric disaster With internet available— -✓ record of Yudkowsky citing TDT as part of decision to prosecute Emerson? -✓ Scott vs. Ben on Drowning -✓ Ray and D. Xu's comments on "The Incentives" -✓ comments on "Self-Consciousness wants to make" -✓ tussle with Ruby on "Causal vs. Social Reality" -✓ The End (of Sequences) +_ "Tiresias" comment +_ year of MIRI rebrand; think it was 2013; check before inserting (for ^siai footnote) +_ stats of SIAI vs. SingInst hits (for ^siai footnote) _ retrieve own-blog links for "futurist-themed delusions" _ double-check that "Changing Emotions" was in January _ No such thing as a tree @@ -120,7 +117,6 @@ _ Alicorn: about privacy, and for Melkor Glowfic reference link _ hostile prereader (April, J. Beshir, Swimmer, someone else from Alicorner #drama) _ maybe Kelsey (very briefly, just about her name)? _ maybe SK (briefly about his name)? (the memoir might have the opposite problem (too long) from my hostile-shorthand Twitter snipes) -_ maybe Big Yud (ask #drama about the politics/ettiquitte) marketing— _ Twitter @@ -134,21 +130,6 @@ _ dropping "and Scott" in Jessica's description of attacking narcissim _ I think it's OK to copy my friends' language from emails; plagiarism instincts -------- - -4 November progress assessment: My 113 word TODO bullets on "discrediting to the community" bloated up into 563 words of prose, a decompression ratio of 5. Taking this at face value— - -My remaining TODO notes in the pt. 3 ms. are about 1400 words—does that mean they become 7000 words, with the finished pt. 3 weighing in at 46K words?? - -For pt. 2, does 970 words of TODO inflate into 5K words of prose, for a finished pt. 2 at 16K words? Feels more likely to be an underestimate due to these notes being sparser on average? An additional 7K words, to finish at 18K?? - -For pt. 4, I have 617 words of TODO notes, but those also feel pretty sparse and should expand at a higher ratio than 5. An additional 5K words, to finish at 19K?? - -Projected post lengths: 18K + 46K + 19K = 83K?? -Projected additional words: 17K?? -Projected additional drafting: 17K / 750 K/day = 23 days?? -cross-referenced with my dayjob schedule implies ... finished draft ms. on 15 December? - ------- The thing about our crowd is that we have a lamentably low proportion of women (13.3% cis women in the last community survey) and—I don't know when this happened; it certainly didn't feel like this back in 'aught-nine—an enormous number of trans women relative to population base rates (2.7%, for a cis-to-trans ratio of 4.9!!), the vast majority of whom I expect to be AGP @@ -1904,4 +1885,37 @@ I said I perceived a nearest-unblocked-strategy pattern, where I'm trying to opt Speaking of coordination: you know what's useful for coordination? Principles! Common knowledge! the post introducing the litany of Gendlin was literally titled "You _Can_ Face Reality" -https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/HYWhKXRsMAyvRKRYz/you-can-face-reality \ No newline at end of file +https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/HYWhKXRsMAyvRKRYz/you-can-face-reality + +Re: "it's deception aimed at crazy people"—but if you're so casual about deceiving crazy people, you probably don't care much about sane non-Keepers, either. (Same energy: if your date is rude to the waiter, he won't be a good partner, either.)—and in fact, empathy towards crazy people _is_ shown in the section on Thellim's mother in "but hurting people is wrong" + +"Criticism not welcome, it's just a story; if you don't like it, don't read it" works for normal glowfic, but it doesn't work when you're earnestly spreading memes about how your fictional Society is superior to our Earth; if you're going to make _that_ claim in earnest, you should expect people to subject your fictional Society to scrutiny to check whether it holds together + +Clara says to just roll your eyes and ignore him, but in a way, that seems _more_ disrespectful—to just _write someone off_, rather than having faith that they can be reached by argument + +There's a difference between jokes where the audience is supposed to "get the joke" (and you're willing to accept collateral damage to people who didn't get the joke), and political moves where + +When he says "no one but Zack M. Davis would have said anything where you could hear it", I regard that as an abject failure of the community, but he regards it has "working as intended"? + +Vassar had once praised me as "Zack is pretty much always right" (when I express an opinion; he still thought I was dumb/unperceptive), and I accepted the praise that it wasn't meant literally—but if someone had a longstanding dispute with me and objected to the praise, I would fundamentally "get" why they were objecting (they don't want Vassar encouraging people to defer to me), rather than assuming _they_ thought it was meant literally + +I did "get what I needed" out of the Eliezerfic fight (before, I still had anxiety about whether I should email him before publishing this memoir; and now, I don't) + +He could have saved, like, six years of my life, if the March 2016 post had said, "I think 30% of males are gender-dysphoric and might benefit from transitioning" + +Fri 14 Jul 2017 +(03:54:42 PM) alicorn24: holy fuck that is a lot of money +(03:54:53 PM) alicorn24: when I read that blog post I was imagining you'd like, throw fifty bucks at some people +(03:55:06 PM) zackmdavis@yahoo.com: what? that would be insulting +(03:57:46 PM) zackmdavis@yahoo.com: there's a calibration thing about being a San Francisco software engineer; and, April could have been really really much worse if I didn't have friends + +"probably won't understand" self-comments— +https://www.greaterwrong.com/posts/vjmw8tW6wZAtNJMKo/which-parts-are-me/comment/gYSsBbZ6xvaf2b3Eh +https://www.greaterwrong.com/posts/QZs4vkC7cbyjL9XA9/changing-emotions/comment/pK9JHSTTnnpjbbqZp +https://www.greaterwrong.com/posts/WijMw9WkcafmCFgj4/do-scientists-already-know-this-stuff/comment/EFg4p7KRbthgH3SnR +https://www.greaterwrong.com/posts/r5H6YCmnn8DMtBtxt/you-are-a-brain/comment/CsqYAeCPnsAsdQb7d +https://www.greaterwrong.com/posts/QB9eXzzQWBhq9YuB8/rationalizing-and-sitting-bolt-upright-in-alarm/comment/2FfTFrA7iKK6kxqMq + +I should have said: _You_ are a product of your time. _Eliezer_ has no integrity. Or rather, he's forgotten that you can't define the word "integrity" any way you want. + +I talked in #drama _about_ talking in Eliezerfic because it seemed like a free action, but the fact that I felt crummy/depressed afterwards suggests that it wasn't actually a free action (but still a substantial discount compared to screwing up in a Yudkowsky-hosted space) \ No newline at end of file