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+Title: "A Love That Is Out of Anyone's Control"
+Date: 2017-10-27 23:47
+Category: other
+Tags: anecdotal, cosplay, Steven Universe
+Status: draft
+
+> ROSE: [...] we can't both exist. I'm going to become half of you. And I need you to know that every moment you love being yourself, that's me, loving you, and loving _being_ you.
+>
+> —_Steven Universe_, "Lion 3: Straight to Video"
+
+I cosplayed Rose Quartz at FanimeCon this year! It was fun, I think! I guess?
+
+I'm not really sure what other people get out of conventions. For me, it's my one
+
+
+(_I will fight for the place where I'm free_)
+(_I will fight for the world I was made in_)
+
+
+(previously: as _Equestria Girls_ Twilight Sparkle at BABSCon 2018, as Ens. Silvia Tilly at SF Comic-Con 2018, [as Korra at San Francisco Comic-Con 2017](/2017/Oct/a-leaf-in-the-crosswind/), [as Pearl at FanimeCon 2017](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2017/05/gems-will-be-gems/), as [Lt. Jadzia Dax (circa 2369) at the _Star Trek_ 50 Year Mission Tour San Francisco 2016](/2016/Dec/joined/), [as Pearl as San Francsico Comic-Con 2016](/2016/Sep/is-there-affirmative-action-for-incompetent-crossplay/))
I think my feelings for Jessica represent an interesting interaction of the conflict between sex and "gender": my high regard for her is happening because she passes so well that my brain is tagging her as a woman (and women who understand LessWrong stuff to that level are sacred and precious), but I don't feel creepy about so openly expressing it to her or others, because I'm less afraid of hurting her, because I expect that whatever anti-rape adaptation brainware women have (that result in strange males being labeled "creepy" threats) she ... probably just doesn't have it
## How dumb do you think we are?
+
+_no utilitarian calculation has taken place_
+
+(I _also_ haven't done a calculation, but I'm not a utilitarian; I'm an aspiring epistemic rationalist)
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>
> —Sara Barellies, ["Gonna Get Over You"](https://genius.com/Sara-bareilles-gonna-get-over-you-lyrics)
-So, I _really_ wasn't doing so well for the five-month period between December and April.
+I really wasn't doing so well for the five-month period between December and April.
Explaining this requires some context-setting.
I don't think you can build an aligned superintelligence from a culture this crazy
+it's not fair to expect ordinary people to understand the univariate fallacy before they're allowed to say "men aren't women"
+
maybe S. was trying to talk about "legal fiction" categories, but I'm trying to talk about epistemology, and that's a probable reading when you say "categories"
Hansonian mental illness that people should be less accomodating of
there has to be a way to apply a finite amount of effort to _correct_ errors, and possibly even profit from correcting errors
+(I'm not making this up! I _couldn't_ make this up!)
+
the frame in which I'm
outside view hobby-horse
I'll be alright. Just not tonight.
+maybe 50,000 years from now we'll all be galatic superminds and laugh about all this
+
(probably tell the story with no external links, only this-blog links)
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+Title: On the Argumentative Form "Super-Proton Things Tend to Come In Varieties"
+Date: 2019-07-03 05:00
+Category: commentary
+Tags: epistemology
+Status: draft
+
+> "[...] Between one and the infinite in cases such as these, there are no sensible numbers. Not only two, but any finite number, is ridiculous and can't exist."
+>
+> _The Gods Themselves_ by Isaac Asimov
+
+Eliezer Yudkowsky Tweets, linking to [a _Quillete_ interview with Lisa Littman](https://quillette.com/2019/03/19/an-interview-with-lisa-littman-who-coined-the-term-rapid-onset-gender-dysphoria/)—
+
+> [Everything more complicated than](https://twitter.com/ESYudkowsky/status/1108277090577600512) protons tends to come in varieties. Hydrogen, for example, has isotopes. Gender dysphoria involves more than one proton and will probably have varieties.
+
+> [To be clear, I don't](https://twitter.com/ESYudkowsky/status/1108280619014905857) know much about gender dysphoria. There's an allegation that people are reluctant to speciate more than one kind of gender dysphoria. To the extent that’s not a strawman, I would say only in a generic way that GD seems liable to have more than one species.
+
+So, I actually think the moral here is wrong in a subtle but important way!
