Tags: cathartic, discourse
Status: draft
-There's this slogan meant to illustrate a principle in game theory: "Don't negotiate with terrorists." Imagine you're a political leader and terrorists have taken some of your people hostage and promise to release them if you meet their demands. You should refuse the deal, the argument goes, no matter how much you desperately want your people back safe, because agreeing would create an incentive for the terrorists to take more hostages; if you're the kind of agent that pays ransoms, blackmailing you is a reliable profit opportunity (["For the end of that game is oppression and shame, / And the nation that pays it is lost!"](http://www.poetryloverspage.com/poets/kipling/dane_geld.html)).
+> It is wrong to put temptation in the path of any nation,
+>  For fear they should succumb and go astray;
+> So when you are requested to pay up or be molested,
+>  You will find it better policy to say:—
+>
+> "We never pay <em>any</em>one Dane-geld,
+>  No matter how trifling the cost;
+> For the end of that game is oppression and shame,
+>  And the nation that pays it is lost!"
+>
+> —["Dane-Geld"](http://www.poetryloverspage.com/poets/kipling/dane_geld.html) by Rudyard Kipling
-New ideas are constantly being invented and talked about in the world; some of them catch on, and spread, and spawn entire subcultures and political movements. Given that ideas vary, replicate themselves (from mind to mind, by means of speech or writing), and moreover, _aren't equally good_ and replicating themselves
+There's this slogan meant to illustrate a principle in game theory: "Don't negotiate with terrorists." Imagine you're a political leader and terrorists have taken some of your citizens hostage and promise to release them if you meet their demands. You should refuse the deal, the argument goes, no matter how much you desperately want your people back safe, because agreeing would create an incentive for the terrorists to take more hostages; if you're the kind of agent that pays ransoms, blackmailing you is a reliable profit opportunity.
+New ideas are constantly being invented and talked about in the world; some of them catch on, and spread, and spawn entire subcultures and political movements. Given that ideas vary, replicate themselves (from mind to mind, by means of speech or writing), and moreover, _aren't equally good_ at replicating themselves, it can be useful to [think of the spread of ideas as an _evolutionary_ process](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Memetics): the winning ideas are not necessarily the ones that are true or useful, but rather the ones that are _better at replicating themselves_.
+True or useful ideas certainly have a selective advantage insofar as humans care about usefulness (I'm going to go out on a limb and just say outright that humans don't care about truth), but there can be other features of an idea that convey a selective advantage in memetic competition; for example, an appeal to alleged consequences of accepting the idea. This is the reason so many religions prominently feature promises and threats of divine reward or punishment: "Believe X and you'll be rewarded; believe not-X and you'll be sorry" is _more memetically fit_ than "It happens to be the case that X, but this has no particular further implications," because the former creates incentives for propogating itself that the latter does not. It doesn't _matter_ that the rewards and punishments don't actually exist—
+(at least, _I_ don't think they exist, because I am not a carrier of the religion-X meme)
-There is this beautiful feeling at the center of my life that has shaped me more than almost anything else
+—a human in the grips of the idea will still be genuinely terrified of the punishment. The forces of memetic evolution don't care about the human's fear and suffering, because _the forces of memetic evolution_ is just our name for the observation that ideas that are better at being replicated; it's not an agent that can care about _anything_.
-... the scintillating but ultimately untrue thought.
+And of course, there are lots of other, subtler non-truth-tracking, non-usefulness-tracking features of an idea that could make it more memetically fit.
+
+Here's one: "You are a member of marginalized identity group Y; anyone who notices facts that could be construed to call this narrative into question is thereby hurting you by [invalidating your identity](http://unremediatedgender.space/2016/Sep/psychology-is-about-invalidating-peoples-identities/)."
-Imogen Binnie's _Nevada_ (this item is reverse-scored)
+A human who has accepted—who has been _taken hostage by_—this idea, will feel genuine pain and distress whenever anyone notices facts that could be construed to call the narrative into question. And so the human's friends, who love and care about them, will dutifully make sure to pretend not to notice any inconvenient facts, and socially punish anyone who doesn't pretend not to notice, in order to avoid hurting their friend.
-This is _really important information_. This is the sort of thing that should just be in the standard sex-ed book you read at age 15 rather than having to piece it together yourself at age 28
+Just like they would pay the ransom if their friend was kidnapped by terrorists.
-not because I don't think people should transition—but because information will help people make the right choice
+The friends care about the human. The forces of memetic evolution do not.
-Ah, I'm in the same taxon as lesbian trans women, and heterosexual crossdressers, and "bigender" people who are on low-dose hormones and choose how to "present" in different social venues
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-(yes, there are political concerns with trans acceptance, but this should be the _end state_)
+So, there's a thing about me, possibly even _the_ thing about me, where there is this beautiful feeling at the center of my life that has shaped me more than almost anything else, where obviously I know that I am in fact male, but I don't want to _identify_ with that fact; I want to believe that I could be female and still be the same person in all the ways that matter, and this sentiment is clearly tied to my sexuality, as if my brain just doesn't draw that much of a distinction between people I want to be _with_ and people I want to be _like_.
