From 42acd0f6da54d2b469cc192a3f7aff6aedf86d62 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: "M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake" Date: Sun, 27 Jan 2019 23:10:05 -0800 Subject: [PATCH] check in --- content/2019/interlude-xvi.md | 2 +- ...social-strategy-notes-late-january-2019.md | 8 ++--- ...sheer-goddamned-pointlessness-of-reason.md | 6 +++- content/drafts/willie-mccovington.md | 14 ++++++++ notes/epigraph_quotes.md | 5 +++ notes/notes.txt | 36 +++++++++++++++++-- notes/post_ideas.txt | 2 ++ notes/tweet_pad.txt | 17 +++++++-- 8 files changed, 78 insertions(+), 12 deletions(-) create mode 100644 content/drafts/willie-mccovington.md diff --git a/content/2019/interlude-xvi.md b/content/2019/interlude-xvi.md index 14ecc8c..f2163ae 100644 --- a/content/2019/interlude-xvi.md +++ b/content/2019/interlude-xvi.md @@ -1,7 +1,7 @@ Title: Interlude XVI Date: 2019-01-26 17:00 Category: other -Tags: interlude +Tags: interlude, sex differences "But like, maybe a _better_ strategy than _pretending not to notice_ that women are a different thing that I don't understand, might be to try to listen to them, and learn from them, and appropriate the good parts of what they have without literally insisting that we're instances of the same thing, which is, unfortunately, not true. Or even—why am I even saying 'unfortunately'? It was already not true _before_ I picked up my teenage religion." diff --git a/content/drafts/social-strategy-notes-late-january-2019.md b/content/drafts/social-strategy-notes-late-january-2019.md index e9cf033..2d71713 100644 --- a/content/drafts/social-strategy-notes-late-january-2019.md +++ b/content/drafts/social-strategy-notes-late-january-2019.md @@ -6,15 +6,15 @@ Status: draft February is looking to be an exciting month for me in terms of advancing in my chosen profession! -First, I'm flying to "Munich"[ref]As part of this blog's æsthetic tradition, we're pretending that I actually care about protecting my identity, so identifying place and proper names continue to be changed, with the replacements enclosed in "scare quotes" in their first appearance in each post, even though it's probably not hard for someone with curiosity and a search engine to work out that "Portland" is actually Berkeley, _&c._[/ref] to participate in the all-hands team meeting for the "Blerp-d9aa89fd" open-source project that I've been contributing to for the past couple years. My own contributions have been pretty modest so far: mostly plumbing that makes the error messages better, rather than the feats of computer-scientific mastery that one might naïvely expect to be necessary to contribute at all to such cutting-edge technology. This makes it all the more exciting to be accepted as part of the Team, part of the in-crowd. I'm eager to work hard to be worthy of the honor—to continue to grow and contribute more to the infrastructure [holding up the sky](http://esr.ibiblio.org/?p=4196) of our glorious technological civilization! +First, I'm flying to "Munich" to participate in the all-hands team meeting for the "Blerp-d9aa89fd"[ref]As part of this blog's æsthetic tradition, we're pretending that I actually care about protecting my identity, so identifying place and proper names continue to be changed, with the replacements enclosed in "scare quotes" in their first appearance in each post, even though it's probably not hard for someone with curiosity and a search engine to work out that "Portland" is actually Berkeley, alphanumeric suffixes are the first eight bytes of the SHA256 hash of the actual name, _&c._[/ref] open-source project that I've been contributing to for the past couple years. My own contributions have been pretty modest so far: mostly plumbing that makes the error messages better, rather than the feats of computer-scientific mastery that one might naïvely expect to be necessary to contribute at all to such cutting-edge technology. This makes it all the more exciting to be accepted as part of the Team, part of the in-crowd. I'm eager to work hard to be worthy of the honor—to continue to grow and contribute more to the infrastructure [holding up the sky](http://esr.ibiblio.org/?p=4196) of our glorious technological civilization! -Second, I'll be giving a talk at the "Quux-cbc85e20" conference for assorted lightning talks about the marvels of computing, to be held at the University that I would have actually graduated from nine years ago if I hadn't been such a