check in ...

Looking over my email "Sent" folder, I feel a lot of reluctance and
pain to relive this. I think it makes sense to use the timer to force
myself to do a first-pass outline of the historical points to hit. A
more detailed outline than the 10 TODOs I have at the end of the file
might be easier to fill in after they exist? 40 TODOs rather than
10. Chain-of-thought prompting.

diff --git a/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md b/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md
index 9af67f9..75e6733 100644 (file)
--- a/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md
+++ b/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md
@@ -262,6 +262,14 @@ Anyway, I can't talk about the results of my happy price inquiry (whether he acc
 
 (Incidentally, it was also around this time that I snuck a copy of _Men Trapped in Men's Bodies_ into the [MIRI](https://intelligence.org/) office library, which was sometimes possible for community members to visit. It seemed like something Harry Potter-Evans-Verres would do—and ominously, I noticed, not like something Hermione Granger would do.)
 
+[TODO: Scott linked to Kay Brown as part of his links post and got pushback
+https://slatestarcodex.com/2016/11/01/links-1116-site-unseen/
+https://slatestarscratchpad.tumblr.com/post/152736458066/hey-scott-im-a-bit-of-a-fan-of-yours-and-i]
+
+[TODO: I posted to /r/gendercritical (post the full text in an ancillary page; it's currently in my "Collective Debt, Collective Shame" draft)
+
+The first comment was "You are a predator." ... I'm not sure what I was expecting. I spent part of Christmas Day crying.]
+
 Gatekeeping sessions finished, I finally started HRT at the end of December 2016. In an effort to not let my anti–autogynephilia-denialism crusade take over my life, earlier that month, I [promised myself](/ancillary/a-broken-promise/) (and [published the SHA256 hash of the promise](https://www.facebook.com/zmdavis/posts/10154596054540199) to signal that I was Serious) not to comment on gender issues under my real name through June 2017—_that_ was what my new pseudonymous blog was for.
 
 ... the promise didn't take. There was just too much gender-identity nonsense on my Facebook feed; I _had_ to push back on some of it.
@@ -315,9 +323,7 @@ So, because at this point I still trusted people in my robot cult to be intellec
 
 At this point, I was _disappointed_ with my impact, but not to the point of bearing much hostility to "the community". People had made their arguments, and I had made mine; I didn't think I was _entitled_ to anything more than that.
 
-... and, really, that _should_ have been the end of the story. Not really much of a story at all. 
-
-
+... and, really, that _should_ have been the end of the story, if I hadn't been further provoked. Not really much of a story at all.
 
 
 ... 

diff --git a/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md b/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md
index 186e5af..841b5c1 100644 (file)
--- a/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md
+++ b/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md
@@ -237,9 +237,6 @@ I'm worried about the failure mode where bright young minds [lured in](http://be
 
 (Times have changed! BBL is locally quasi-mainstream after Ozy engaged)
 
-[Scott got a lot of pushback just for including the blog that I showed him in a links post
-https://slatestarcodex.com/2016/11/01/links-1116-site-unseen/
-https://slatestarscratchpad.tumblr.com/post/152736458066/hey-scott-im-a-bit-of-a-fan-of-yours-and-i]
 
 It's weird that he thinks telling the truth is politically impossible, because the specific truths I'm focused on are things he _already said_, that anyone could just look up. I guess the point is that the egregore doesn't have the logical or reading comprehension for that?—or rather (a reader points out) the egregore has no reason to care about the past; if you get tagged as an enemy, your past statements will get dug up as evidence of foul present intent, but if you're doing good enough of playing the part today, no one cares what you said in 2009
 

diff --git a/notes/notes.txt b/notes/notes.txt
index fd988e3..17e17c7 100644 (file)
--- a/notes/notes.txt
+++ b/notes/notes.txt
@@ -3127,3 +3127,11 @@ When another transfem saw two women being close, intimate friends, they “immed
 https://www.reddit.com/r/MtF/comments/utgb1d/how_to_deal_with_extreme_jealousy_towards_cis/
 
 https://pitt.substack.com/p/30k-a-year-and-my-kid-cant-tell-the
+
+I hope I may be forgiven if I do detect hints in your writing of seeing your type as better on account of not being appropriative delusional perverts. Can't say I blame you!
+
+It looks to me like the emergent strategy people are implicitly using is, "Systematically lie in order to artificially increase the rate at which AGPs transition until it reaches the critical mass at which it becomes 'normal', thus making it politically impossible to turn back the clock."
+
+It will probably work. Maybe it's even the right thing to do, in some coldly Machiavellian utilitarian calculus. But I'm sick of being lied to.
+
+I [want credit](https://arbital.com/p/6yv/) for calling it. [I can't see where this link goes while my network is out]

diff --git a/notes/post_ideas.txt b/notes/post_ideas.txt
index d96fb1f..199d59f 100644 (file)
--- a/notes/post_ideas.txt
+++ b/notes/post_ideas.txt
@@ -13,6 +13,8 @@ Minor—
 _ my medianworld: https://www.glowfic.com/replies/1619639#reply-1619639
 _ Happy Meal
 _ Link: "On Transitions, Freedom of Form, [...]"
+_ Interlude XXII
+_ Excerpt from _Redefining Realness_
 
 _ https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/WikzbCsFjpLTRQmXn/declustering-reclustering-and-filling-in-thingspace
 _ Subspatial Distribution Overlap and Cancellable Stereotypes