From: M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake Date: Sun, 20 Nov 2022 20:03:51 +0000 (-0800) Subject: check in name spelling correction and anchor X-Git-Url: http://unremediatedgender.space/source?a=commitdiff_plain;h=b2b8d05669cbb707226a083a9384162d1f9f01e0;p=Ultimately_Untrue_Thought.git check in name spelling correction and anchor --- diff --git a/content/2019/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md b/content/2019/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md index 15b4f5b..9243406 100644 --- a/content/2019/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md +++ b/content/2019/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md @@ -23,6 +23,6 @@ So if I don't need to fear getting beaten up or even menacing stares, why do I n I think another part of it is an intuition about—how do I put this? Not wanting to commit fraud?—or not wanting to commit _obvious_ fraud. The reason I'm so glad that [there's a word for the thing](/2017/Feb/a-beacon-through-the-darkness-or-getting-it-right-the-first-time/) that isn't "crossdresser" or "transvestite" is because it's not about the clothes; it's about wanting to actually have the body of the other sex. The clothes are just a prop. And the prop ... _noticeably doesn't work_. I don't pass; I have _never_ passed. My voice is wrong; my skeleton is wrong; my movement is wrong; my face continues to be wrong despite makeup. At least at Fanime (where everyone _and her dog_ is in costume) there's no pretense that the pretense is anything more than that. If you fool someone—if only for a moment—then great, but if not, then at least you're not fooling anyone about whether you're fooling yourself. -I'm probably just _bad_ at crossdressing/cosplay? I've never put the kind of _effort_ into, say, a makeup tutorial the way I do for my intellectual endeavors. My Fanime costume was authored by the Amazon product recommendation algorithm: after adding the pink wig to my shopping cart, [the "Discover Related Products" sidebar picked out](/images/discover_related_products.png) the hoop skirt and the Mr. Universe tee from Episode 48 ["Story for Steven"](https://steven-universe.fandom.com/wiki/Story_for_Steven). (The sword in the photo illustrating this post is borrowed from another cosplayer cropped out-of-frame.) And unless I become more skilled, I feel like I've hit diminishing returns on conventions—like whatever I was going to get out the experience, I would have gotten either this time or one of the last six (previously: [as Ens. Silvia Tilly at San Francisco Comic-Con 2018](/images/tilly_cosplay.png), as _Equestria Girls_ Twilight Sparkle at BABSCon 2018, [as Korra at San Francisco Comic-Con 2017](/2017/Oct/a-leaf-in-the-crosswind/), [as Pearl at FanimeCon 2017](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2017/05/gems-will-be-gems/), as [Lt. Jadzia Dax (circa 2369) at the _Star Trek_ 50 Year Mission Tour San Francisco 2016](/2016/Dec/joined/), [as Pearl as San Francsico Comic-Con 2016](/2016/Sep/is-there-affirmative-action-for-incompetent-crossplay/)). +I'm probably just _bad_ at crossdressing/cosplay? I've never put the kind of _effort_ into, say, a makeup tutorial the way I do for my intellectual endeavors. My Fanime costume was authored by the Amazon product recommendation algorithm: after adding the pink wig to my shopping cart, [the "Discover Related Products" sidebar picked out](/images/discover_related_products.png) the hoop skirt and the Mr. Universe tee from Episode 48 ["Story for Steven"](https://steven-universe.fandom.com/wiki/Story_for_Steven). (The sword in the photo illustrating this post is borrowed from another cosplayer cropped out-of-frame.) And unless I become more skilled, I feel like I've hit diminishing returns on conventions—like whatever I was going to get out the experience, I would have gotten either this time or one of the last six (previously: [as Ens. Sylvia Tilly at San Francisco Comic-Con 2018](/images/tilly_cosplay.png), as _Equestria Girls_ Twilight Sparkle at BABSCon 2018, [as Korra at San Francisco Comic-Con 2017](/2017/Oct/a-leaf-in-the-crosswind/), [as Pearl at FanimeCon 2017](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2017/05/gems-will-be-gems/), as [Lt. Jadzia Dax (circa 2369) at the _Star Trek_ 50 Year Mission Tour San Francisco 2016](/2016/Dec/joined/), [as Pearl as San Francisco Comic-Con 2016](/2016/Sep/is-there-affirmative-action-for-incompetent-crossplay/)). As far as other special events go, I'm flying out to Portland—the real Portland—tonight for a tech conference, and to visit friend of the blog [Sophia](/author/sophia/). You'd think a few days of vacation should do me good—I've been an psychological wreck all year (I mean, even more than my