From: M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake Date: Mon, 15 May 2023 05:07:24 +0000 (-0700) Subject: poke X-Git-Url: http://unremediatedgender.space/source?a=commitdiff_plain;h=e34625a4d97512bcca2923fb6ee7fc800ab60f3f;p=Ultimately_Untrue_Thought.git poke --- diff --git a/content/drafts/people-evolved-social-control-mechanisms-and-rocks.md b/content/drafts/people-evolved-social-control-mechanisms-and-rocks.md index d79ce60..a16dae2 100644 --- a/content/drafts/people-evolved-social-control-mechanisms-and-rocks.md +++ b/content/drafts/people-evolved-social-control-mechanisms-and-rocks.md @@ -523,14 +523,21 @@ My beliefs about game theory and evolutionary psychology—the theory and practi It seemed important to avoid the gaze of males, particularly males physically larger than me. (If they noticed me noticing them, they would try to threaten me.) -An Asian woman named Joy seemed to hurt herself on the hinges of the - * fragmented memory: Joy intentionally hurt herself while I was trying to help her, football coach-like orderly said he was only trying to help; Joy says, this never happened +... + +An Asian woman named Joy seemed to hurt herself on the hinges of the cart used to bring us meals, in a way that plausibly looked like my fault—maybe I had opened the door on the cart while her fingers were in the wrong place? A football-coach-like orderly took my side (in the manner of a grown-up intervening in a squabble amongst kindergarteners), saying that I was only trying to help. When the orderly was out of earshot, Joy looked at me and whispered, "This never happened." I was never sure what that was about. Had she only been pretending to be hurt, and was telling me to keep quiet? + A young black woman named Tone asked me what we had for breakfast—as if - * black man saying something about his mother, I explained that his mother probably did love him, he got angry, and I hid behind my door + + + * black man saying something about his mother, I explained that his mother probably did love him, + +He got angry. I hid behind my door. - * a moment of solidarity with a black male smaller than me? + +I shared a moment of solidarity with a black man who was physically smaller than me, and therefore seemed safe to talk to. ... @@ -538,14 +545,11 @@ I got the idea that it ought to be helpful to prove my agency to the staff. I'd ... -I remember having Anna on the phone, and asking if I was a political prisoner. (The Soviet Union had declared its dissidents sick from sluggish schizophrenia as a pretext for locking them away.) - -She answered in the negative. "Really?" I said. (If I _was_ a political prisoner, she might not be able to say so over ) - -She repeated her answer. "Really–really?" +I remember having Anna on the phone, and asking if I was a political prisoner. (The Soviet Union had declared its dissidents sick with sluggish schizophrenia as a pretext for persecuting them; how could I be sure things worked all that differently here?) +She answered in the negative. "Really?" I said. (If I _was_ a political prisoner, she might not be able to say so over -* asking Anna on the phone whether I was a political prisoner "Really?" "Really really?" followups (if I were a political prisoner; she might not be able to say so) +She repeated her answer. "Really–really?" I said. ... diff --git a/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv b/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv index 1b1f29c..a38658a 100644 --- a/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv +++ b/notes/memoir_wordcounts.csv @@ -390,4 +390,5 @@ 05/11/2023,124845,375 05/12/2023,124829,-16 05/13/2023,124829,0 -05/14/2023,, \ No newline at end of file +05/14/2023,125245,416 +05/15/2023,, \ No newline at end of file