My hair-trigger antisexism was sort of lurking in the background of some of my comments while the Sequences were being published (though, again, it wasn't relevant to _most_ posts, which were just about cool math and science stuff that had no avenue whatsoever for being corrupted by gender politics). The term "social justice warrior" wasn't yet popular, but there were definitely some SJW-like patterns in my comments, inherited from my time in the feminist blogosphere.
-[TODO:
+[TODO: smoother transition: this was before Overcoming Bias, but it gives the flavor of my attitude—]
-Amy Alkon song
+There was an advice columnist, [Amy Alkon](http://www.advicegoddess.com/ag-columns-blog/newindex.html), whose column got syndicated in the _Contra Costa Times_ of my youth, who would sometimes give dating advice based on a pop-evopsych account of psychological sex differences. Since I knew that believing in psychological sex differences was _bad and wrong_, one of the little song-fragments I wrote in my head went—
-http://www.advicegoddess.com/ag-columns-blog/newindex.html
-> I hope Amy Alkon dies tonight
-> So she can't give her bad advice
-> No love or value save for evolutionary psych
+> _I hope Amy Alkon dies tonight
+> So she can't give her bad advice
+> No love or value save for evolutionary psych_
>
-> I hope Amy Alkon dies tonight
-> Because the world's not girls and guys
-> Cave men and women fucking 'round the fire in the night
+> _I hope Amy Alkon dies tonight
+> Because the world's not girls and guys
+> Cave men and women fucking 'round the fire in the night_
-this denial was in the background in "The Opposite Sex" (https://web.archive.org/web/20130216025508/http://lesswrong.com/lw/rp/the_opposite_sex/), Yud on "men should think of themselves as men" / "I often wish some men/women would appreciate"
+[TODO: this denial was in the background in "The Opposite Sex" (https://web.archive.org/web/20130216025508/http://lesswrong.com/lw/rp/the_opposite_sex/), Yud on "men should think of themselves as men" / "I often wish some men/women would appreciate"
Me pretending to be dumb about someone not pretending to be dumb about my initials https://www.overcomingbias.com/2008/04/inhuman-rationa.html
[TODO: one sentence summary from each of—
-Blanchard 1985 /papers/blanchard-typology_of_mtf_transsexualism.pdf
+Blanchard 1985 /papers/blanchard-typology_of_mtf_transsexualism.pdf
Lawrence 2005 /papers/lawrence-sexuality_before_and_after_mtf_srs.pdf
Smith _et al._ 2005 /papers/smith_et_al-transsexual_subtypes_clinical_and_theoretical_significance.pdf
Nuttbrock _et al._ 2011 /papers/nuttbrock_et_al-a_further_assessment.pdf
[TODO: another clinical perspective: Dr. Will Powers https://www.facebook.com/strohl89/posts/10157396578969598 ]
-Don't trust scientists or clinicians? Me too! Want first-person accounts? Me too! And there's lots!
+Don't trust scientists or clinicians? Me neither! ([Especially](/2017/Mar/fresh-princess/) [not](/2017/Jun/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-i-the-unanswerable-words/) [clinicians](TODO: Dr. W correspondence).) Want first-person accounts from trans women themselves? Me too! And there's lots!
-[TODO: McCloskey male sex]
+Consider this passage from Dierdre McCloskey's memoir _Crossing_, writing in the third person about her decades identifying as a heterosexual crossdresser before transitioning at age 53:
-[TODO: or how did I missed this from Serano 2007]
+> He had been doing it ten times a month through four decades, whenever possible, though in the closet. The quantifying economist made the calculation: _About five thousand episodes_. [...] At fifty-two Donald accepted crossdressing as part of who he was. True, if before the realization that he could cross all the way someone had offered a pill to stop the occasional cross-dressing, he would have accepted, since it was mildly distracting—though hardly time consuming. Until the spring of 1995 each of the five thousand episodes was associated with quick, male sex.
