assorted scrap edits

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@@ -4,9 +4,9 @@ Category: fiction
 Tags: cathartic
 Status: draft
 
-"Mark, you look ... different," Alexa says.
+"Mark, I can't quite place it, but you look ... _different_ somehow," Alexa says.
 
-"Oh, I'm experimenting with a nonstandard hormone balance! It's kind of like being transgender, but without the part where you delusionally claim to be a woman," I say.
+"Yeah, I'm experimenting with a nonstandard hormone balance. It's kind of like being transgender, but without the part where you delusionally claim to be a woman," I say.
 
 "What?"
 

diff --git a/content/drafts/someone-has-to-say-it.md b/content/drafts/someone-has-to-say-it.md
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@@ -14,6 +14,10 @@ the people you're afraid of aren't going to read a blog whose URL is _unremediat
 
 Funny you should mention that!
 
+Honestly. I want to see you be brave.
+
 _Someone_ has to be _that asshole_ who says the true thing that everyone else is too cowardly to say, and I guess it's going to have to be me, Taylor Saotome-Westlake.
 
 
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+

diff --git a/content/drafts/survey-of-a-crossdreamscape.md b/content/drafts/survey-of-a-crossdreamscape.md
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--- a/content/drafts/survey-of-a-crossdreamscape.md
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@@ -1,11 +1,13 @@
-Title: Survey of a Crossdreamscape; Or, Why This Is Pretty Obviously Not What Cis Women Feel About Themselves
+Title: Survey of a Crossdreamscape And Why This Is Pretty Obviously Not What Cis Women Feel About Themselves
 Date: 2020-01-01
 Status: draft
 
 > This is the one that I had to write  
 > It's like a letter of love with no love left out  
 >
-> —Stretch Princess, "Dying to Begin"
+> —"Dying to Begin" by Stretch Princess
 
 I remember having animal-transformation fantasies as a teen, and then losing interest; was I close to being on track to being a furry? And that "Once I was a man" blog about getting transformed into clothing is what it looks like for the much rarer set of ppl for whom it really is about clothes
 
+
+this is what ETLE looks like for people for whom it's actually about clothes: http://onceiwasaman.blogspot.com/

diff --git a/epigraph_quotes.md b/epigraph_quotes.md
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--- a/epigraph_quotes.md
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@@ -13,6 +13,22 @@
 >
 > —"Let It Go" from _Frozen_
 
+> I cannot believe my eyes
+> How the world's filled with filth and lies
+> But it's plain to see
+> Evil inside of me
+> Is on the rise
+>
+> —"My Eyes", _Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog_
+
+> And believe me I am still alive
+> I'm doing science and I'm still alive
+> I feel fantastic and I'm still alive
+> While you're dying I'll be still alive
+> And when you're dead I will be still alive 
+>
+> —_Portal_ end credits song
+
 (Yes, the Only Real...)
 > You sound so innocent
 > All full of good intent
@@ -56,7 +72,8 @@
 >
 > Say what you want to say
 > And let the words fall out
-> Honestly, I want to see you be brave
+> Honestly
+> I want to see you be brave
 >
 > —"Brave" by Sara Bareilles
 

diff --git a/post_ideas.txt b/post_ideas.txt
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--- a/post_ideas.txt
+++ b/post_ideas.txt
@@ -3,9 +3,8 @@ Friendship Practices of the Secret-Sharing Plain Speech Valley Squirrels
 Blame Me for Trying
 
