M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 20 Jan 2023 05:52:27 +0000 (21:52 -0800)]
memoir: Challenges to Yudkowsky's Personality Cult
See—by exerting a little bit of discipline over the course of a day, I
can grow the ms. by 1000 words. If I just do that six days a week, I
can finish this project in a reasonable amount of time.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 20 Jan 2023 05:48:36 +0000 (21:48 -0800)]
Yarvin dropped his pen name, too
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 19 Jan 2023 22:36:49 +0000 (14:36 -0800)]
memoir: if the world were at stake
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 19 Jan 2023 05:19:28 +0000 (21:19 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 19 Jan 2023 04:59:39 +0000 (20:59 -0800)]
memoir poke: AlphaGo moments
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 18 Jan 2023 19:47:34 +0000 (11:47 -0800)]
"it takes a little boldness" (check in)
Still not feeling the boldness to charge forward with the ms.?! But I
have to—and it shouldn't be a matter of needing to force it. It's just
a matter of not being evasive. I want a clear account of how I've
spent–wasted the last seven years of my life so that I can stop being
a vengeful ghost, so that I can close the loop and start thinking new
thoughts again. I want it! And I need to understand that the only way
to do that—the only way to get there—is by carefully thinking all the
old thoughts (like I've done all day every day for years) while Emacs
happens to be open.
I don't need to be self-conscious about my text being bad, because I'm
not publishing yet. Even if someone can dig through my Git history
(because I'm so ideologically opposed to privacy that a link to the
repository is just sitting there in the footer, in public, even if I'm
human enough to sometimes want privacy against self-consciousness)
... my network cable isn't even plugged in now! And it won't be until
Saturday night. And I can amuse myself with frivolties then, and it
will feel good. But for now—for three and a half days—I need to be
sitting here being honest with myself. While Emacs happens to be open.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 18 Jan 2023 05:49:03 +0000 (21:49 -0800)]
check in ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 18 Jan 2023 01:54:07 +0000 (17:54 -0800)]
finish Johnny the Walrus review
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 17 Jan 2023 22:21:05 +0000 (14:21 -0800)]
check in after waking up on the wrong side of the bed
Having trouble getting started (thinking about how I'll slot in minor
posts before the memoir, including a "straight" version of the Murray
2021 review without the planned extended coda, doesn't count); in
despair, put the cable back in for a little bit, as if to "start
over", to say that my communications blackout hadn't "really" started
yet, because it's going to be an awesome-productivity time, and I
haven't been feeling awesome this morning and early afternoon.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 17 Jan 2023 00:48:38 +0000 (16:48 -0800)]
gather resources before going dark again
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 15 Jan 2023 04:20:33 +0000 (20:20 -0800)]
memoir: filling in TODO blocks ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 14 Jan 2023 17:55:07 +0000 (09:55 -0800)]
memoir: revise pseudonymity grafs given that I'll be dropping it
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 14 Jan 2023 05:08:26 +0000 (21:08 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 13 Jan 2023 02:22:23 +0000 (18:22 -0800)]
memoir: outlining prep for Eliezerfic fight
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 13 Jan 2023 01:11:02 +0000 (17:11 -0800)]
memoir pokes: writing to Scott and /r/gendercritical, dayjob IQ minimum
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 12 Jan 2023 23:51:33 +0000 (15:51 -0800)]
memoir: humility vs. the vaccine gambit
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 12 Jan 2023 06:50:16 +0000 (22:50 -0800)]
memoir pokes: critical communism, vaccine polarization
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 12 Jan 2023 03:26:18 +0000 (19:26 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 11 Jan 2023 04:19:25 +0000 (20:19 -0800)]
gather resources before going dark for a few days
Network cable physically out, phone physically off is the way to
go. I'll see you later, bearing wordcount as a gift from my time away.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 10 Jan 2023 22:11:08 +0000 (14:11 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 10 Jan 2023 00:48:47 +0000 (16:48 -0800)]