dysfunctional emotional wreck in my youth. It looks to be a really exciting lineup, and I'm honored to be part of that, too! +Second, I'll be giving a talk at the "Quux-cbc85e20" conference for celebrating the marvels of computing, to be held at the University that I would have actually graduated from nine years ago if I hadn't been such a dysfunctional emotional wreck in my youth. It looks to be a really exciting lineup, and I'm honored to be part of that, too! -But I'm nervous about being socially rejected. Not on account of my technical prowess—I think I'm doing okay on that front. I'm nervous because my read (from Twitter, and from attending [BlerpConf](/2018/Oct/sticker-prices/)) of the "Blerp-d9aa89fd" and "Quux-cbc85e20" social scenes is that people are very—um, how do you say?—socially-just. And I'm ... not? +But I'm nervous about being socially rejected. Not on account of my technical prowess—I think I'm doing okay on that front. I'm nervous because my read (from Twitter, and from [conversations at BlerpConf](/2018/Oct/sticker-prices/)) of the "Blerp-d9aa89fd" and "Quux-cbc85e20" communities is that people are very—um, how do you say?—socially-just. And I'm ... not? I don't think my _moral_ compass has been damaged? I was born in 1987 and grew up in California; I received the same egalitarian memetic payload as everyone else in these scenes, that I still [want to stay true to the spirit of](/2017/Dec/theres-a-land-that-i-see-or-the-spirit-of-intervention/). It's just ... from my reading over the past fifteen years, it looks to me like there are a lot of inconvenient facts and well-supported theories in biology, psychology, and economics that make the problem of achieving a better world _somewhat more complicated_ than mustering up the political will. -I remember being at the University in 2007, reading a library copy of Robert Wright's [popular-level book on evolutionary psychology](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Moral_Animal), with utter horror +I remember being at the University in 'aught-six or 'aught-seven, reading a library copy of Robert Wright's [popular-level book on evolutionary psychology](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Moral_Animal), with utter horror [Pinterest anecdote] diff --git a/content/drafts/the-social-construction-of-reality-and-the-sheer-goddamned-pointlessness-of-reason.md b/content/drafts/the-social-construction-of-reality-and-the-sheer-goddamned-pointlessness-of-reason.md index 5e8085c..675e4be 100644 --- a/content/drafts/the-social-construction-of-reality-and-the-sheer-goddamned-pointlessness-of-reason.md +++ b/content/drafts/the-social-construction-of-reality-and-the-sheer-goddamned-pointlessness-of-reason.md @@ -22,12 +22,14 @@ Thus, trans women are women, where by 'women' I mean people who identify as wome If you can't win the argument (because the motte is genuinely a great motte) and therefore gain status by appealing to reality, and our minds are better at tracking status than reality, then eventually dissidents either accept the narrative or destroy themselves. -Autogynephilic males are better at coalitional politics than actual lesbians for basically the same reasons that men-in-general are better at coalitional politics than women-in-general (as evidenced by the patriarchy), so once a political conflict arose between AGPs' right to choose their "gender", and women's/lesbians' right to have a goddamned _word_ to describe themselves, it was a _fait accompli_ that the group sampled from the male region in psychological configuration space would win. And in winning, they _create their own reality_. +Autogynephilic males are better at coalitional politics than actual lesbians for basically the same reasons that men-in-general are better at coalitional politics than women-in-general (as evidenced by the patriarchy), so once a political conflict arose between AGPs' right to choose their "gender", and women's/lesbians' right to have a goddamned _word_ to describe themselves, it was a _fait accompli_ that the group sampled from the male region in psychological configuration space would win: male psychology is [_designed_ to win costly intergroup conflicts](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3260849/). And in winning, they _create their own reality_. Again, probably not literally: there probably really are biochemical facts of the matter as to what traits hormone replacement therapy does and