From: M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake Date: Mon, 12 Aug 2019 04:12:56 +0000 (-0700) Subject: drafting "A Love ..." X-Git-Url: http://unremediatedgender.space/source?p=Ultimately_Untrue_Thought.git;a=commitdiff_plain;h=da672c29fa564591ddea4fbfdfb65925346c3207 drafting "A Love ..." --- diff --git a/content/drafts/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md b/content/drafts/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md index 40b1c07..1765f57 100644 --- a/content/drafts/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md +++ b/content/drafts/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control.md @@ -4,7 +4,7 @@ Category: other Tags: anecdotal, cosplay, Steven Universe Status: draft -_(Attention conservation notice: Diary-like navel-gazing today. If you're here for the insight porn, come back tomorrow. If you're here for the Actual Philosophy, come back next week.)_ +_(Attention conservation notice: Diary-like navel-gazing today. If you're here for the Actual Philosophy, come back next week.)_ > ROSE: [...] we can't both exist. I'm going to become half of you. And I need you to know that every moment you love being yourself, that's me, loving you, and loving _being_ you. > @@ -12,12 +12,22 @@ _(Attention conservation notice: Diary-like navel-gazing today. If you're here f I cosplayed [Rose Quartz](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Steven_Universe_characters#Rose_Quartz) on Saturday at [FanimeCon](https://www.fanime.com/) the other month! It was fun, I think! I guess? -I'm not really sure what other people get out of fandom conventions. There are panels, but pop-culture analysis is better in blog form than live discussion. There are autographs, but there are only so many celebrities +I'm not really sure what other people get out of fandom conventions. There are panels, but pop-culture analysis is better in blog form than live discussion. There are autographs, but there are only so many celebrities I want to pay forty dollars in order to meet for forty seconds. There's the vendor hall, but I don't need more useless material possessions: my life is about bits, not atoms. + + For me, it's my one socially-acceptable excuse for crossdressing in public. +... well, that's not quite right; "socially-acceptable" isn't the concept I want. I live in goddamned _"Portland"_. (Which is actually Berkeley, but when I started my pseudonymous gender blog, I took my savvy friends' cowardly and paranoid advice to obfuscate even my location, and now I have to keep saying "'Portland'" for backwards compatibility, even though at this point my bad opsec is more akin to a genre convention or a running joke, rather than a real attempt to conceal my identity.) Everyone _and her dog_ has trans friends here. My new young male coworker just staight-up wears a dress and makeup some days, and no one bats an eye. (My attempt to "Blanchpill" him was ... uneventful.) + +So if I don't need to fear getting beaten up or even menacing stares, why do I need conventions to dress up? Could part of it be that I'm too old? (The fact that I wouldn't be caught dead wearing a dress _to work_ (!!) probably has something to do with my sense of propriety being calibrated to the world of 'aught-six, in contrast to my coworker, who I guess would have come of age in the _Obergefell_- and Jenner-era world of 'fifteen.) + +Maybe. But I think another part of it is that I don't + + +I'm not very good at it colorful sandals diff --git a/content/images/coffee_fanime_2019.jpg b/content/images/coffee_fanime_2019.jpg new file mode 100644 index 0000000..4261e93 Binary files /dev/null and b/content/images/coffee_fanime_2019.jpg differ diff --git a/content/images/rose_quartz_fanime_2019.jpg b/content/images/rose_quartz_fanime_2019.jpg new file mode 100644 index 0000000..e8a0851 Binary files /dev/null and b/content/images/rose_quartz_fanime_2019.jpg differ