memoir: eugenic dreams
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 9 Jan 2023 07:05:58 +0000 (23:05 -0800)]
memoir swipes
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 8 Jan 2023 21:49:19 +0000 (13:49 -0800)]
memoir: some pt. 2 editing
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 8 Jan 2023 19:35:35 +0000 (11:35 -0800)]
memoir wordcount automation precision
I think the LibreOffice Calc graph I brought up earlier was just
graphing the datapoints in sequence; the horizontal axis was "Git tree
time" (sampled every 5 commits) rather than sidereal time. If we grab
an end-of-day wordcount for every day, and stuff every day into the
spreadsheet, then the datapoints in sequence are sidereal time.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 8 Jan 2023 02:03:07 +0000 (18:03 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 8 Jan 2023 01:59:36 +0000 (17:59 -0800)]
memoir: Wilhelm's "sharp right turn"; and, Nevada
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 7 Jan 2023 18:51:52 +0000 (10:51 -0800)]
memoir wordcount automation
This doesn't count as an accomplishment today, the second day of the
new year (that I'm willing to admit to), but it's—warming up my typing
fingers. Now to make the line go up!
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 7 Jan 2023 06:47:27 +0000 (22:47 -0800)]
6 January is the first day of the new year
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 4 Jan 2023 22:32:47 +0000 (14:32 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 4 Jan 2023 06:49:43 +0000 (22:49 -0800)]
Nevada annotations
I didn't think I was going to get around to writing a Nevada review,
but I realized I did want to mention it in my memoir (as one of the
earlier clues in my 2016 Blanchpilling), and just dumping my
annotations is easier than writing a proper review of a book in which
nothing happens.
The double-underline CSS is not working, but maybe I'll try poking at
it again later.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 3 Jan 2023 06:53:04 +0000 (22:53 -0800)]
memoir: from the top ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 3 Jan 2023 03:03:49 +0000 (19:03 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 27 Dec 2022 06:53:08 +0000 (22:53 -0800)]
memoir: poke Eliezerfic fight
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 26 Dec 2022 06:30:17 +0000 (22:30 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 26 Dec 2022 02:46:03 +0000 (18:46 -0800)]
memoir: Murray alignment, 2020 EA survey
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 26 Dec 2022 00:50:26 +0000 (16:50 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 23 Dec 2022 03:08:29 +0000 (19:08 -0800)]
check in
My attention kind of got derailed since Fan Expo.
But I think I got the last few bits of reward-model training data that
I needed.
I'm OK.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 16 Dec 2022 21:10:12 +0000 (13:10 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 10 Dec 2022 02:36:56 +0000 (18:36 -0800)]
Thellim vs. Jane Austen anchor location
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 9 Dec 2022 04:04:25 +0000 (20:04 -0800)]
finish and publish Fan Expo/TransCat joint review
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 8 Dec 2022 23:47:20 +0000 (15:47 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 5 Dec 2022 03:26:39 +0000 (19:26 -0800)]
Fan Expo/TransCat joint review almost there ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 4 Dec 2022 07:31:14 +0000 (23:31 -0800)]
Fan Expo/Trans Cat
Humilitating that this boring Diary fillerpost isn't done yet. I'm
sure I can tie it off tomorrow or Monday.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 3 Dec 2022 07:05:39 +0000 (23:05 -0800)]
drafting Fan Expo account
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 3 Dec 2022 03:49:52 +0000 (19:49 -0800)]
Discord monologue
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 3 Dec 2022 01:44:32 +0000 (17:44 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 28 Nov 2022 06:45:52 +0000 (22:45 -0800)]
drafting Fan Expo account
Okay, this isn't going out the door tonight, but let's get it out the
door tomorrow, and back to the memoir—I mean, the interesting memoir
of religious betrayal, not this crappy opportunistic "my day at Fan
Expo" memoir.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 28 Nov 2022 05:12:34 +0000 (21:12 -0800)]
I figured out how to make the "Cocoon" epigraph quote fit!
