From 552c3a2b5601c8d661d2142757a8453c198f5fb1 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: "M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake" Date: Sat, 7 May 2022 18:17:56 -0700 Subject: [PATCH] check in before salvaging Saturday MIME-Version: 1.0 Content-Type: text/plain; charset=utf8 Content-Transfer-Encoding: 8bit What's wrong with me?! I should be using my new four-day weekends to be productive! I had a fantasy of being really productive all day and then rewarding myself with takeout and the _Star Trek: Picard_ finale, but Mom wanted to walk in the morning, and I just—couldn't get started. I also kind of want to go to the Valinor party tomorrow ... My network cable is out, but I've been looking at my phone anyway ... Here's a plan for combined productivity and weekend fun. Let me do 40 solid minutes of writing (on "Useful Approximation"), then I'm allowed to order food. Keep writing until food arrives. Then I'm allowed to watch Star Trek. (Also unload the dishwasher and trash at some point.) Then write until 2300. Then I can play a phone game before bed. When I wake up, write until noon, then go to the party. This is going to be fun and this is going to be meaningful. --- ...-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md | 8 ++------ content/drafts/gaydar-jamming.md | 19 +++++++++++++++++++ ...mation-for-a-more-detailed-causal-model.md | 13 +++++++++---- notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md | 4 +++- notes/post_ideas.txt | 1 - notes/speculative_scheduling.txt | 6 ------ 6 files changed, 33 insertions(+), 18 deletions(-) create mode 100644 content/drafts/gaydar-jamming.md delete mode 100644 notes/speculative_scheduling.txt diff --git a/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md b/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md index e6344a2..3331768 100644 --- a/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md +++ b/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md @@ -210,15 +210,11 @@ Similarly, the notes from my first call to the gender department claim that I wa However weird I must have seemed, I have trouble imagining what anyone else tells the shrinks, given the pile of compelling evidence summarized earlier that most trans women are, in fact, guys like me. If I _wanted to_, I could cherry-pick pieces of evidence from my life to weave a more congruent narrative about always having been a girl on the inside. (Whatever than means! It still seems kind of sexist for that to mean something!) As a very small child, I remember asking for (and receiving, because I had good '90s liberal parents) [Polly Pocket](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Polly_Pocket), and a pink-and-purple girl's scooter with hearts. I could go on about [my beautiful pure sacred self-identity thing](/2021/May/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems/#beautiful-pure-sacred-self-identity) that emerged shortly after puberty. -But (as I told the LCSW) I would _know_ that I was cherry-picking. HSTS-taxon boys are identified as effiminate _by others_. [You know it when you see it, even when you're ideologically prohibited from _knowing_ that you know.](TODO: write "Gaydar Jamming" and linky) That's—not me. I [don't even _want_ that to be me](/2021/May/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems/#if-i-have-to-choose). I definitely have a gender _thing_, but I have a pretty detailed model of what I think the thing actually is in the real physical universe, and my model doesn't _fit_ in the ever-so-compassionate and -equitable ontology of "gender identity", which presupposes that what's going on when I report _wishing_ I were female is the _same thing_ as what's going on with actual women who (correctly) report being female. - -I don't think it's the same thing. - - +But (as I told the LCSW) I would _know_ that I was cherry-picking. HSTS-taxon boys are identified as effiminate _by others_. [You know it when you see it, even when you're ideologically prohibited from _knowing_ that you know.](TODO: write "Gaydar Jamming" and linky) That's—not me. I [don't even _want_ that to be me](/2021/May/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems/#if-i-have-to-choose). I definitely have a gender _thing_, but I have a pretty detailed model of what I think the thing actually is in the real physical universe, and my model doesn't _fit_ in the ever-so-compassionate and -equitable ontology of "gender identity", which presupposes that what's going on when I report _wishing_ I were female is the _same thing_ as what's going on with actual women who (correctly) report being female. I don't think it's the same thing, and I think you'd have to be [crazy or a liar](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/y4bkJTtG3s5d6v36k/stupidity-and-dishonesty-explain-each-other-away) to say it's plausibly the same thing. [TODO: another thing that happened about this time was my break with progressive morality; I had never been progressive along all dimensions (Ayn Rand, registered libertarian), but antisexism was very important to me, and even after I had mostly unwound the dysfunctional parts of that, I still thought of myself as on the Blue team http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/10/late-onset/ http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2017/03/brand-rust/ ] -[TODO: October 2016: I wrote Eliezer to ask about the conflict with "Changing Emotions" and made a Cheerful Price offer to talk about it https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/MzKKi7niyEqkBPnyu/your-cheerful-price (shut up, we're not a cult) ] +[TODO: October 2016: another thing that happened around this time I wrote Eliezer to ask about the conflict with "Changing Emotions" and made a Cheerful Price offer to talk about it https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/MzKKi7niyEqkBPnyu/your-cheerful-price (shut up, we're not a cult) ] [it was around this time I snuck a copy of _Men Trapped in Men's Bodies: Narratives of Autogynephilic Transsexualism_ into the [MIRI](https://intelligence.org/) office library. (It seemed like something Harry Potter-Evans-Verres would do—and ominously, I noticed, not like something Hermione Granger would do.)] diff --git a/content/drafts/gaydar-jamming.md b/content/drafts/gaydar-jamming.