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@@ -19,7 +19,6 @@ _ the hill he wants to die on (insert somewhere in "Standing")
 _ Tail vs. Bailey / Davis vs. Yudkowsky analogy (new block somewhere)
 _ mention that "Not Man for the Categories" keeps getting cited
 
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 pt. 3 edit tier—
 _ fullname Taylor and Hoffman at start of pt. 3
 _ footnote clarifying that "Riley" and Sarah weren't core members of the group, despite being included on some emails?
@@ -62,7 +61,7 @@ _ mention Nick Bostrom email scandal (and his not appearing on the one-sentence
 _ revise and cut words from "bad faith" section since can link to "Assume Bad Faith"
 _ cut words from January 2020 Twitter exchange (after war criminal defenses)
 _ revise reply to Xu
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+_ everyone *who matters* prefers to stay on the good side
 
 pt. 5 edit tier—
 _ quote specific exchange where I mentioned 10,000 words of philosophy that Scott was wrong—obviously the wrong play
@@ -79,10 +78,14 @@ _ cite Earthling/postrat sneers
 _ cite postYud Tweet
 _ when EY put a checkmark on my Discord message characterizing his strategy as giving up on intellectual honesty
 _ cut lots of words from Scotts comments on Jessica's MIRI post (keep: "attempting to erase the agency", Scott blaming my troubles on Michael being absurd)
+_ sucking Scott's dick is helpful because he's now the main gateway instead of HPMOR
+_ Sarah's point that Scott gets a lot of undeserved deference, too: https://twitter.com/s_r_constantin/status/1435609950303162370
+
 
 dath ilan ancillary tier—
 _ Who are the 9 most important legislators called?
 _ collect Earth people sneers
+_ psyops don't require people taking them seriously, only that they make people think the govenment is doing psyops
 
 
 things to discuss with Michael/Ben/Jessica—
@@ -2821,3 +2824,6 @@ https://twitter.com/ESYudkowsky/status/1708587781424046242
 
 https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/qbcuk8WwFnTZcXTd6/thomas-kwa-s-miri-research-experience
 > The model was something like: Nate and Eliezer have a mindset that's good for both capabilities and alignment, and so if we talk to other alignment researchers about our work, the mindset will diffuse into the alignment community, and thence to OpenAI, where it would speed up capabilities.
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+27 January 2020—
+> I'm also afraid of the failure mode where I get frame-controlled by the Michael/Ben/Jessica mini-egregore (while we tell ourselves a story that we're the real rationalist coordination group and not an egregore at all). Michael says that the worldview he's articulating would be the one that would be obvious to me if I felt that I was in danger. Insofar as I trust that my friends' mini-egregore is seeing something but I don't trust the details, the obvious path forward is to try to do original seeing while leaning into fear—trusting Michael's meta level advice, but not his detailed story.
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@@ -3357,3 +3357,5 @@ https://www.tiredtranssexual.com/
 https://deathisbad.substack.com/p/my-agp-dudes-it-does-get-better
 
 https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2023/10/09/alliance-defending-freedoms-legal-crusade
+
+> Michael says the thing we call "trans women" are basically males who have been lied to about how sex works and who don't, can't participate in rape culture. As a virgin from the 1987 birth cohort, this resonates. I said, "Comment 171 syndrome." Although ... I have been in bed with a woman a few times, and from there the proximate cause of still-being-a-virgin-afterward was erectile nonperformance due to obligate-AGP. This is likely related to Comment 171 syndrome. Blanchard wrote about "developmental competition" (the balance between allo- and auto- hardening during psycho-sexual development): my analogue in a world where I had known how and why to ethically pursue girls as a teenager would still be in the same taxon, but maybe wouldn't have gone so far down the obligate track.

diff --git a/notes/post_ideas.txt b/notes/post_ideas.txt
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@@ -1,4 +1,3 @@
-- Start Over
 - Fake Deeply
 - Beyond the Binary