From 59ffe844edda8637159f463ad0d13c445a67b20a Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: "M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake" <ultimatelyuntruethought@gmail.com> Date: Tue, 25 Aug 2020 23:16:45 -0700 Subject: [PATCH] check in --- ...e-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems.md | 13 +++---------- notes/i-tell-myself-notes.txt | 1 + notes/post_ideas.txt | 2 +- notes/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-notes.md | 6 +++++- 4 files changed, 10 insertions(+), 12 deletions(-) diff --git a/content/drafts/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems.md b/content/drafts/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems.md index 03b4aa2..985323c 100644 --- a/content/drafts/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems.md +++ b/content/drafts/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems.md @@ -38,7 +38,9 @@ Maybe this story reads differently in 2020 from how it was to live in 2005? I th (I mean, the beautiful pure sacred self-identity thing is much harder to talk about _clearly_, but talking about it _un_-clearly is less shameful and requires much less bravery) -âare immediately provided with "Oh, that means you're not a cis boy; you're a trans girl" as the definitive explanation. But it was a different time, then. Of course I had _heard of_ transsexualism as a thing, in the form of the "woman trapped in a man's body" trope, but, like drugs and sex, it wasn't salient to me as something that actually happens in real life, rather than on television. The idea that I might somehow _literally_ be a woman in some unspecified psychological sense, was simply not in my conceptspace. I knew I was a boy _because_ boys are the ones with penises. That's what the word _means_. I was a boy who had a weird _sex fantasy_ about being a girl. (Where "girls" are the ones with a vagina, breasts, _&c._) +âare immediately provided with "Oh, that means you're not a cis boy; you're a trans girl" as the definitive explanation. But it was a different time, then. Of course I had _heard of_ transsexualism as a thing, in the form of the "woman trapped in a man's body" trope, but it wasn't something I expected to actually encounter in real life. + +At the time, I had _no reason to invent the hypothesis_ that I might somehow _literally_ be a woman in some unspecified psychological sense. I knew I was a boy _because_ boys are the ones with penises. That's what the word _means_. I was a boy who had a weird _sex fantasy_ about being a girl. That was just the obvious ordinary straightforward plain-language description of the situation. That brings me to the other thing I need to explain about my teenage years, which is that I became very passionate aboutâwell, in retrospect I call it _psychological-sex-differences denialism_, but at the time I called it _antisexism_. Where sometimes people in the culture would make claims about how women and men are psychologically different, and of course I knew this was _bad and wrong_. @@ -48,15 +50,6 @@ It also seems like a pretty obvious guess that there must have been _some sort o - - - - - - - - - [section: some sort of causal relationship between self-identity and erotic thing, but I assumed it was just my weird thing, not "trans", which I had heard of; never had any reason to formulate the hypothesis, "dysphoria"] [section: another thing about me: my psychological sex differences denialism] diff --git a/notes/i-tell-myself-notes.txt b/notes/i-tell-myself-notes.txt index 68ac6c1..5ab581b 100644 --- a/notes/i-tell-myself-notes.txt +++ b/notes/i-tell-myself-notes.txt @@ -117,6 +117,7 @@ I can accept a church community that disagrees on whether evolution is true. (Er _everyone else shot first_, and I'm _correct on the merits_ competence forcing conclusions: http://www.sl4.org/archive/0602/13903.html +https://archive.is/nb5rH analogy to school diff --git a/notes/post_ideas.txt b/notes/post_ideas.txt index 87d1f97..ed18ff6 100644 --- a/notes/post_ideas.txt +++ b/notes/post_ideas.txt @@ -92,7 +92,7 @@ _ On Being Stereotyped Badly (working title) Angelic Irony Memetics vs. Discourse - +Being Willing to Change Your Mind Is About Symmetry, Not Fairness Honesty Is Activism The Motte-and-Bailey Doctrine as Compression Artifact diff --git a/notes/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-notes.md b/notes/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-notes.md index 5a19d83..1e2369e 100644 --- a/notes/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-notes.md +++ b/notes/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-notes.md @@ -42,4 +42,8 @@ Men who _fantasize about_ being women, do not particularly rememble actual women ([Amanda Marcotte](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amanda_Marcotte) once described one of my comments as "cute"! It ... was not a compliment.) -_Feminist Interpretations of Ayn Rand_ \ No newline at end of file +_Feminist Interpretations of Ayn Rand_ + +, like drugs and sex, it wasn't salient to me as something that actually happens in real life, rather than on television + +(Where "girls" are the ones with a vagina, breasts, _&c._) -- 2.17.1