does not change, and the biochemical facts aren't going to vary depending on the outcome of a political conflict (as far as I know). ------ +[but I only know that estrogen exists because I'm trusting that scientists are doing their jobs right; I've never _seen_ an estrogen molecule] + successfully mindfucked affects what differences you can talk about, and what differences you can _notice_ if you can mf everyone into beleiving that AGPs are really women, that actually does make it easier to transition @@ -37,3 +39,5 @@ but maybe you could get the good result without mfing??? https://twitter.com/pangmeli/status/1079097805250224130 Judiciously. As I do. + +TODO: Vassar says women are better at politics, but with narrower scope diff --git a/content/drafts/willie-mccovington.md b/content/drafts/willie-mccovington.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..5370b95 --- /dev/null +++ b/content/drafts/willie-mccovington.md @@ -0,0 +1,14 @@ +Title: Willie McCovington +Date: 2020-01-01 +Category: fiction +Tags: baseball +Status: draft + +Zoë + +Gilette + +student loan maybe + +StL + diff --git a/notes/epigraph_quotes.md b/notes/epigraph_quotes.md index c684bf2..e171d14 100644 --- a/notes/epigraph_quotes.md +++ b/notes/epigraph_quotes.md @@ -274,3 +274,8 @@ https://xkcd.com/1942/ > Every asshole these days has a blog. Every asshole with a blog wants to “change the world.” But the great thing about being right is that, when the world catches on, you really can’t tell whether or not they heard it from you. The truth, being true, belongs to all. > > — https://www.unqualified-reservations.org/2010/11/ur-heard-it-here-first-files/ + +> Too long I've been afraid of +> Losing love I guess I've lost +> Well, if that's love +> It comes at much too high a cost! diff --git a/notes/notes.txt b/notes/notes.txt index cab511d..b53615c 100644 --- a/notes/notes.txt +++ b/notes/notes.txt @@ -613,9 +613,6 @@ the recording here also has stop-recording exchange: https://gendertrender.wordp Blanchard on the record about "homosexual" terminology: https://twitter.com/BlanchardPhD/status/999680624817508352 -no one remembers pronouns: https://twitter.com/BlanchardPhD/status/1060563648027021314 - -material reality: https://twitter.com/jennyrossity/status/1084449984399970305 https://twitter.com/RachelRMoran/status/1060311474780946432 @@ -1092,3 +1089,36 @@ divorce court required pronouns: https://www.reddit.com/r/GenderCritical/comment Maybe blame my father (a Bernie Sanders supporter) for accidentally having a copy of _Atlas Shrugged_ on the family bookshelf where I could get at it when I was sixteen. + +a man whose initials are B. D. once wrote, "Ultimately, for me, it comes down to a simple moral question: does my right to have a model that accurately predicts your behavior trump your right to control your own narrative? Because if your narrative doesn't match your behavior, then I have to either doublethink around my own perceptions, or reject your narrative. And which way I choose has consequences." (https://www.facebook.com/zmdavis/posts/10154814383695199?comment_id=10154814575900199&reply_comment_id=10154815175090199&comment_tracking=%7B%22tn%22%3A%22R%22%7D) + + +----- + +https://www.scottishathletics.org.uk/42874-2/ + +https://drethelin.tumblr.com/post/129304925958/gods-actually-exist + +---- + +the analogy my brain came up with is "yes, I understand that we are genetically aimed at protecting and allying with our kin to increase our inclusive genetic fitness, and that this has caused lots of followon effects in human psychology, including in me and my family. however, please stop calling her my 'fake kid'." + +yeah, that's a pretty good analogy +oooh +under this analogy, "nonbinary people who aren't successfully androgynous are less legitimate" seems to map to "interracial adoption is less legitimate" +which +is not the most comfortable bullet to bite +it took a little bit of deliberate effort to do the thing of spontaneously generating the uncomfortable bullet and saying "ooooh" rather than flinching away from it + +----- + +"I'm not at war with trans _people_; I'm at war with the trans-activism memeplex" is a great motte, but to what extent can you war a culture without hurting the people who are devoting their lives against it? + + incentivized/selected for self-delusion, which is really unfair to the people who aren't delusional about it + +https://www.nytimes.com/2019/01/24/technology/amazon-facial-technology-study.html?smid=tw-nytimes&smtyp=cur "Amazon’s system had more difficulty identifying the gender of female and darker-skinned faces" Do humans have the same problem?! (it's easier to pass FtM than MtF) + + +You have some latitude because you have a pony tail and don't come off as a dudebro, so this makes you look ingroup and non-threatening +However, watch out for the zeitgeist shifting to where those signifiers might not be enough in the next few years to get away with as much +I also kind of have breasts?? Does that help??? diff --git a/notes/post_ideas.txt b/notes/post_ideas.txt index b428ea0..1634a80 100644 --- a/notes/post_ideas.txt +++ b/notes/post_ideas.txt @@ -1,6 +1,8 @@ Laser 12 Social Strategy Notes, late January 2019 The Social Construction of Reality and the Sheer Goddamned +Dragon in Garage +Willie McCovington A Human's Abridged Guide to Gender Words Phenotypic Identity and Memetic Capture Trying to Be Explicit diff --git a/notes/tweet_pad.txt b/notes/tweet_pad.txt index 38dc42c..485a466 100644 --- a/notes/tweet_pad.txt +++ b/notes/tweet_pad.txt @@ -4,18 +4,27 @@ Only losing coalitions have an incentive to support free-speech norms. You don't Men are trash! (With respect to the definition of "trash" as "of or relating to the sex that typically produces sperm.") -https://twitter.com/literallyktp/status/1075287925087264768 +link to Tail: https://twitter.com/BlanchardPhD/status/1089172233300443136 +no one remembers pronouns: https://twitter.com/BlanchardPhD/status/1060563648027021314 + +Misalliances are literally: https://twitter.com/literallyktp/status/1075287925087264768 + +Singal for free speech: https://twitter.com/jessesingal/status/1089236142724136963 + +https://twitter.com/BennettJonah/status/1089421675433771008 + +My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic S8E23 "Sounds of Silence" is an allegory about political correctness: "I could stay and live with them, or I could keep my voice" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RAhqxvgQYn0 #mylittlepony #friendshipismagic #idw ----- Prewritten thread for if they do the stickers again this year— -As a male with mild gender dysphoria (which is probably causally related to my autogynephilic sexuality), pronoun stickers (like those at @RustConf) make me uncomfortable for nuanced reasons that are hard to adequately explain when limited to 280 characters at a time! 1/7 +As a male with mild gender dysphoria (which is probably causally related to my autogynephilic sexuality), pronoun stickers (like those at @RustConf) make me uncomfortable for nuanced reasons that are hard to adequately explain when limited to 280 characters at a time! 1/7 [include photo] Like, I don't want to put on the "HE" sticker, because that would be taken to mean that I actively "identify" with the unfortunate fact of my being male, when really it's more that I don't expect people to pretend not to notice, given how I look. 2/7 -(I was on hormone replacement therapy for 5 months the other year, but quit out of general conservatism about medical interventions. I wrote about it on my secret gender blog! http://unremediatedgender.space/2017/Sep/hormones-day-156-developments-doubts-and-pulling-the-plug-or-putting-the-cis-in-decision/) 3/7 +(I was on hormone replacement therapy for 5 months the other year, but quit out of general conservatism about medical interventions. I wrote about it on my secret gender blog! http://unremediatedgender.space/2017/Sep/hormones-day-156-developments-doubts-and-pulling-the-plug-or-putting-the-cis-in-decision/) 3/7 [include HRT photo] Likewise, I can't put on the "SHE" sticker. I do prefer the æsthetics of feminine pronouns and cherish them in contexts where that makes sense (like when cosplaying a female character), but I couldn't really expect people to take that seriously in real life, given how I look. 4/7 @@ -24,3 +33,5 @@ I guess I could use the "THEY" sticker?? But I'm still not sure what the truth c I guess I'm unnerved by the implication that the subconscious process by which the brain notices people's secondary sex characteristics is somehow illegitimate? I'm happy to use the indicated pronouns, but am I also supposed to override my perception of physical reality? 6/7 Although the pronoun stickers may be a useful stopgap while we're waiting for deep-learning powered surgery robots (written in @rustlang?!) to make facial feminization surgery affordable for everyone! END/7 + +– -- 2.17.1