From: M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake Date: Mon, 7 Nov 2022 06:09:13 +0000 (-0800) Subject: check in X-Git-Url: http://unremediatedgender.space/source?a=commitdiff_plain;h=c12c2f4cba8d6184bcd71f472a20e060fe9c5321;p=Ultimately_Untrue_Thought.git check in I think I want to cuss sparingly. --- diff --git a/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md b/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md index 9409adc..1cbbc2c 100644 --- a/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md +++ b/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md @@ -63,7 +63,7 @@ Some of the replies tried explain the problem—and [Yudkowsky kept refusing to > > But even ignoring that, you're not standing in defense of truth if you insist on a word, brought explicitly into question, being used with some particular meaning. -Dear reader, this is the moment where I _flipped the fuck out_. Let me explain. +Dear reader, this is the moment where I _flipped out_. Let me explain. This "hill of meaning in defense of validity" proclamation was just such a striking contrast to the Eliezer Yudkowsky I remembered—the Eliezer Yudkowsky whom I had variously described as having "taught me everything I know" and "rewritten my personality over the internet"—who didn't hesitate to criticize uses of language that he thought were failing to carve reality at the joints, even going so far as to [call them "wrong"](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/FaJaCgqBKphrDzDSj/37-ways-that-words-can-be-wrong): @@ -183,7 +183,7 @@ But if Yudkowsky didn't want to get into a distracting political fight about a t ------ -... I didn't have all of that criticism collected and carefully written up on 28 November 2018. But that, basically, is why I _flipped the fuck out_ when I saw that Twitter thread. If the "rationalists" didn't [click](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/R3ATEWWmBhMhbY2AL/that-magical-click) on the autogynephilia thing, that was disappointing, but forgivable. If the "rationalists", on Scott Alexander's authority, were furthermore going to get our own philosophy of language wrong over this, that was—I don't want to say _forgivable_ exactly, but it was—tolerable. I had learned from my misadventures the previous year that I had been wrong to trust "the community" as a reified collective and put it on a pedastal—that had never been a reasonable mental stance in the first place. +... I didn't have all of that criticism collected and carefully written up on 28 November 2018. But that, basically, is why I _flipped out_ when I saw that Twitter thread. If the "rationalists" didn't [click](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/R3ATEWWmBhMhbY2AL/that-magical-click) on the autogynephilia thing, that was disappointing, but forgivable. If the "rationalists", on Scott Alexander's authority, were furthermore going to get our own philosophy of language wrong over this, that was—I don't want to say _forgivable_ exactly, but it was—tolerable. I had learned from my misadventures the previous year that I had been wrong to trust "the community" as a reified collective and put it on a pedastal—that had never been a reasonable mental stance in the first place. But trusting Eliezer Yudkowsky—whose writings, more than any other single influence, had made me who I am—_did_ seem reasonable. If I put him on a pedastal, it was because he had earned the pedastal, for supplying me with my criteria for how to think—including, as a trivial special case, [how to think about what things to put on pedastals](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/YC3ArwKM8xhNjYqQK/on-things-that-are-awesome). @@ -510,7 +510,7 @@ Ben had previously written (in the context of the effective altruism movement) a He was obviously correct that this was a distortionary force relative to what ideal Bayesian agents would do, but I was worried that when we're talking about criticism of _people_ rather than ideas, the removal of the distortionary force would just result in an ugly war (and not more truth). Criticism of institutions and social systems _should_ be filed under "ideas" rather than "people", but the smaller-scale you get, the harder this distinction is to maintain: criticizing, say, "the Center for Effective Altruism", somehow feels more like criticizing Will MacAskill personally than criticizing "the United States" does, even though neither CEA nor the U.S. is a person. -This is why I felt like I couldn't give up faith that [honest discourse _eventually_ wins](https://slatestarcodex.com/2017/03/24/guided-by-the-beauty-of-our-weapons/). Under my current strategy and consensus social norms, I could criticize Scott or Kelsey or Ozy's _ideas_ without my social life dissolving into a war of all against all, whereas if I were to give in to the temptation to flip a table and say, "Okay, now I _know_ you guys are just fucking with me," then I didn't see how that led anywhere good, even if they really _were_ just fucking with me. +This is why I felt like I couldn't give up faith that [honest discourse _eventually_ wins](https://slatestarcodex.com/2017/03/24/guided-by-the-beauty-of-our-weapons/). Under my current strategy and consensus social norms, I could criticize Scott or Kelsey or Ozy's _ideas_ without my social life dissolving into a war of all against all, whereas if I were to give in to the temptation to flip a table and say, "Okay, now I _know_ you guys are just messing with me," then I didn't see how that led anywhere good, even if they really _were_ just messing with me. Jessica explained what she saw as the problem with this. What Ben was proposing was _creating clarity about behavioral patterns_. I was saying that I was afraid that creating such clarity is an attack on someone. But if so, then my blog was an attack on trans people. What was going on here? diff --git a/notes/memoir-sections.md b/notes/memoir-sections.md index ac71c08..6d75884 100644 --- a/notes/memoir-sections.md +++ b/notes/memoir-sections.md @@ -95,6 +95,7 @@ _ better summary of Littman _ explain Rob _ edit the child transition section in a way that Kay Brown would be OK with, have a few sentences about Clever Hans before the wrap-up _ ask Jessica where Scott clarified his position on antipsychotics? +_ I should respond to Ziz's charges that my criticism of concept-policing was a form of concept-policing terms to explain on first mention— @@ -1122,7 +1123,6 @@ Maybe he was following the same sucking-off-Stalin algorithm internally the whol http://benjaminrosshoffman.com/honesty-and-perjury/ - origins of the strawberry example https://www.facebook.com/yudkowsky/posts/10155625884574228 https://www.facebook.com/yudkowsky/posts/10154690145854228 @@ -1130,27 +1130,9 @@ https://www.facebook.com/yudkowsky/posts/10154690145854228 lack of trust as a reason nothing works: https://danluu.com/nothing-works/ shouldn't the rats trust each other? - https://www.greaterwrong.com/posts/FBgozHEv7J72NCEPB/my-way > I think there will not be a _proper_ Art until _many_ people have progressed to the point of remaking the Art in their own image, and then radioed back to describe their paths. - - -[TODO: - -https://twitter.com/ESYudkowsky/status/1404697716689489921 -> I have never in my own life tried to persuade anyone to go trans (or not go trans)—I don't imagine myself to understand others that much. - -If you think it "sometimes personally prudent and not community-harmful" to got out of your way to say positive things about Republican candidates and never, ever say positive things about Democratic candidates (because you "don't see what the alternative is besides getting shot"), you can see why people might regard you as a _Republican shill_—even if all the things you said were true, and even if you never told any specific individual, "You should vote Republican." - -https://www.facebook.com/yudkowsky/posts/10154110278349228 -> Just checked my filtered messages on Facebook and saw, "Your post last night was kind of the final thing I needed to realize that I'm a girl." -> ==DOES ALL OF THE HAPPY DANCE FOREVER== - -https://twitter.com/ESYudkowsky/status/1404821285276774403 -> It is not trans-specific. When people tell me I helped them, I mostly believe them and am happy. -] - https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/cyzXoCv7nagDWCMNS/you-re-calling-who-a-cult-leader#35n > In fact, I would say that by far the most cultish-looking behavior on Hacker News is people trying to show off how willing they are to disagree with Paul Graham I'm totally still doing this @@ -1526,26 +1508,6 @@ I'm a natural true believer in Yudkowskian ideology https://balioc.tumblr.com/po Yudkowsky's assessment of Moldbug: "Politics mindkilled him; he cannot separate the normative and the descriptive." https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/6qPextf9KyWLFJ53j/why-is-mencius-moldbug-so-popular-on-less-wrong-answer-he-s?commentId=TcLhiMk8BTp4vN3Zs#TcLhiMk8BTp4vN3Zs ------ - -I just got off the phone with my mother. I told her that I wouldn't be able to visit her this weekend because I had a terrible week and I'm going to need to do dayjob work on Sunday to catch up with how behind I am. - -She told me that she believes in angels, that she prays to God for me at night, that the angels are like God's helpers, like how Santa has elves - -(My family is ethnically Jewish—you know, like everyone else—but my mother's personal brand of spirituality is very vague; these particular sentences felt unusually Christian-themed given that she identifies as a Jewish Buddhist, but not out of character.) - -I told her not to bother with the prayers, unless it helps her sleep. - -As I was wrapping up the call, I mentioned that the reason it was a bad week was because I got into a fight about dolphins. - -"Dolphins?" she asked, incredulously. - -"They're not fish, right?" I asked. - -"No, of course not," she said. "They're mammals. Dolphins take care of their young. Dolphins can communicate with each other; they're intelligent." - -Thanks, Mom. I'm so lucky to have a mother that's _less retarded than the leadership of the Machine Intelligence Research Institute_. - ---- 2019 comments to "Wilhelm"— @@ -1608,3 +1570,23 @@ I'm planning on publishing the drafts linked below on [dates]. I'm available if you want to contest anything you think is unfair or challenge my interpretation of the "can't directly refer to private conversations" privacy norm, but I doubt it's a high-value use of your time. End transmission. ---- + +(If you weren't interested in meeting my standards for intellectual honest before, it's not clear why you would change your mind just because I spent 80,000 words cussing you out to everyone else.) + +---- + +https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/BbM47qBPzdSRruY4z/instead-of-technical-research-more-people-should-focus-on + +I hate that my religion is bottlenecked on one guy + +https://forum.effectivealtruism.org/posts/fStCX6RXmgxkTBe73/towards-a-weaker-longtermism?commentId=Kga3KGx6WAhkNM3qY +> I am broadly fine with people devoting 50%, 25% or 75% of themselves to longtermism, in that case, as opposed to tearing themselves apart with guilt and ending up doing nothing much, which seems to be the main alternative. + +https://twitter.com/zackmdavis/status/1405032189708816385 +> Egregore psychology is much easier and more knowable than individual human psychology, for the same reason macroscopic matter is more predictable than individual particles. But trying to tell people what the egregore is doing doesn't work because they don't believe in egregores!! + +https://glowfic.com/replies/1882395#reply-1882395 +> the stranger from dath ilan never pretended to be anyone's friend after he stopped being their friend. +Similarly, you should stop pretending to be a rationality teacher if you're going to be corrupted by politics + +20 June 2021, "The egregore doesn't care about the past", thematic moments at Valinor