From bb2c9e39a19c50478b35753fbc557f27afd2be09 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: "M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake" Date: Sat, 18 Nov 2017 10:34:30 -0800 Subject: [PATCH] check in --- ...-pulling-the-plug-or-putting-the-cis-in-decision.md | 2 +- ...g-or-the-spirit-of-the-staircase-24-january-2009.md | 2 +- ...of-my-recent-madness-part-ii-friendship-survived.md | 10 ++++++++-- ...-a-land-that-i-see-or-the-spirit-of-intervention.md | 8 +++----- notes/post_ideas.txt | 2 +- 5 files changed, 14 insertions(+), 10 deletions(-) diff --git a/content/2017/hormones-day-156-developments-doubts-and-pulling-the-plug-or-putting-the-cis-in-decision.md b/content/2017/hormones-day-156-developments-doubts-and-pulling-the-plug-or-putting-the-cis-in-decision.md index f0ebdca..fbef7f3 100644 --- a/content/2017/hormones-day-156-developments-doubts-and-pulling-the-plug-or-putting-the-cis-in-decision.md +++ b/content/2017/hormones-day-156-developments-doubts-and-pulling-the-plug-or-putting-the-cis-in-decision.md @@ -63,7 +63,7 @@ While I was planning the experiment, I thought that I didn't care much about thi ----- -In [my last HRT post](http://unremediatedgender.space/2017/Jul/whats-my-motivation-or-hormones-day-89/), I mentioned one (relatively minor) motive for the experiment being a desire for trans legitimacy. If I'm going to write about trans issues with the hope of having an impact on the _Zeitgeist_ (and whatever Google Analytics says about my _current_ twenty sessions a day—is that really so unrealistic, after I write more and put more effort into (tasteful) social-media marketing?), it helps to establish credibility that I really am in the relevant reference class. _Given_ that that motivation exists, it's certainly better to acknowledge it rather than not-acknowledge it. But also, establishing credibility is kind of a _bad_ thing to have thumbing the scales on a major medical decision. After all, if I were optimizing for telling the best possible story here and having the greatest impact, the thing to do would be to transition. (Actual trans women like Anne Lawrence and [Miranda Yardley](http://mirandayardley.com/) are way more interesting than mere men like me.) Which has its temptations ... +In [my last HRT post](http://unremediatedgender.space/2017/Jul/whats-my-motivation-or-hormones-day-89/), I mentioned one (relatively minor) motive for the experiment being a desire for trans legitimacy. If I'm going to write about trans issues with the hope of having an impact on the _Zeitgeist_ (and whatever Google Analytics says about my _current_ twenty sessions a day—is that really so unrealistic, after I write more and put more effort into (tasteful) social-media marketing?), it helps to establish credibility that I really am in the relevant reference class. _Given_ that that motivation exists, it's certainly better to acknowledge it rather than not-acknowledge it. But also, establishing credibility is kind of a _bad_ thing to have thumbing the scales on a major medical decision. After all, if I were optimizing for telling the best possible story here and having the greatest impact, the thing to do would be to transition. (Actual trans women like Anne Lawrence and [Miranda Yardley](http://mirandayardley.com/) are way more interesting than mere gender-dysphoric men like me.) Which has its temptations ... But no. I already have a _name_; I already have a _life_. And that's _final_. diff --git a/content/drafts/a-common-misunderstanding-or-the-spirit-of-the-staircase-24-january-2009.md b/content/drafts/a-common-misunderstanding-or-the-spirit-of-the-staircase-24-january-2009.md index a9d32c9..6ebb14e 100644 --- a/content/drafts/a-common-misunderstanding-or-the-spirit-of-the-staircase-24-january-2009.md +++ b/content/drafts/a-common-misunderstanding-or-the-spirit-of-the-staircase-24-january-2009.md @@ -4,7 +4,7 @@ Category: other Tags: personal Status: draft -I remember (and the Diary entry helps, too) there was a party/meetup at someone's place down in Sunnyvale, perhaps in honor of Robin being in town. This was back a little less than nine years ago, during the golden age when the Sequences were still being written, when the _M_ and _R_ in _MIRI_ were still an _S_ and an _A_, respectively—before the Eternal September, before everyone was poly, and _long_ before everyone was trans. +I remember (and the Diary entry helps, too) there was a party/meetup at someone's place down in Sunnyvale, perhaps in honor of Robin being in town. This was a little less than nine years ago, back during the golden age when the Sequences were still being written, when the _M_ and _R_ in _MIRI_ were still an _S_ and an _A_, respectively—before the Eternal September, before everyone was poly, and _long_ before everyone was trans. I worked the 0600 to 1500 bookkeeper/customer-service shift at my supermarket dayjob that day. After work, I dropped off the week's bag of redeemed manufacturer's coupons at store #936 (what the company did with them after that, I was never told—perhaps they weighed them), bought a woefully-misnamed espresso medicinal from the hegemon's coffee kiösk there, then drove downtown and parked near the library construction site; I had some time to kill before I was scheduled to rendezvous at University and Shattuck at 1745 with a local genetics blogger with whom I had arranged to give a ride to the party. I walked to Ming Quong and bought a "FEMINISM IS THE RADICAL