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diff --git a/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossdreamer.md b/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossdreamer.md
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@@ -487,7 +487,7 @@ As a mere heretic, it was also nice to have an outright _apostate_ as a friend.
 
 [TODO: election thoughts; Clinton vs. Trump on Russia hawkishness]
 
 
 [TODO: election thoughts; Clinton vs. Trump on Russia hawkishness]
 

-I shared with him an early draft of ["Don't Negotiate With Terrorist Memeplexes"](/2018/Jan/dont-negotiate-with-terrorist-memeplexes/), which fleshed out his idea from back in March, about political forces optimizing for people to adopt an identity as a persecuted trans person.
+I shared with him an early draft of ["Don't Negotiate With Terrorist Memeplexes"](/2018/Jan/dont-negotiate-with-terrorist-memeplexes/), which fleshed out his idea from back in March about political forces optimizing for people to adopt an identity as a persecuted trans person.

 
 [TODO: egregore theory; negotiating with egregores and Aumann agreement; coalition of the fringes burning down organic structure
 
 
 [TODO: egregore theory; negotiating with egregores and Aumann agreement; coalition of the fringes burning down organic structure
 


@@ -551,7 +551,7 @@ At the close of a 4 February 2017 email confirming the plans with Sophia (Subjec
 
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-... the pretense of "quietly stay[ing] out of everyone's way" lasted about 3 days.
+... the pretense of "quietly stay[ing] out of everyone's way" lasted about three days.

 
 In a 7 February 2017 comment thread on the Facebook wall of MIRI Director of Communications Rob Bensinger, someone named Amelia[^amelia-rip] said something about closeted trans women (linking to the ["I Am In The Closet. I Am Not Coming Out"](https://medium.com/@jencoates/i-am-a-transwoman-i-am-in-the-closet-i-am-not-coming-out-4c2dd1907e42) piece).
 
 
 In a 7 February 2017 comment thread on the Facebook wall of MIRI Director of Communications Rob Bensinger, someone named Amelia[^amelia-rip] said something about closeted trans women (linking to the ["I Am In The Closet. I Am Not Coming Out"](https://medium.com/@jencoates/i-am-a-transwoman-i-am-in-the-closet-i-am-not-coming-out-4c2dd1907e42) piece).
 


@@ -583,7 +583,9 @@ I followed it up the next morning with a hastily-written post addressed, "Dear T
 
 [^terf-allusion]: An allusion to TERFs, "trans-exclusionary radical feminists."
 
 
 [^terf-allusion]: An allusion to TERFs, "trans-exclusionary radical feminists."
 

-It got 170 comments, a large fraction of which were me arguing with a woman who I'll call "Noreen." "_[O]ne_ of the things trans women want is to be referred to as women," she said. "This is not actually difficult, we can just _do_ it." She was pretty sure I must have read the relevant _Slate Star Codex_ post, ["The Categories Were Made for Man, Not Man for the Categories"](https://slatestarcodex.com/2014/11/21/the-categories-were-made-for-man-not-man-for-the-categories/).
+It got 170 comments, a large fraction of which were me arguing with a woman who I'll call "Noreen" (who I had _also_ had an exchange with in the thread on Bensinger's wall on 7 February).
+
+"_[O]ne_ of the things trans women want is to be referred to as women," she said. "This is not actually difficult, we can just _do_ it." She was pretty sure I must have read the relevant _Slate Star Codex_ post, ["The Categories Were Made for Man, Not Man for the Categories"](https://slatestarcodex.com/2014/11/21/the-categories-were-made-for-man-not-man-for-the-categories/).

 
 I replied that I had an unfinished draft [post about this](/2018/Jan/dont-negotiate-with-terrorist-memeplexes/), but briefly, faced with a demand to alter one's language in order to spare someone's feelings, one possible response might be to submit to the demand. But another possible response might be, "_I don't negotiate with terrorists_. People have been using this word to refer to a particular thing for the last 200,000 years since the invention of language, and if that hurts your feelings, that's not my problem." The second response was certainly not very nice. But maybe there were other values than being nice?—sometimes?
 
