From: M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake Date: Mon, 2 Sep 2019 06:20:39 +0000 (-0700) Subject: check in—for the night X-Git-Url: http://unremediatedgender.space/source?a=commitdiff_plain;ds=inline;h=c99f7e6ff634da1ee5badb754a74ce5d12d0e965;p=Ultimately_Untrue_Thought.git check in—for the night (And who can say but that I'll actually get a lot done tomorrow?) --- diff --git a/content/drafts/i-tell-myself-to-let-the-story-end.md b/content/drafts/i-tell-myself-to-let-the-story-end.md index 2bb2744..cec4595 100644 --- a/content/drafts/i-tell-myself-to-let-the-story-end.md +++ b/content/drafts/i-tell-myself-to-let-the-story-end.md @@ -16,7 +16,7 @@ Status: draft I mostly haven't been doing so well for the past nine months or so. I mean, I've always been a high-neuroticism person, but this has been a below-average year even by my standards. I've been reluctant to write about it in too much detail for poorly-understood psychological reasons. Maybe it would feel too much like attacking my friends? -But this blog is not about _not_ attacking my friends. This blog is about the truth. For my own sanity, for my own emotional closure, I need to tell the story as best I can. If it's an incredibly boring and petty story about people getting _unreasonably angry_ about philosophy-of-language minutiæ, well, you've been warned. If the story makes me look bad in the reader's eyes (because you think I'm crazy for getting so unreasonably angry about philosophy-of-language minutiæ), then I shall be happy to look bad for an _accurate_ account of _what I actually am_—I should expect nothing less. +But this blog is not about _not_ attacking my friends. This blog is about the truth. For my own sanity, for my own emotional closure, I need to tell the story as best I can. If it's an incredibly boring and petty story about people getting _unreasonably angry_ about philosophy-of-language minutiæ, well, you've been warned. If the story makes me look bad in the reader's eyes (because you think I'm crazy for getting so unreasonably angry about philosophy-of-language minutiæ), then I shall be happy to look bad for _what I actually am_—I should expect nothing less. @@ -28,13 +28,13 @@ But this blog is not about _not_ attacking my friends. This blog is about the tr This is _basic shit_. As we say locally, this is _basic Sequences shit_. +we did not realize that _whether I should cut my dick off_ would become a politicized issue. Now, it's not obvious that I _shouldn't_ cut my dick off! A lot of people seem to be doing it nowadays, and a lot of them seem to be pretty happy with their decision! But in order to _decide_ whether it's a good idea, I need _accurate information_ , so that I can cut my dick off in the possible worlds where that's a good idea, and not cut my dick off in the possible worlds where that's not a good idea. - -actively manufacture _fake rationality lessons_ that have been optimized to _confuse me into cutting my dick off_ independently of whether or not we live in a world +actively manufacture _fake rationality lessons_ that have been optimized to confuse me into cutting my dick off _independently_ of whether or not we live in a world diff --git a/content/drafts/self-identity-is-a-schelling-point.md b/content/drafts/self-identity-is-a-schelling-point.md index 8ed0274..0bf22de 100644 --- a/content/drafts/self-identity-is-a-schelling-point.md +++ b/content/drafts/self-identity-is-a-schelling-point.md @@ -6,7 +6,7 @@ Status: draft _(Rejected alternative title: "Schelf-Identity.")_ -Previously on _The Scintillating But Ultimately Untrue Thought_, we've [considered]() at [length]() the ways in which using self-identity +Previously on _The Scintillating But Ultimately Untrue Thought_, we've [considered]() at [length]() the ways in which the self-identity criterion for gender ("Women are people who identify as women") diff --git a/notes/i-tell-myself-notes.txt b/notes/i-tell-myself-notes.txt index 92cb646..6ca7136 100644 --- a/notes/i-tell-myself-notes.txt +++ b/notes/i-tell-myself-notes.txt @@ -16,8 +16,6 @@ OUTLINE * not sure what the path forward is, my quest for Truth continues onwards (but I'm going to try to unwind the cult-speak) - - person paper on purity Sara Bareilles song @@ -155,6 +153,7 @@ https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/NnohDYHNnKDtbiMyp/fake-utility-functions I wouldn't hold anyone to standards I wouldn't myself—for whatever that's worth http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2018/07/object-vs-meta-golden-rule/ +analogy to school (["_Perhaps_, replied the cold logic. _If the world were at stake_. Perhaps, echoed the other part of himself, _but that is not what was actually happening_."](http://yudkowsky.net/other/fiction/the-sword-of-good)) @@ -187,3 +186,11 @@ If green-eyes and black hair have no greater than default probability to be foun In this case the word "wiggin" does not help describe reality more compactly—it is not defined by someone sending the shortest message—it has no role in the simplest explanation. Equivalently, the word "wiggin" will be of no help to you in doing any Bayesian inference. Even if you do not call the word a lie, it is surely an error." (https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/yLcuygFfMfrfK8KjF/mutual-information-and-density-in-thingspace) [And this suggests another—yes, yet another—reason to be suspicious of the claim that "you can define a word any way you like". When you consider the superexponential size of Conceptspace, it becomes clear that singling out one particular concept for consideration is an act of no small audacity—not just for us, but for any mind of bounded computing power.](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/82eMd5KLiJ5Z6rTrr/superexponential-conceptspace-and-simple-words) + +selection effect whereby citizens of the Caliphate only petition the rightful caliph when they have a problem, which can be discouraging when you're the caliph and you don't see the people's appreciation for the ways in which the kingdom is great + +From my perspective, Professor, I'm just doing what you taught me (carve reality at the joints; speak the truth, even if your voice trembles; make an extraordinary effort when you've got Something to Protect; _&c._) + +I _have_ to keep escalating, because I don't have a choice + +keep the rheotrical emphasis on "tale of personal heartbreak, plus careful analysis of the sociopolitical causes thereof" rather than "attacking my friends and heros"