NOTION THAT WOMEN ARE PEOPLE‭" button to put on my bag as a replacement for the one I had bought in 'aught-six and lost at some point. I had recently reöutfitted my bag with buttons I had bought from a site I found because the proprietor occasionally commented on the blog (_the_ blog). My newly-accessorized bag could hardly be complete without a gender pin, and for some sentimental reason I wanted it _before_ taking the geneticist to the social. I have a weakness for what you might call _narrative optimization_: doing things not for any real-world utility, but rather because they would seem thematically appropriate if this were a story rather than real life. diff --git a/content/drafts/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-ii-friendship-survived.md b/content/drafts/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-ii-friendship-survived.md index cc9d8dc..c211398 100644 --- a/content/drafts/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-ii-friendship-survived.md +++ b/content/drafts/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-ii-friendship-survived.md @@ -27,7 +27,9 @@ Right. So I was annoyed that I had missed out on my trip to Portland (the _real_ ---- -in the ruins +in the ruins—thinking that internet-courier food was literally scraped from garbage + +stealing Elcenia books science/female cooperate/defect @@ -43,6 +45,10 @@ I thought my friends trying to help me and give me cigarettes were constructing hot chocolate, poison me; afraid of being locked in; not trusting Google Maps (I thought it might be giving me bad data as a test case) +trying to make a puzzle for Watson out of the Soylent bottles, thinking he was on a longer "Cookie Monster" cycle than me + +my "power play" status update was only Liked by men + everyone is being posioned all the time, and there's Jem Uber, denouncing my social class; Hamilton tickets @@ -70,7 +76,7 @@ BABSCon someone might die because of the conservation law, but it probably would "Someone is going to die, and it's not going to be me!" -there might be _separate_ An Algorithmic Lucidity and Scintillating But Ultimately Untrue Thought meetups, and one of them, someone who had been gaslit into thinking they were me would attend, and maybe he would get killed instead, if the party; or maybe there would be a scandal in the newspapers about a confrontation in the bathroom, and there would be a trial +there might be _separate_ An Algorithmic Lucidity and Scintillating But Ultimately Untrue Thought meetups, and one of them, someone who had been gaslit into thinking they were me would attend, and maybe he would get killed instead, if the party; or maybe there would be a scandal in the newspapers about a confrontation in the bathroom, and there would be a trial, and the trial would consume some subset of my crowd is in harmony with human nature diff --git a/content/drafts/theres-a-land-that-i-see-or-the-spirit-of-intervention.md b/content/drafts/theres-a-land-that-i-see-or-the-spirit-of-intervention.md index 6f32b28..e8cabaa 100644 --- a/content/drafts/theres-a-land-that-i-see-or-the-spirit-of-intervention.md +++ b/content/drafts/theres-a-land-that-i-see-or-the-spirit-of-intervention.md @@ -15,17 +15,15 @@ Status: draft > > —[Greg Cochran](https://westhunt.wordpress.com/2015/12/12/internal-contradictions/) -We socially-liberal individualist/feminist people—I _hope_ I'm still allowed to use the first person here, although the reader will ultimately judge that for herself—have this beautiful moral ideal, where we want all humans to be free to maximize their potential, unencumbered by oppressive cultural traditions specifying roles and destinies in advance. We want everyone to be judged on her or his _own_ merits rather than treated as a representative of their race or sex. +We socially-liberal individualist/feminist people—I _hope_ I'm still allowed to use the first person here, although the reader will ultimately judge that for herself—have this beautiful moral ideal, where we want all humans to be free to maximize their potential, unencumbered by oppressive cultural institutions specifying roles and destinies in advance. We want everyone to be judged on her or his _own_ merits rather than treated as a representative of their race or sex. If a trait is virtuous in a man, it _has_ to be equally virtuous in a woman. -And _because_ we care about the beautiful moral ideal, we tend to assume that psychological group differences don't exist or are superficial or are socially-constructed, +And _because_ we care about the beautiful moral ideal, we tend to assume that psychological group differences don't exist or are superficial or are socially-constructed and will naturally dissipate after the revolution. invidious distinction (... the scintillating but ultimately untrue thought.) - - -And this is _so crazy_ on _multiple levels_. +But this is _so crazy_ on _multiple levels_. Philosophers since the days of D. Hume have recognized the distinction between _is_ and _ought_: analogy to spelling diff --git a/notes/post_ideas.txt b/notes/post_ideas.txt index b4aa37a..80c67b1 100644 --- a/notes/post_ideas.txt +++ b/notes/post_ideas.txt @@ -44,7 +44,7 @@ Product Review: Glamour Boutique's Vee-String Bladder Review of Nerve Endings: The New Trans Erotic on the poor literary quality of TG captions -FICTION QUEUE (4)— +FICTION QUEUE (5)— An Epistolary Story About Preference Falsification Blame Me for Trying "Love Like You" -- 2.17.1