-whereas you might make poorer choices in the regeme where everyone has to figure it out for themselves in an environment of misinformation about "gender identity"
+... the scintillating but ultimately untrue thought.
+There's a word in the psychology literature for the beautiful feeling at the center of my life: _autogynephilia_ ("love of oneself as a woman"), coined in the context of a theory that it represented one of two distinct etiologies for male-to-female transsexualism. This theory didn't seem to be the standard mainstream view, and, I learned, people get really mad at you when you mention it in a comment section, so for a long time I self-identified with the _word_ "autogynephilia", but assumed that the theory was false. _I_ wasn't _trans_; I was just, you know, one of those guys who is pointedly insistent on not being _proud_ of the fact that they're guys, and who are erotically and romantically obsessed with the idea of being a woman.
+Recent life events led me to do some reading—Kay Brown's blog [_On the Science of Changing Sex_](https://sillyolme.wordpress.com/), Anne Lawrence's [_Men Trapped in Men's Bodies: Narratives of Autogynephilic Transsexualism_](http://www.annelawrence.com/mtimb.html), and Imogen Binnie's novel [_Nevada_](http://haveyoureadnevada.com/) (this item is reverse-scored)—and I concluded that, no, wait, actually the Blanchard theory looks _correct_, and I _do_ have the same underlying psychological condition that leads people to transition.
+This is _really important information_! This is _not_ the thing someone should have to piece together themselves at age 28. This is the sort of thing that should just be in the standard sex-ed books, that boys having these kinds of feelings can read at age 15 and immediately say, "Ah, I'm in the same taxon as lesbian trans women, and heterosexual crossdressers, and guys who have these fantasies but don't do anything about them in particular, and bigender people who are on low-dose hormones and choose how to 'present' in different social venues; I wonder which of these strategies is best for me given my exact circumstances?"
-at least one person—and I don't think they were particularly _unusual_, either; I think to no small extent this is just the default thing that happens when nice, smart people go to a progressive university and believe everything their gender studies professors tell them—
+So, while I realize that a lot of people have strong feelings about this topic, and I wanted to be sensitive to that, I also want to promote this information, because I want people to have accurate information about the underlying psychological condition, so they can make the optimal choices about what to do about it, whereas people might make poorer choices in a regime where everyone had to figure things out for themselves in an environment full of misinformation about "gender identity."
+Let me tell you about the moment I stopped wanting to be sensitive.
-It didn't feel like I was talking to a person who happened to have different beliefs from me about the etiology of transsexuality.
+[...]
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+It didn't feel like I was talking to a reasonable, sane person who happened to have different beliefs from me about the etiology of male-to-female transgenderedness.
It didn't feel like I was talking to a _person_ at all.
if you've based your identity around something so fragile that science can threaten you, maybe basing your identity that way was _not a good idea_
-If being a good person means submitting to social pressure aimed at getting me to _shut up and stop thinking_ about the true nature of the beautiful feeling at the center of my life for _twenty-five fucking years_ (!?), then I have _no interest_ in being a good person.
-I'm certainly not _trying_ to say things that will hurt people—least of all people who are mostly just like me but read different books in a different order and are living out a pretty decent approximation of _my wildest fantasy_.
+If being a good person means submitting to social pressure aimed at getting me to _shut up and stop thinking_ about the true nature of the beautiful feeling at the center of my life for _twenty-five fucking years_ (!?), then I have _no interest_ in being a good person.
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+I'm certainly not _trying_ to say things that will hurt people—_least_ of all people who are mostly just like me but read different books in a different order and are living out a pretty decent approximation of _my wildest fantasy_.
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+But if you try _not_ to say things that will hurt people, you end up conceding the entire future history of world to people on the basis of their being colonized by mind-viruses that make them the _easiest to hurt_.
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+I don't want to live in that world.
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+So here is my policy, I, Taylor Saotome-Westlake, at least on this blog, at least under this name—
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+If I say something that is later shown to me to be _factually incorrect_, that's something I take _very_ seriously, and I will do everything in my power to make it right.
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+But if, in the course of trying to say something I think is true, or insightful, or cathartic, or even just _funny_, I end up saying something that people find offensive or hurtful or disrespectful ...
-if I say something _factually incorrect_, that's something I take very seriously, and I'll do everything in my poer
+I don't care. I just really, fundamentally _do not care_ anymore.
-But if, in the course of trying to say something I find true, or insightful, or cathartic, or even just _funny_, I end up saying something that people find offensive or hurtful or disrespectful ...
+I can't afford to.
-I don't care. I just really, fundamentally _do not care_ anymore. I can't afford to. Don't negotiate with terrorists.
+Don't negotiate with terrorists.
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