Tags: autogynephilia, Eliezer Yudkowsky, epistemic horror, my robot cult, personal, sex differences
Status: draft
+> Given that females prefer to live with female relatives if they are going to live in groups at all, and given that the size and dispersion of these groups is determined by the interaction of food availability and predation risk, how should males map themselves onto the female distribution?
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+> Robin I. M. Dunbar, Primate Social Systems, Ch. 7, "Evolution of Grouping Patterns"
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So, as I sometimes allude to, I've spent basically my entire adult life in this insular intellectual subculture that was founded in the late 'aughts to promulgate an ideal of _systematically correct reasoning_—general methods of thought that result in true beliefs and successful plans—and, incidentally, to use these methods of systematically correct reasoning to prevent superintelligent machines from [destroying all value in the universe](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/GNnHHmm8EzePmKzPk/value-is-fragile). Lately I've been calling it my "robot cult" (a phrase [due to Dale Carrico](https://amormundi.blogspot.com/2011/08/ten-reasons-to-take-seriously.html))—the pejorative is partially ironically affectionate, and partially an expression of bitter contempt acquired from that time almost everyone I used to trust insisted on selectively playing dumb about our own philosophy of language in a way that [was optimized for](TODO: linky "Algorithmic Intent") tricking me into cutting my dick off (independently of the empirical facts that determine whether or not cutting my dick off is actually a good idea).
But that's a _long story_—for another time, perhaps. For now, I want to explain how my robot cult's foundational texts had an enormous influence on my self-concept in relation to sex and gender.
-Title: Student Dysphoria; Or, Comparing This to a Previous Life's War
+Title: A Previous Life's War
Date: 2020-01-01
Category: commentary
Tags: schooling
Status: draft
-There was a brief, beautiful moment from 2014, the first year of my life (that I feel comfortable admitting to), until mid-2016—a year-and-a-half long moment when I _didn't_ have to fight a [desperate ideological war](/2020/Feb/if-in-some-smothering-dreams-you-too-could-pace/) of survival against Society that's _trying to kill me_.
+There was a brief, beautiful moment from 2014, the first year of my life (that I feel comfortable admitting to), until mid-2016—a year-and-a-half long moment when I _didn't_ have to fight a desperate and obviously hopeless [ideological war](/2020/Feb/if-in-some-smothering-dreams-you-too-could-pace/) of survival against a Society that's _trying to kill me_.
-(Technically, trying to impose [gerrymandered concepts](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/esRZaPXSHgWzyB2NL/where-to-draw-the-boundaries) that raise the message length of my existence in social reality. Like I said, _trying to kill me_.)
+(Technically, trying to impose the use of [gerrymandered concepts](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/esRZaPXSHgWzyB2NL/where-to-draw-the-boundaries) that raise the [message length](TODO: linky "Beyond the Binary") of my existence in social reality. Like I said, _trying to kill me_.)
-Peacetime was _amazing_. I was so happy—not ecstatic, but happy in the ordinary way of moral patient, someone whose life is valuable simply in the experience of living of it, rather than for its effects on some grand Cause. I [wrote a _chess engine_](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2019/05/minimax-search-and-the-structure-of-cognition/); I [gave money to _charity_](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/12/philanthropy-scorecard-through-2016/); I [drank _pumpkin spice_](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2014/09/pumpkin-spice/) and played [that tower defense game where](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2014/10/friday-night-lies/) the bad ponies are the good ponies and the good ponies are the bad ponies.
+Peacetime was _amazing_. I was so happy—not ecstatic, but happy in the ordinary way of moral patient, someone whose life is valuable simply in the experience of living of it, rather than for its effects on some grand Cause. I [wrote a _chess engine_](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2019/05/minimax-search-and-the-structure-of-cognition/); I [gave money to _charity_](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/12/philanthropy-scorecard-through-2016/); I [drank _pumpkin spice_](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2014/09/pumpkin-spice/) and played that tower defense game where the bad ponies are the good ponies and the good ponies are the bad ponies.
That carefree selfishness is gone now, subordinated to the war effort. And so soon after the last war, too.
>
> —Sarah Blaffer Hrdy, dedication to _The Woman That Never Evolved_
-> Given that females prefer to live with female relatives if they are going to live in groups at all, and given that the size and dispersion of these groups is determined by the interaction of food availability and predation risk, how should males map themselves onto the female distribution?
->
-> Robin I. M. Dunbar, Primate Social Systems, Ch. 7, "Evolution of Grouping Patterns"
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> "LMAO", says a member of the Community Team. A colleague approaches him and asks why he is laughing. "I just heard the funniest joke in the world!" "Well, go ahead, tell me!" says the other judge. "I can't–I just gave someone a code of conduct violation for it!"
>
> —old Soviet joke (paraphrased)
> the massive correlation between exposure to Yudkowsky’s writings and being a trans woman (can’t bother to do the calculations but the connection is absurdly strong)
https://americanmind.org/essays/children-and-transgenderism/
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+https://quillette.com/2019/09/24/no-one-is-born-in-the-wrong-body/
+> For instance, up until age 7, many children often believe that if a boy puts on a dress, he becomes a girl.
UUT—
-_ Student Dysphoria; Or, Comparing This to a Previous Life's War
_ Beyond the Binary
+_ A Previous Life's War
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+_ I, Too, Dislike It
+
_ The Feeling Is Mutual
_ Hrunkner Unnerby and the Shallowness of Progress
_ Ideology Is the General Case (working title)
-_ I, Too, Dislike It
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_ Walker correspondence
_ 30 Years of the Blank Slate (Cosmides-Tooby/Pinker/Murray)
"the love of a man for a woman, and the love of a woman for a man, have not been cognitively derived from each other or from any other value."
-https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/NnohDYHNnKDtbiMyp/fake-utility-functions
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+"It is said that parents do all the things they tell their children not to do, which is how they know not to do them." https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/DwtYPRuCxpXTrzG9m/my-wild-and-reckless-youth
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