I wrote in my notebook:
-> THERE'S A WORD FOR IT. _There's a word for it._ I don't know whether to be happy that there's an adjective for what I have, or sad that other men have it, & that it's not not mine, & only mine. Bless Wikipedia for showing me [...] But still, after all emotions have fitted themselves away, there is the word. "Autogynephilia." So simple; I know all the foreign roots; I should have thought of it. "Autogynephilic." That's what I am.
+> THERE'S A WORD FOR IT. _There's a word for it._ I don't know whether to be happy that there's an adjective for what I have, or sad that other men have it, & that it's not mine, & only mine. Bless Wikipedia for showing me [...] But still, after all emotions have fitted themselves away, there is the word. "Autogynephilia." So simple; I know all the foreign roots; I should have thought of it. "Autogynephilic." That's what I am.
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+Title: Concerns and Reservations; Or, I Expect a Goddamned Medal When This Is Over
+Date: 2017-02-08 19:54
+Category: other
+Tags: cathartic
+Status: draft
+
+> MUGATU
+> The man has only one look, for Christ's sake! Crossdresser, demigirl, trans woman? They're the _same people_!
+>
+> Doesn't anyone notice this? I feel like I'm taking crazy pills!
+>
+> —[_Zoolander_](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mbKBWtoH93Q) (paraphrased)
+
+I'm thinking of just avoiding community social events now specifically to avoid having to run into any trans women. Under a memetic regime where [invalidating someone's identity](http://unremediatedgender.space/2016/Sep/psychology-is-about-invalidating-peoples-identities/) is the ultimate social _faux pas_, people who model themselves as women who were assigned male at birth and people who model themselves as gender-dysphoric males who don't expect the rest of the world to humor them, are like matter and antimatter: better keep them apart lest they annihilate each other and kill everyone in the room in a shower of gamma rays.
+
+There's this MtF social-contagion thing going on here in "Portland" that I find really disturbing
+
+It's a free country! You can get a sex change if you want! But can we _please_ admit that it's a sex _change_?
+ _propogate backwards in time_.
+
+
+Defect!
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+Title: Flipping the Frame
+Date: 2020-01-01
+Category: other
+Status: draft
+
+it should be the other way around
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+Title: I'm Smart Enough to Save this in My Drafts Folder Rather Than Facebook
+Date: 2020-01-01
+Category: other
+Tags: cathartic
+Status: draft
+
+Like, I used to tack the word "aspiring" in front as my preferred means of indicating that we don't think we've already solved rationality. Nowadays, I just reach for the scare quotes.
+
+ME: While I agree that words can be used in many ways depending on context, I claim that sometimes it's useful to use this top-20 noun to refer to the same thing it's always referred to for the past 200,000 years since language evolved, even if we have reasonably chosen to broaden the extension of that noun to also include other, relevantly similar things in most day-to-day contexts! Given that people are capable of inferring what is meant from the relevant context, this won't confuse anyone, and we can continue peacefully using language to describe reality. Then, we can use those descriptions of reality to formulate plans! Plans that will steer the universe into regions of configuration space that rank higher in our individual and collective preference orderings!
+
+"RATIONALISTS": But, but, using that top-20 noun to refer to the same thing it's always referred to for the past 200,000 years could cause psychological harm to people whose dysphoria is triggered by that word usage! You should take that into account before you use that word in that way! After all, categories were made for the man, not man for the categories!
+
+ME: As an aspiring epistemic rationalist (epistemic rationality is the only form of rationality; "instrumental rationality" is a phrase someone made up in order to make themselves feel better about lying), I have a GODDAMNED MORAL RESPONSIBILITY to ignore psychological harm to people whose dysphoria is triggered by using a GODDAMNED top-20 noun to refer to the same GODDAMNED thing it's always referred to for the past 200,000 years!
+
+ there is NO GODDAMNED POINT in even pretending to have a rationalist community anymore!
+
+JESUS FUCKING CHRIST GUYS
+
+Look! I don't want to hurt anyone! I'm a transhumanist! I probably have the same underlying psychological variation! I want to be pretty and have a high voice and have my own breasts and a vagina too! I have fantasized about this probably almost literally every single day since puberty! I'm wearing an 0.05 mg/day estradiol patch right now! (This is a starter dose and doesn't seem to be doing much. I should probably take the doctor up on her willingness to prescribe Spiro, too.)