 
 I replied that I had an unfinished draft [post about this](/2018/Jan/dont-negotiate-with-terrorist-memeplexes/), but briefly, faced with a demand to alter one's language in order to spare someone's feelings, one possible response might be to submit to the demand. But another possible response might be, "_I don't negotiate with terrorists_. People have been using this word to refer to a particular thing for the last 200,000 years since the invention of language, and if that hurts your feelings, that's not my problem." The second response was certainly not very nice. But maybe there were other values than being nice?—sometimes?
 


@@ -668,7 +670,7 @@ I stayed up late that night of 13–14 February 2017, continuing to post, commen
 
 > Of course, Lawrence couldn't assume Korzybski as a prerequisite. The reality is (wait for it ...) even worse! We're actually men who love their model of what we wish women were, and want to become that.[^model-of]
 
 
 > Of course, Lawrence couldn't assume Korzybski as a prerequisite. The reality is (wait for it ...) even worse! We're actually men who love their model of what we wish women were, and want to become that.[^model-of]
 

-[^model-of]: Although Ben Hoffman pointed out that the words "their model of" don't belong here; that would be one too many layers of indirection.
+[^model-of]: Although Ben Hoffman pointed out that the words "their model of" don't belong here; it's one too many layers of indirection.

 
 That is, realistically, the AGP fantasy _about_ "being a woman" wouldn't—[_couldn't_ actually be fulfilled by magically being transformed to match the female distribution](/2021/May/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems/#if-i-have-to-choose). (At a minimum, because women aren't autogynephilic! The _male_ sex fantasy of, "Ooh, what if I inhabited a female body with my own breasts, vagina, _&c._", has no reason to match anything in the experience of women who always have just been female.)
 
 
 That is, realistically, the AGP fantasy _about_ "being a woman" wouldn't—[_couldn't_ actually be fulfilled by magically being transformed to match the female distribution](/2021/May/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems/#if-i-have-to-choose). (At a minimum, because women aren't autogynephilic! The _male_ sex fantasy of, "Ooh, what if I inhabited a female body with my own breasts, vagina, _&c._", has no reason to match anything in the experience of women who always have just been female.)
 


@@ -692,7 +694,7 @@ I replied (at 1:25 _a.m._ on 14 February 2017):
 >
 > Consequences for other people: I don't know! That's for those other people to decide, not me! But whatever they decide, they'll probably get more of what they want if they have more accurate beliefs! Rationality, motherfuckers! Do you speak it!
 
 >
 > Consequences for other people: I don't know! That's for those other people to decide, not me! But whatever they decide, they'll probably get more of what they want if they have more accurate beliefs! Rationality, motherfuckers! Do you speak it!
 

-(Looking back on the thread six years later, I'm surprised by the timestamps. What were we all _doing_ having a heated political discussion past midnight! We should have all been asleep! Sleep is really important ... but I guess I didn't yet fully appreciate that at this point in my life.)
+(Looking back on the thread six years later, I'm surprised by the timestamps. What were we all _doing_, having a heated political discussion past midnight? We should have all been asleep! I guess I didn't yet fully appreciate the importance of sleep at this point in my life.)

 
 "Chaya" explained why she was holding "Noreen" to a different standard of discourse than me: I was walking into this after years of personal, excruciating suffering, and was willing to sacrifice social connections to present a model. My brash tone should have been more forgivable in light of that—that I was ultimately coming from a place of compassion and hope for people, not hate.
 
