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 I will try to be less silly about "my thing is actually important for the world" claims, when what I really mean is that I'm just not a consequentialist about speech
 
+https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/N2pENnTPB75sfc9kb/outside-the-laboratory
 "Outside the Laboratory" dumbness could be selection rather than causal
 
 I don't expect anyone to take a stand for a taboo topic that they don't care about
@@ -533,3 +534,30 @@ https://twitter.com/ESYudkowsky/status/1096769579362115584
 
 Ooh, how I wish they'd want me to stay.
 
+[trade arrangments: if that's the world we live in, fine]
+
+that's what makes it so hard: the only thing that actually helped me stop being bitter about school, was exiting the entire social context that made it an issue: once I had a grown-up software job
+it became irrelevant
+I was able to ragequit school (which was claiming to be one thing, education, but I don't think was living up to its marketing message) because I had somewhere else to go
+the obvious analogy here is to ragequit the "rationalist community" (which is claiming ot be one thing, but I don't think is living up to its marketing message)
+but ... that's my entire social circle
+
+If I can't ragequit the community, I have to do the analogue of going to grad school, while hating school—I don't have an exit this time
+
+(Picture me playing Hermione Granger in a post-Singularity adaptation of the Great Teacher's famous _Harry Potter_ fanfic (Emma Watson having loaned me a copy of her body for the occasion): "[We can do anything if we](https://www.hpmor.com/chapter/30) exert arbitrarily large amounts of [interpretive labor](https://acesounderglass.com/2015/06/09/interpretive-labor/)!")
+
+https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/WLJwTJ7uGPA5Qphbp/trying-to-try
+> it's a lens through which you can view many-but-not-all personal dilemmas—"What standard am I holding myself to?  Is it high enough?"
+
+see, you're doing this "reasoning about sex differences" thing, and you're allowed to do the reasoning-about-sex-differences thing because you're female. (Same reason Nixon could go to China, and I'm allowed to express gender-identity skepticism.) But since everyone else is required to speak as if gender identity is real and sex differences aren't (because those are the rules for being a good person in Berkeley), we get an equilibrium where discrimination against transfems is a huge Issue
+I'm being incredibly cynical here and it feels awful, but I just ... can't take the things people say literally anymore; I tried, and it drove me crazy
+
+everything anyone says is "true" if the speaker is allowed to define their own category boundaries!
+
+if I'm allowed to have unflattering psychological theories about other people, then those people are also allowed to have unflattering psychological theories about me—not just as a matter of procedural fairness, but "symmetry" in the physics sense (the Rules are universal and don't depend on who "I" am)
+
+"If you make yourself really small, you can externalize virtually everything." —Daniel Dennett
+
+> "The Choice between Good and Bad," said the Lord of Dark in a slow, careful voice, as though explaining something to a child, "is not a matter of saying 'Good!'  It is about deciding which is which."
+
+inside views are just outside views against a finer-grained method of constructing reference classes