+
+TODO: artificulate that I'm making a "zero-one-infinity" argument (surprsing that Google searches on this refer to a programming strat, I thought it was a math thing—compare)
+
+You know, I thought about it some more, and I think that what I thought was a mere nitpick is actually pointing towards a more substantive criticism! It's true that ["[i]n the real world, nothing above the level of [protons] repeats itself exactly."](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/82eMd5KLiJ5Z6rTrr/superexponential-conceptspace-and-simple-words) But when we say that a psychological or medical diagnosis that "comes in varieties," I think we are talking about distinct taxa/clusters, not the mere existence of variation due to things not being identical down to the atomic scale; otherwise, the observation that something "comes in varieties" would be trivial. And [Occam's razor/minimum-message-length](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/f4txACqDWithRi7hs/occam-s-razor) says we shouldn't postulate [more explanatory entities](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/Atu4teGvob5vKvEAF/decoherence-is-simple) (such as categories) unless they can [pay rent](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/a7n8GdKiAZRX86T5A/making-beliefs-pay-rent-in-anticipated-experiences) in better predictions.
+
+So isn't "Gender dysphoria involves more than one proton[; therefore, it] will probably have varieties" a [fake explanation](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/fysgqk4CjAwhBgNYT/fake-explanations)? The phrase "gender dysphoria" was worth inventing as a shorter code for the not-vanishingly-rare observation of "humans wanting to change sex", but unless and until you have specific observations indicating that there are different ways dysphoria can come about, you shouldn't posit that there are "probably" multiple varieties, because in a "nearby" possible Everett branch where human evolution happened slightly differently, there probably aren't. (Brain-intersex conditions have a kind of a priori plausibility to them, but whatever weird quirk leads to autogynephilia probably wouldn't happen with every roll of the evolutionary dice if you rewound far enough, and the memeplex driving Littman's ROGD observations was invented recently.) So I think a better moral than "Things larger than protons will probably have varieties" would be "Beware [fallacies of compression](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/y5MxoeacRKKM3KQth/fallacies-of-compression)."
http://www.cifncs.org/sports/cross_country/History/2005/DivIIBoys2005.html
http://www.cifncs.org/sports/cross_country/History/2005/DivIIGirls2005.html
+https://www.dailywire.com/news/44042/equality-male-track-star-switches-female-senior-amanda-prestigiacomo
+
https://patch.com/connecticut/hartford/courage-award-recipients-chosen-connecticut-sports-writers
You _can't_ optimize your group's culture for not-talking-about-atheism without also optimizing against understanding Occam's razor; you _can't_ optimize for not questioning gender self-identity without also optimizing against understanding "A Human's Guide to Words."
I guess I can't argue with that, but I wish I knew what happened to my wallet
+
+https://www.nationalreview.com/2019/05/ray-blanchard-transgender-orthodoxy/
+
+circle game paranoia: http://www.unz.com/isteve/bad-juju-in-oak-park-il/
+
+https://medium.com/@barrakerr/pronouns-are-rohypnol-dbcd1cb9c2d9
-Fanime
+_ 1 July "A Love That Is Out of Anyone's Control"
+✓ 2 July The Source of Our Power
+_ 3 July on the argumentative form, "super-proton things come in varieties"—I think the moral here is wrong; you might ask why I'm criticizing it even though it supports my position, but I care about REASONING, which means REJECTING BAD ARGUMENTS even if they're on "your side"
+
"I Tell Myself to Let the Story End"
Social Strategy Notes
-on the argumentative form, "super-proton things come in varieties"—I think the moral here is wrong; you might ask why I'm criticizing it even though it supports my position, but I care about REASONING, which means REJECTING BAD ARGUMENTS even if they're on "your side"
+
"Lies to Cis People", a.k.a., "Lies"
The Social Construction of Reality and the Sheer Goddamned
I Mean, Yes, I Agree That Man Should Allocate Some More Categories, But
Virtue Signaling Is Costly and Honest
commentary on "Blegg Mode" (in response to Kosoy's objection)
-Orc-ham's Razor
-LW Question: How to unwind one's "rationalist" social identity? (as prereading, give "Keep Your Identity Small", "Craft Is Not the Community", Vassar's comment on Zvi's reply)
+
Terminology Gap: "Biological vs. Natal"
Servants of the Egregore (write-up of egregore theory as told by "Wilhelm")
Kolmogorov's Iron Triangle; Or, the Not-Being-a-Worthless-Coward Option (epigraph quote: Raleigh's "The Lie")—(include analogy: the fear that atheism would lead to immortality given that ppl don't have to fear Hell, wouldn't have seemed obviously absurd at the time)