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 27 Nov 2022 06:53:45 +0000 (22:53 -0800)]
SF Fan Expo bullet points
Seems fine to do a quick post about this, as long as it's quick—out
the door tomorrow night (I had hoped to finish and publish
"Multi-Product Review" before this, because it describes the mask
purchase, and then I thought about delaying this to finish
"Multi-Product Review" first, but that's a terrible idea; this isn't
interesting enough of a post to be worth an extended writing and
editing process; the excuse for publishing a less-interesting post is
that it's cheap to produce and shove out the door fast while it's
still about a recent memory)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 26 Nov 2022 02:45:26 +0000 (18:45 -0800)]
memoir: deep learning blues
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 26 Nov 2022 01:44:05 +0000 (17:44 -0800)]
check in (peeking at resources on the laptop)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 25 Nov 2022 17:42:01 +0000 (09:42 -0800)]
morning poke (walrus, soldiers)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 25 Nov 2022 06:44:36 +0000 (22:44 -0800)]
memoir: Meghan Murphy's law, triskaidekaphobia, tap at recap
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 25 Nov 2022 06:43:28 +0000 (22:43 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 22 Nov 2022 05:59:24 +0000 (21:59 -0800)]
harvest some net resources on a cable-in day
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 21 Nov 2022 00:02:21 +0000 (16:02 -0800)]
memoir: pt. 5 bullet expansion—xrisk, SJ, Dolphin War
The diffusion model methodology: notes → bullet points → more detailed
bullet points → prose. This should make it easier to write
prose. Right?
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 20 Nov 2022 20:07:15 +0000 (12:07 -0800)]
memoir: absolutely trying to be a religious leader
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 20 Nov 2022 20:03:51 +0000 (12:03 -0800)]
check in name spelling correction and anchor
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 20 Nov 2022 02:23:27 +0000 (18:23 -0800)]
memoir: yank out a new pt. 4!!
Previously, I was imagining a three part structure, with the middle
part being substantially bigger: "Blanchard's Dangerous Idea" (20K
words), "Hill of Validity" (40K words), "Agreeing With Stalin" (20K
words).
The reason for keeping the middle part so large was because I thought
the period from November 2018 (the Twitter thread that started the
civil war) to September 2020 (the end of the Category War) was a unit
that should be kept together.
But when I started looking for the median of the piece by wordcount,
it turns out it was actually after the discussion of "... Boundaries?"
That actually is a good cutoff point!
That is, previously I was thinking the structure was "2017 AGP
freakout", "Category War", "political epilogue"—and I wasn't happy
with how that put the December 2020 psychiatric disaster at the top of
the political epilogue. (If it didn't belong in the story of the
Category War ending September 2020, it chronologically fit in at the
beginning of the next post.)
But if Nov. 2018–Apr. 2019 is its own part, then the next part becomes
the Whole Dumb Story of my alliance with the Vassarites, and it is
natural for that to end with the psychiatric disaster of December
2020! I also get to use an awesome partial quote from Michael as a
title (which just occured to me now while trying to think of a title).
A 4·20K tetrology is better for readers than a middle-lop-sided
20K/40K/20K trilogy.
There are also seem to be psychological/motivational benefits: this
way, I'm actually done with pt. 3! (No TODO blocks, and probably not
even that much editing.) If I finish what's now pt. 5 soon (seems
doable), then I "just" have to go back an fill in the history for pt.s
2 and 4.
