-(Oh, and there was also this part about how [the entire future of humanity and the universe depended on](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/GNnHHmm8EzePmKzPk/value-is-fragile) our figuring out how to reflect human values in a recursively self-improving artificial superintelligence. That part's complicated.)
+(Oh, and there was also [this part about](https://intelligence.org/files/AIPosNegFactor.pdf) how [the entire future of humanity and the universe depended on](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/GNnHHmm8EzePmKzPk/value-is-fragile) our figuring out how to reflect human values in a recursively self-improving artificial superintelligence. That part's complicated.)
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+I guess I feel pretty naïve now, but—I _actually believed our own propoganda_ that we were a systematically-correct-reasoning community. I _actually thought_ we were doing something new and special of historical and possibly even _cosmological_ significance.
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+This does not seem remotely credible to me any more. I should explain—_not_ because I expect anyone to actually read this incredibly boring and petty Diary entry, much less change their mind about anything because of it. I should explain for my own mental health. For closure. The sooner I manage to get the Whole Dumb Story _written down_, the sooner I can stop grieving and _move on with my life_. (However many decades that turns out to be. The part about superintelligence eventually destroying the world still seems right; it's just the part about there existing a systematically-correct-reasoning community that seems fraudulent now.)
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+I fear the explanation requires some personal backstory about me and my special interests. I ... almost don't want to tell the backstory, because the thing I've been upset about all year is that I thought a systematically-correct-reasoning community should be able to correct a _trivial_ philosophy-of-language mistake that has nothing to do with me, and it was pretty frustrating when people
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+[...]
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+Ever since I was thirteen years old—
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+(and I _really_ didn't expect to be blogging about this eighteen years later)
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+(I _still_ don't want to be blogging about this, but somebody has to and no one else will)
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+my _favorite_ masturbation fantasy has always been some variation