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+Or consider this passage from Julia Serano's _Whipping Girl_ (I know I [keep](/2017/Dec/lesser-known-demand-curves/) [referencing](/2020/Dec/crossing-the-line/) this book, but it's _so representative_ of the dominant strain of trans activism, and I'm never going to get over the [Fridge Logic](https://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/FridgeLogic) of the all [the blatant clues that I somehow missed in 2007](/2016/Sep/apophenia/))—
> There was also a period of time when I embraced the word "pervert" and viewed my desire to be female as some sort of sexual kink. But after exploring that path, it became obvious that explanation could not account for the vast majority of instances when I thought about being female in a nonsexual context.
* the moment in October 2016 when I switched sides http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/10/late-onset/ http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2017/03/brand-rust/
https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/jNAAZ9XNyt82CXosr/mirrors-and-paintings
+* the literature talks about crossdressing a lot, but I mostly just fantasize; dress-up isn't really convincing
+
+(Picture me playing Hermione Granger in a post-Singularity [holonovel](https://memory-alpha.fandom.com/wiki/Holo-novel_program) adaptation of _Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality_ (Emma Watson having charged me [the standard licensing fee](/2019/Dec/comp/) to use a copy of her body for the occasion): "[We can do anything if we](https://www.hpmor.com/chapter/30) exert arbitrarily large amounts of [interpretive labor](https://acesounderglass.com/2015/06/09/interpretive-labor/)!")
* aren't all those transwomen going to be _embarrrassed_ after the Singularity, when telepathy tech makes everything obvious
+* the time I snuck a copy of MTiMB into the MIRI library (In my defense, it seemed like something HPEV would do—and noticeably not like something Hermione would do)
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+What happens when every sensitive bookish males who thinks [it might be cool to be a woman](https://xkcd.com/535/) gets subjected to this aggressive recruitment campaign?
Autogynephilia, as a phenomenon, is _absurdly common_ relative to the amount of awareness of it _as_ a phenomenon. ([An analogy someone made on /r/GenderCriticalGuys just before it got banned](https://web.archive.org/web/20200705203105if_/https://reddit.com/r/GenderCriticalGuys/comments/hhcs34/autogynephilic_male_here_big_rant_about_denial_of/): imagine living in a Society where people _were_ gay at the same rates as in our own, but the _concept_ of homosexuality didn't exist—and was [actively suppressed whenever someone tried to point it out](/2017/Jan/if-the-gay-community-were-like-the-trans-community/).) Surveys of college students found that 13% (Table 3 in [Person _et al._](/papers/person_et_al-gender_differences_in_sexual_behaviors.pdf)) or 5.6% (Table 5 in the replication [Hsu _et al._](/papers/hsu_et_al-gender_differences_in_sexual_fantasy.pdf)) of males have fantasized about being the opposite sex in the last 3 months.
[dark side epistemology, what the math actually means in the real world from "Reply to Holden"]
-(Picture me playing Hermione Granger in a post-Singularity [holonovel](https://memory-alpha.fandom.com/wiki/Holo-novel_program) adaptation of _Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality_ (Emma Watson having charged me [the standard licensing fee](/2019/Dec/comp/) to use a copy of her body for the occasion): "[We can do anything if we](https://www.hpmor.com/chapter/30) exert arbitrarily large amounts of [interpretive labor](https://acesounderglass.com/2015/06/09/interpretive-labor/)!")
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This is the eye of the hurricane; this is the only way I can [protect](/2019/Jul/the-source-of-our-power/)
/2017/Oct/a-leaf-in-the-crosswind/
/2016/Dec/joined/
-It Might Be Cool https://xkcd.com/535/
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even after taking into account that the phrase "once you know what to look for" is a 20-meter fire-truck-red flag for [confirmation bias](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/rmAbiEKQDpDnZzcRf/positive-bias-look-into-the-dark).