+
+I AGREE that people should be able to modify their bodies and social presentation! I AGREE that we should enforce the polite social norm of referring to people the way they want to be referred to in accordance with their social presentation!
+
+But sometimes, it's also USEFUL to be able to talk about ACTUAL REALITY, in addition to social reality! And one concept that's occasionally USEFUL for MAKING (statistical, probabilistic) PREDICTIONS about those fucking apes running around in actual reality is BIOLOGICAL SEX. No! I am not going to say "assigned at birth", you pretentious bastards! BIOLOGICAL SEX!
+
+I know! I didn't want to believe it, either! I really, really didn't!
+
+I AGREE that intersex conditions exist! I AGREE that biology is complicated and all sorts of unusual things can happen at nonzero probabilities, such that ordinary everyday language that successfully classifies 99% of cases might return ambiguous results on that exceptional 1%.
+
+But I don't have an intersex condition! YOU don't have an intersex condition! Virtually NO ONE FUCKING HERE has an intersex condition! (That is, not _before_ starting HRT! Growth mindset!)
+
+I want people to be free to self-improve and do new and wonderful things that have never been done before, and I want social norms that are supportive of this, and I want everyone to get along and be friends.
+
+Together.
>
> —[Greg Cochran](https://westhunt.wordpress.com/2015/12/12/internal-contradictions/)
-We socially-liberal people—I _hope_ I'm still allowed to use the first person here, although the reader will ultimately judge that for herself—
+> I said, "The truth is whatever you can get away with."
+>
+> "No, that's journalism. The truth is whatever you can't escape."
+>
+> —_Distress_ by Greg Egan
+
+We socially-liberal individualist/feminist people—I _hope_ I'm still allowed to use the first person here, although the reader will ultimately judge that for herself—have this beautiful moral ideal, where we want every
... the scintillating but ultimately untrue thought.
+There's this an empricial structure to the world that _doesn't go away_
+
Psychological sex differences are
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+Title: This Is Worth a Fight
+Date: 2020-01-01
+Category: other
+Tags: cathartic
+Status: draft
+
+So, we have this cultural narrative for "Hey everyone, I'm transgender and you need to respect that." I agree that this is an improvement over the bad old world of transition not even being a thing, and I'm happy for everyone who has benefited from it.
+
+We do _not_ have a cultural narrative for "Hey everyone, I clearly have the same underlying psychological condition that causes males like me to perform the behavior of coming out as transgender, but all the existing cultural narratives around this are so obviously delusional that I can't possibly participate in them;
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> Can learn to be like you, too
>
> —"I Wanna Be Like You", _The Jungle Book_
-
-> I said, "The truth is whatever you can get away with."
->
-> "No, that's journalism. The truth is whatever you can't escape."
->
-> —_Distress_ by Greg Egan
+Flipping the Frame
A Common Misunderstanding; Or, the Spirit of the Staircase ()
-A Beacon Through the Darkness; Or, Getting It Right the First Time
Grim Trigger; Or, the Parable of the Honest Man and the God of Marketing
Faster Than Science (Transgender Edition)
There's a Land That I See; Or, the Spirit of Intervention
Yalta (https://transblog.grieve-smith.com/the-essential-conflict/ "What's in it for me?" "You're the one who doesn't believe in personal identity—you should be happy for us")
O Wad Some Power the Giftie Gie Us; Or, the Identity Dysphoria Trap (school dysphoria)
Fertility
+Externalize Everything
HEAVY CORE POSTS—
Q Don't Negotiate With Terrorist Memeplexes; Or, Why I Don't Care About Your Feelings
Q The View From Nowhere
Q As Well for a Sheep as a Lamb; Or, My Struggle to Keep It Charitable
Q Review of Nevada
-_ High-Dimensional Social Science and the Cluster Concept of Concepts
+_ Against Maximum-Entropy Psychology; Or, High-Dimensional Social Science and the Cluster Concept of Concepts
_ Stereotypes, Models, and Cognition
_ The Neglect of Probability Fallacy; Or, You Do Not Have an Intersex Condition
Q Simple Models Plus Noise Are Better Than Pretending Not to Have a Model
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