I also think it changes the focus, in a good way?! By framing pt. 4 as
the story of the Vassarites, I feel more like I'm telling a story,
rather than writing a hate letter about Yudkowsky. I think this is
good for me.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 20 Nov 2022 01:27:26 +0000 (17:27 -0800)]
multi-product review: finish bodysuit §, write quick mask §
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 19 Nov 2022 21:34:40 +0000 (13:34 -0800)]
memoir: poke
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 19 Nov 2022 05:40:07 +0000 (21:40 -0800)]
memoir: pokes, community college guidance counselor anecdote
The analysis of the pronoun post has so many banger lines.
I think I'm going to need to cut or footnote a lot of the Topher email
section, which is less interesting and deserves less relative
wordcount. (Play-by-play of social media exchanges are boring; I was
originally only going to mention it on account of my highly-Liked
comment being a potential explanation for him reopening the
discussion; if it's there, it's there as evidence supporting the
"privacy as expectation to participate in a political cover-up"
angle.)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 19 Nov 2022 00:48:40 +0000 (16:48 -0800)]
memoir: bridge from email leak to resumption of hostilities
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 18 Nov 2022 21:39:12 +0000 (13:39 -0800)]
I ordered another product for next week's Fan Expo
This is going to be lit!
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 18 Nov 2022 02:03:09 +0000 (18:03 -0800)]
memoir: save off a bunch of net resources before pulling my cable
The "physically pull out the network cable" strategy for avoiding
distraction is really dumb, but unfortunately, it's actually more
reliable than toggling the connection in software or having willpower
to do the right thing.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 17 Nov 2022 21:09:00 +0000 (13:09 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 14 Nov 2022 07:47:21 +0000 (23:47 -0800)]
Sunday
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 13 Nov 2022 03:03:29 +0000 (19:03 -0800)]
memoir: trans as shield, email leak
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 12 Nov 2022 15:59:41 +0000 (07:59 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 12 Nov 2022 03:53:32 +0000 (19:53 -0800)]
silenced
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 12 Nov 2022 00:25:39 +0000 (16:25 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 11 Nov 2022 23:37:58 +0000 (15:37 -0800)]
memoir: weirdly brazen invalid inference for a major newspaper
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 11 Nov 2022 05:38:23 +0000 (21:38 -0800)]
memoir: poke at NYT war (prelude to pronouns)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 10 Nov 2022 20:24:13 +0000 (12:24 -0800)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 9 Nov 2022 06:53:58 +0000 (22:53 -0800)]
poke
I had to at least poke the ms. for a full timer block, so that I'm
moving forwards (I didn't even get a full timer block last night), and
so that I'm allowed to have ice-cream.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 8 Nov 2022 07:11:07 +0000 (23:11 -0800)]
poke
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 7 Nov 2022 06:09:13 +0000 (22:09 -0800)]
check in
I think I want to cuss sparingly.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 7 Nov 2022 06:08:41 +0000 (22:08 -0800)]
memoir: the beginning of the Dolphin War
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 6 Nov 2022 19:10:20 +0000 (11:10 -0800)]
memoir: great battle footnote replies
Want to point out the hypocrisy but don't want to distract from the
"battle that matters" speech.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 6 Nov 2022 03:01:32 +0000 (20:01 -0700)]
November 5 is problematic but November is still serious
A friend of the blog points out that an earlier commit message was
lying about the cable being out all weekend. That's ... not good.
But it's also not a total collapse of my planning credibility. We've
seen me finish long pieces before. An 86K word piece is mostly just
seven 12K word pieces stapled together, with some additional
oversight. It's objectively reasonable to expect me to find some new
Ainslie–Schelling points and make November serious!
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 5 Nov 2022 23:19:40 +0000 (16:19 -0700)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 5 Nov 2022 21:07:10 +0000 (14:07 -0700)]
memoir bulleting
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 5 Nov 2022 05:38:26 +0000 (22:38 -0700)]
poke and bullet?
