Title: Wellness Strategy Notes, 15 January 2021 Date: 2020-01-15 07:55 Category: other Tags: personal, madness, meta Status: draft Okay, my gender-blogging schedule is probably being pushed forward (delayed) a bit, because my _first_ priority now is making sure I don't go crazy again. I'm optimistic, because I have _skills_ born of life experience. My 2013 sleep-deprivation-induced psychotic break and subsequent imprisonment ("hospitalization", whatever) [was](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2013/03/actually-trying/) [_very_](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2013/03/religious/) [bad](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2013/03/childlike/), [and](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2013/04/prodrome/) I was out of commission [for](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2013/05/retirement/) [months](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2013/05/relevance/) afterwards. My 2017 stress-and-sleep-deprivation-induced psychotic break and imprisonment [was](/2017/Mar/fresh-princess/) [also](/2017/Jun/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-i-the-unanswerable-words/) very bad, but I was pretty lucid through a lot of it and bounced back quicker. My social performance in psych prison was a _lot_ better, precisely _because_ I was modeling it as a prison the second time around. (In contrast, when I started feeling crazy after missing that night of sleep in 2013, I _asked_ to go to the hospital! Imagine being that misinformed!) So if I'm having trouble sleeping lately, that's something I know to take seriously and