X-Git-Url: http://unremediatedgender.space/source?p=Ultimately_Untrue_Thought.git;a=blobdiff_plain;f=content%2Fdrafts%2Fstudent-dysphoria-and-a-previous-lifes-war.md;h=61066e20c9d0c53f4bbd5ef4a3227a1599d96823;hp=5e53621e36afd0102d020ba438a16dd4e06193f4;hb=3a266c16c65d62ecf3dc227c79cca7049280e0e1;hpb=63e3dc9bd455ef3b00cf71aedfba726f24a29aff diff --git a/content/drafts/student-dysphoria-and-a-previous-lifes-war.md b/content/drafts/student-dysphoria-and-a-previous-lifes-war.md index 5e53621..61066e2 100644 --- a/content/drafts/student-dysphoria-and-a-previous-lifes-war.md +++ b/content/drafts/student-dysphoria-and-a-previous-lifes-war.md @@ -12,7 +12,7 @@ Peacetime was _amazing_. I was so happy—not ecstatic, but happy in the ordinar That carefree selfishness is gone now, subordinated to the war effort. And so soon after the last war, too. -The first shots of the last war came in December 2007. I was a schoolstudent at the University in Santa Cruz. Coming into that quarter, I had been excited to take the famous "Introduction to Feminisms" course, only to find, as the quarter wore on, that it seemed to be taught in a dialect of English I could not speak. The texts and the professor kept describing features of Society as _oppression_ as if simply to condemn them. I agreed with the condemnation, of course, but I couldn't understand it as _knowledge_ and could not produce such sentences in my own voice; I wanted an explanation of how the oppression _worked_. +The first shots of the last war came on 29 November 2007. I was a schoolstudent at the University in Santa Cruz. Coming into that quarter, I had been excited to take the famous "Introduction to Feminisms" course, only to find, as the quarter wore on, that it seemed to be taught in a dialect of English I could not speak. The texts and the professor kept describing features of Society as _oppression_ as if simply to condemn them. I agreed with the condemnation, of course, but I couldn't understand it as _knowledge_ and could not produce such sentences in my own voice; I wanted an explanation of how the oppression _worked_. My subsequent difficulty in writing the required papers for that course weighed on my soul. The failure to live up to expectations would have been shameful for any course, but as a _male_ squandering the privilege of being allowed to take "Introduction to Feminisms", it was simply unbearable. Unable to reach the prescribed word count for the final paper, I had a hysterical nervous breakdown at the end of the quarter, crying and screaming for hours, "I betrayed them; I betrayed them." (The professor and the T.A., who were kind and deserved better than to have to teach a male who _couldn't write_.)