average year) over having accidentally catalyzed a civil war in my local robot cult—except that the same cultural forces that have subtly-yet-fatally corrupted my beautiful robot cult, just _own_ the open-source tech scene outright, which is likely to present a source of additional stress. The spirit of bravery that sings, [_I will fight for the place where I'm free—for the world I was made in_](https://genius.com/16627280), must subsist in a brain wracked by constant emotional pain that—sometimes—is just tired of fighting. diff --git a/content/2020/memento-mori.md b/content/2020/memento-mori.md index 08c5832..13571df 100644 --- a/content/2020/memento-mori.md +++ b/content/2020/memento-mori.md @@ -38,7 +38,7 @@ The parenthetical I deleted was: It probably wouldn't have mattered either way, with so many messages flying by in the chat. In some ways, Blue Egregore is less like an ideology and more like a regular expression filter: you can get surprisingly far into discussing the actual substance of ideas as long as no one _says a bad word_ like "eugenics". -—if we even have enough _time_ for things like embryo selection to help, if AI research somehow keeps plodding along [even as everything _else_ falls apart](https://www.unqualified-reservations.org/2007/05/antisingularity/). The [GPT-3 demos](https://www.gwern.net/GPT-3) have been tickling my neuroticism. Sure, it's "just" a language model, doing nothing more but predicting the next token of human-generated text. But [you can do a lot with language](https://bmk.sh/2020/08/17/Building-AGI-Using-Language-Models/). As _disgusted_ as I am with my robot cult as presently constituted, the _argument_ for why you should fear the coming robot apocalypse in which all will be consumed in a cloud of tiny molecular paperclips, still looks solid. But I had always thought of it as a long-term thing—this unspoken sense of, okay, we're probably all going to die, but that'll probably be in, like, 2060 or whatever. People freaking out about it coming _soon_-soon are probably just [following the gradient into](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/yEjaj7PWacno5EvWa/every-cause-wants-to-be-a-cult) being [a doomsday cult](https://unstableontology.com/2019/07/11/the-ai-timelines-scam/). Now the threat, [and the uncertainty around it](https://intelligence.org/2017/10/13/fire-alarm/), feel more real—like maybe we'll all die in 2035 instead of 2060. +—if we even have enough _time_ for things like embryo selection to help, if AI research somehow keeps plodding along [even as everything _else_ falls apart](https://www.unqualified-reservations.org/2007/05/antisingularity/). The [GPT-3 demos](https://www.gwern.net/GPT-3) have been tickling my neuroticism. Sure, it's "just" a language model, doing nothing more but predicting the next token of human-generated text. But [you can do a lot with language](https://bmk.sh/2020/08/17/Building-AGI-Using-Language-Models/). As _disgusted_ as I am with my robot cult as presently constituted, the _argument_ for why you should fear the coming robot apocalypse in which all will be consumed in a cloud of tiny molecular paperclips, still looks solid. But I had always thought of it as a long-term thing—this unspoken sense of, okay, we're probably all going to die, but that'll probably be in, like, 2060 or whatever. People freaking out about it coming _soon_-soon are probably just [following the gradient into](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/yEjaj7PWacno5EvWa/every-cause-wants-to-be-a-cult) being [a doomsday cult](https://unstableontology.com/2019/07/11/the-ai-timelines-scam/). Now the threat, [and the uncertainty around it](https://intelligence.org/2017/10/13/fire-alarm/), feel more real—like maybe we'll all die in 2035 instead of 2060. At some point, I should write a post on the causes and consequences of the psychological traits of fictional characters not matching the real-life distributions by demographic. [The new _Star Trek_ cartoon](https://memory-alpha.fandom.com/wiki/Star_Trek:_Lower_Decks) is not very good, but I'm obligated to enjoy it anyway out of brand loyalty. One of the main characters, Ens. Beckett Mariner, is [brash and boisterous and dominant](https://youtu.be/64obsPsXxkE?t=45)—[friendly, but in a way](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7CVJGy0Do5I) that makes it clear that she's _on top_. If you've seen _Rick and Morty_, her relationship with Ens. Brad Boimler has the Rick and Morty dynamic, with Mariner as Rick. ([Series creator](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mike_McMahan) Mike McMahan actually worked on _Rick and Morty_, so it likely _is_ the same dynamic, not just superficially, but generated by the same algorithm in McMahan's head.)