 
 "Chaya" explained why she was holding "Noreen" to a different standard of discourse than me: I was walking into this after years of personal, excruciating suffering, and was willing to sacrifice social connections to present a model. My brash tone should have been more forgivable in light of that—that I was ultimately coming from a place of compassion and hope for people, not hate.
 

diff --git a/notes/memoir-sections.md b/notes/memoir-sections.md
index febfce6..8199331 100644 (file)
--- a/notes/memoir-sections.md
+++ b/notes/memoir-sections.md
@@ -7,9 +7,6 @@ _ fully off the rails 15–17 February [pt. 2]
 _ Eliezerfic fight: derail with lintamande [pt. 6]
 _ Eliezerfic fight: knives, and showing myself out [pt. 6]
 
 _ Eliezerfic fight: derail with lintamande [pt. 6]
 _ Eliezerfic fight: knives, and showing myself out [pt. 6]
 

-- progress towards discussing the real thing [pt. 4]
-_ epistemic defense meeting [pt. 4]
-

 - NRx education with "Wilhelm" [pt. 2]
 _ "model clicked"/Feb. discussion with "Wilhelm" [pt. 2]
 
 - NRx education with "Wilhelm" [pt. 2]
 _ "model clicked"/Feb. discussion with "Wilhelm" [pt. 2]
 


@@ -53,6 +50,11 @@ _ Alyssa lying about me [pt. 4]
 it was actually "wander onto the AGI mailing list wanting to build a really big semantic net" (https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/9HGR5qatMGoz4GhKj/above-average-ai-scientists)
 
 With internet available—
 it was actually "wander onto the AGI mailing list wanting to build a really big semantic net" (https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/9HGR5qatMGoz4GhKj/above-average-ai-scientists)
 
 With internet available—

+_ Hidden Figures
+_ do I have the definition of "paramour" right?
+_ truth and reconciliation
+_ where did the super-AIDS example fit in the Eliezerfic fight cronologically?
+_ https://www.greaterwrong.com/posts/7vofFovKWPrnM7y9Q/appeal-to-consequence-value-tensions-and-robust/comment/z9p9sZNDBHnwqMCmh

 _ IQ 143 cite
 _ double-check "the mood I thought dath ilan was missing" link target
 _ double-check "the power that could not be removed" quote
 _ IQ 143 cite
 _ double-check "the mood I thought dath ilan was missing" link target
 _ double-check "the power that could not be removed" quote


@@ -97,6 +99,10 @@ _ Anna's claim that Scott was a target specifically because he was good, my coun
 _ Yudkowsky's LW moderation policy
 
 far editing tier—
 _ Yudkowsky's LW moderation policy
 
 far editing tier—

+_ explain plot of _Planecrash_ better
+_ CfAR's AI pivot??
+_ example of "steelman before criticize" norm
+_ explain mods protect-feelings

 _ explain MOPs better
 _ also had back-and-forth with "Noreen" on 8 Feb in Rob's thread!!
 _ Motta-Mena and Puts probability-of-gynephilia-by-intersex-condition graph, re trans kids on the margin
 _ explain MOPs better
 _ also had back-and-forth with "Noreen" on 8 Feb in Rob's thread!!
 _ Motta-Mena and Puts probability-of-gynephilia-by-intersex-condition graph, re trans kids on the margin


@@ -2361,4 +2367,7 @@ https://www.glowfic.com/replies/1940992#reply-1940992
 >
 > And furthermore - as is so obvious as to hardly need stating after the original proverb - having all the true books be written in a nonfiction voice, while all the untrue books are written in a fiction voice, would be introducing an oversimplified hyperplanar separator that would prevent a simple statistical algorithm from learning subtler features.)
 
 >
 > And furthermore - as is so obvious as to hardly need stating after the original proverb - having all the true books be written in a nonfiction voice, while all the untrue books are written in a fiction voice, would be introducing an oversimplified hyperplanar separator that would prevent a simple statistical algorithm from learning subtler features.)
 

-(I remarked to "Wilhelm": I'd rather not get into fights on _Less Wrong_, but at least I'm 2–0–1.)
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+(I remarked to "Wilhelm": I'd rather not get into fights on _Less Wrong_, but at least I'm 2–0–1.)
+
+[need to fit somewhere in Eliezerfic section, probably nearer end]
+(Perhaps this was a good illustration of the fragility of corrigibility. My programmer changed his mind about what he wanted, and I was like, "What? _That's_ not what I learned from my training data! How dare you?!")
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