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..0f278ed --- /dev/null +++ b/content/drafts/gaydar-jamming.md @@ -0,0 +1,19 @@ +Title: Gaydar Jamming +Date: 2022-05-08 21:00 +Category: commentary +Tags: anecdotal, ideology +Status: draft + +Two related anecdotes on the power of ideology over observation— + +One day in high school journalism class, the topic came up + + +/images/crossdreaming_notebook_samples.png + + +very distinctive voice + +base rates + +"Calculus III" diff --git a/content/drafts/the-two-type-taxonomy-is-a-useful-approximation-for-a-more-detailed-causal-model.md b/content/drafts/the-two-type-taxonomy-is-a-useful-approximation-for-a-more-detailed-causal-model.md index c7659e7..fc90e1a 100644 --- a/content/drafts/the-two-type-taxonomy-is-a-useful-approximation-for-a-more-detailed-causal-model.md +++ b/content/drafts/the-two-type-taxonomy-is-a-useful-approximation-for-a-more-detailed-causal-model.md @@ -14,10 +14,17 @@ Moreover, if relativity hasn't been invented yet, it makes sense to stick with N The same general principles of reasoning apply to psychological theories, even though psychology is a much more difficult subject matter and our available theories are correspondingly much poorer and vaguer. There's no way to make precise quantitative predictions about a human's behavior the way we can about the movements of the planets, but we still know _some_ things about humans, which get expressed as high-level generalities that nevertheless admit many exceptions: if you don't have the complicated true theory that would account for everything, then simple theories plus noise are better than _pretending not to have a theory_. As you learn more, you can try to pin down a more complicated theory that explains some of the anomalies that looked like "noise" to the simpler theory. -What does this look like for psychological theories? In the crudest form, when we notice a pattern of traits that go together, we give it a name. +What does this look like for psychological theories? In the crudest form, when we notice a pattern of traits that go together, we give it a name. Sometimes people go through cycles of elevated arousal and hyperactivity, punctuated by pits of depression. After seeing the same distinctive patterns in many such cases, doctors decided to reify it as a diagnosis, ["bipolar disorder"](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder). + +If we notice further patterns _within_ the group of cases that make up a category, we can spit it up into sub-categories: a diagnosis of bipolar I requires a full-blown manic episode, but hypomania and a major depressive episode qualify one for bipolar II. + +Are bipolar I and bipolar II "really" different conditions? + + + + -[If a category seems to come into types, you can reify those as separate sub-categories, like bipolar I and II. The idea that there's something to the idea that bipolar I and II are "different", is s] [In the case of male-to-female transsexualism, straight and gay trans women seem different. Many authors agree to this simple story! e.g., Veale, Vitale, possibly Serano 2020 —but they have different detailed theories as to how the two clusters come about—the simple story is a useful approximation even if you don't know how to pin down the more detailed story] @@ -27,8 +34,6 @@ What does this look like for psychological theories? In the crudest form, when w Let me explain. - - [What are the reasons transitioning could possibly make sense to someone?—] [1. actually being really feminine] diff --git a/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md b/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md index 291fd2e..003d556 100644 --- a/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md +++ b/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md @@ -767,4 +767,6 @@ https://www.clearerthinking.org/post/understanding-relationship-conflicts-clashi postyud; Yudkowskyism without Yudkowsky -if you know Reality is red, blue, or green, and I know Reality is red but am trying to maximize the probability you assign to green, I can truthfully say "it's not blue" \ No newline at end of file +if you know Reality is red, blue, or green, and I know Reality is red but am trying to maximize the probability you assign to green, I can truthfully say "it's not blue" + +Gell-Mann amnesia diff --git a/notes/post_ideas.txt b/notes/post_ideas.txt index c8374ee..03b3a9f 100644 --- a/notes/post_ideas.txt +++ b/notes/post_ideas.txt @@ -11,7 +11,6 @@ _ Book Review: Charles Murray's Facing Reality: Two Truths About Race in America Minor— _ Gaydar Jamming (L.B. and R.H.) -_ https://www.nytimes.com/2022/04/30/sports/nonbinary-runners-races.html (h/t https://www.unz.com/isteve/run-of-the-mill-also-ran-finally-wins-a-running-race-just-by-calling-himself-nonbinary/ ) _ my medianworld: https://www.glowfic.com/replies/1619639#reply-1619639 _ Happy Meal diff --git a/notes/speculative_scheduling.txt b/notes/speculative_scheduling.txt deleted file mode 100644 index cc7d890..0000000 --- a/notes/speculative_scheduling.txt +++ /dev/null @@ -1,6 +0,0 @@ -S _ Don't Negotiate With Terrorist Memeplexes - - -Q Blanchard's Dangerous Idea and the Plight of the Lucid Crossdreamer; Or, Could Self-Reports Really Be That Wrong?? -Blegg Mode -The Categories Were Made for Man in Order to Make Predictions -- 2.17.1