 core sequence—
-* Collective Debt, Collective Shame (what I wanted to say to /r/GenderCritical, why it didn't work, even if they're not so hostile towards Miranda Yardley or the androphilic MtTs who post)
-* Someone Has To Say It
 * As Well for a Sheep as a Lamb (polarizing tribal forces—because only bad ppl talk about AGP, you need to be very DGAF about politics in order to not be locked out of the correct explanation—and even then, socialization forces might turn you against your own ppl, something I have to be wary of)
+* I'm Sick of Being Lied To
 * The View From Nowhere
 * Faster Than Science (if not super-femme, there must be some other reason ...)
 * Yes, the Only Real Trans Woman Is a Transitioned Trans Woman (critique of https://medium.com/@jencoates/i-am-a-transwoman-i-am-in-the-closet-i-am-not-coming-out-4c2dd1907e42#.5dlc2qog6) 
@@ -16,20 +15,26 @@ core sequence—
 * Blanchard's Dangerous Idea and the Plight of the Lucid Crossdreamer; Or, Could Self-Reports Really Be That Wrong??
 * High-Dimensional Social Science and the Cluster Concept of Concepts
 * Stereotypes, Models, and Cognition
-* Mary's Room (we have calibration to know that we're probably mostly seeing the same colors up to colorblindness and tetrachromacy, but ppl probably don't mean the same thing by "gender dysphoria" or "identity", or "sexual orientation" (ref pseudobisexuality))
+* Mary's Room (we have calibration to know that we're probably mostly seeing the same colors up to colorblindness and tetrachromacy, but ppl probably don't mean the same thing by "gender dysphoria" or "identity", or "sexual orientation" (ref pseudobisexuality); the map is not the territory)
 * The Neglect of Probability Fallacy; Or, You Do Not Have an Intersex Condition
 * Simple Models Plus Noise Are Better Than Pretending Not to Have a Model (because personal identity doesn't exist, comparing notes with other people and being able to learn from _their_ mistakes is more useful than just saying "everyone has their own experience")
 * Reduce Gender Identities to Gender Goals ("trans" vs. "cis" only makes sense if the gradient between full-transition intervention and no intervention is sufficiently sharp)
+* Falsifiability and What We Expect Not to See (this is important for the Bayes crowd)
+* What You Want and What You Can Get; you can't take away transition technology; if you say it can only be used for dysphoria and not fetish, that creates an enormous incentive for self-delusion; even if someone like Kay would prefer that AGPs don't transition, at least getting ppl to admit that there are two types is a next step; maybe _after_ the trans rights movement has won, _then_ suddenly people will feel free to be non-delusional; "partial autogynephilia" may be partially GAMP, but a lot of it is compromise 
 
 other commentary—
+
 psychological sex differences aren't real, but gender identity is?? always nurture except when politically convenient
-Falsifiability and What We Expect Not to See (this is important for the Bayes crowd)
 Bucketing (go through Wikipedia list of trans women, categorize everyone)
 God, I hope it's just a coincidence that Steven Goldberg gets the fact/value thing right and everyone else gets it wrong
 horror story about trans activists being pro-porn, &c. indicating how aliens would analyze them as a subtype of males
-Engineering possibilities (Anne Lawrence identitfy early)
+* Engineering possibilities (Anne Lawrence identitfy early); people say they wish they could have transitioned younger if they knew it were possible (https://twitter.com/argumentshop/status/815633404943183872), but part of the reason people don't know it's possible is because AGP fantasy is the strongest diagnostic criterion and everyone is lying about this
 rachet effect (http://transblog.grieve-smith.com/the-slippery-slope/) (I can't imagine self with short hair)
 My Story
+* Collective Debt, Collective Shame (what I wanted to say to /r/GenderCritical, why it didn't work, even if they're not so hostile towards Miranda Yardley or the androphilic MtTs who post)
+* Someone Has To Say It
+
+
 
 criticism—
 Gender of the Gaps (you can always propose an essence when people knock down your ludicrous rationalization)
@@ -55,20 +60,15 @@ Git mirror on server
 
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-I'm Sick of Being Lied To
 Getting It Right the First Time
 Psychological Theories Predict Behavior, Not Just Self-Reports
 My Delusional Paraphilia Is the Best Delusional Paraphilia in the World
 Dual-Role Transvestism for the 21st Century
 Passing Is Legitimacy, Legitimacy Is Passing (I pass as college educated)
 All Men Benefit From Patriarchy
-game-theory; you can't take away transition technology; if you say it can only be used for dysphoria and not fetish, that creates an enormous incentive for self-delusion; maybe _after_ the trans rights movement has won, _then_ suddenly people will feel free to be non-delusional
  
 my upsetness at trans activists not respecting _my_ lived experience as AGP is reminicent of narcisstic rage in ppl hwo 
 
 because we're not narcissists http://elegantgatheringofwhitesnows.com/?p=2270
 
 euphoric effects of E are a placebo effect! https://autogynephiliatruth.wordpress.com/about/#comment-155
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