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 5 Nov 2022 04:16:34 +0000 (21:16 -0700)]
memoir poke and fold
After some progress from 11–1530, I degenerated into continuing my
re-read of Second Foundation. (It'd been years!) Is today over? No—an
experiment in bribes: I told myself I could check the net on my laptop
and watch a show from 2300 to midnight if I squeeze in four (amend
that, I actually wrote "3" in my planner?) blocks before 2300. I'm
sure it's that easy: as long as my butt is in the desk chair and I'm
engaged with the ms. in some form, then I'm moving forward, and any
form of violence, deceit, or corruption that increases chair time is
in the service of the God–Empress.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 4 Nov 2022 23:56:29 +0000 (16:56 -0700)]
a thought about privacy while I was out on my walk
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 4 Nov 2022 23:23:21 +0000 (16:23 -0700)]
memoir progress projection
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 4 Nov 2022 23:22:14 +0000 (16:22 -0700)]
memoir: "discrediting to the community" sub-§
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 4 Nov 2022 23:21:36 +0000 (16:21 -0700)]
memoir: pt. 4 opportunistic edit passing
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 4 Nov 2022 06:37:32 +0000 (23:37 -0700)]
November 3 specifically wasn't serious but November is serious
I think I was hoping to do more in the evening, but I got called away
to a Friendship Problem (even though I was re-watching Pantheon ep. 7
when I got called)? The moral is that yet again, I thought I was sane
enough to function with internet today, and yet again, I was not. The
cable comes out for at least the next two days, and likely until
evening Sunday.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 3 Nov 2022 20:51:00 +0000 (13:51 -0700)]
check in (November is serious)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 2 Nov 2022 05:59:46 +0000 (22:59 -0700)]
tap at multi-product review
On this first day of a new month, it seemed important that I get some
blog work done in the evening and not just hedonism, even though I
already did dayjob work today. I need to make progress every day this
month to see how far I can get on that memoir! (But tapping at this
should-be-quick post instead of the memoir today is fine; I want to
finish this Thursday as a prerequisite for my report on this month's
Fan Expo (because where else would I try out my new mask?), and then
the rest of the month is memoir.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 2 Nov 2022 05:32:29 +0000 (22:32 -0700)]
check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 31 Oct 2022 02:04:12 +0000 (19:04 -0700)]
memoir: reducing negativity (to § end)
I was having trouble getting started today, but I think I finally got
some flow and did some real thinking?!
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 30 Oct 2022 21:39:05 +0000 (14:39 -0700)]
memoir: bullet and shovel
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 30 Oct 2022 19:54:08 +0000 (12:54 -0700)]
memoir: bullet outline remainder of reducing-negativity §
Having trouble getting started? Nothing wrong with incremental
progress and tiny commits. The chain-of-thought prompting approach: if
you a large enough amount of computation turning vague notes into
less-vague bullet-outlines and less-vague bullet outlines into
paragraphs, you can eventually diffuse a completed ms. My limiting
factor is really the "large enough amount of computation", which is
rectified by keeping my butt in this chair and keeping the timer
running.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 30 Oct 2022 16:31:27 +0000 (09:31 -0700)]
drop images into multi-product review
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 30 Oct 2022 04:44:52 +0000 (21:44 -0700)]
memoir: reducing negativity
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 29 Oct 2022 22:25:15 +0000 (15:25 -0700)]
memoir: Jessica help on "Optimized for Deception"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 29 Oct 2022 15:21:19 +0000 (08:21 -0700)]
memoir progress metrics
This would be very Goodhartable (and doesn't take into account that
blockquotes or pre-written content from earlier notes/drafts getting
pasted into the ms. is easier than new ms. material), but I think it
does show that I started taking things more seriously in July ("An
Egoist Faith" having been published on 24 June).
I'd have to hit 1265 each today and tomorrow in order to match
August. (Monday I have to dayjob, and Alex Mennen's lecture series is
covering spectral graph theory.) That's very ambitious, but not, I
think, out of the question—if I take myself seriously.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 29 Oct 2022 06:11:50 +0000 (23:11 -0700)]
check in, including Signal review