From 435e6178b618c21b82b167560b8cba722dd22c2a Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: "M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake" Date: Thu, 19 May 2022 16:34:26 -0700 Subject: [PATCH] orienting ... MIME-Version: 1.0 Content-Type: text/plain; charset=utf8 Content-Transfer-Encoding: 8bit I haven't been very productive with my Thu–Sun weekends on my new work schedule, and I haven't even been productive for the first majority of this Thursday, but I'm turning the trend around—if I have an OK afternoon today, and a solid next three days, then I'll be on track for—saying the things I need to say before the world ends. I don't want my "A Hill" draft file to be too cluttered with notes and scraps; I think the way is to have TODO sections about the things I want to hit, and then—this is the hard part—buckle down to actually fill in those sections, instead of flinching away. --- ...-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md | 32 +--------------- notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md | 38 +++++++++++++++++++ 2 files changed, 39 insertions(+), 31 deletions(-) diff --git a/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md b/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md index a9e8768..e04de87 100644 --- a/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md +++ b/content/drafts/a-hill-of-validity-in-defense-of-meaning.md @@ -232,37 +232,7 @@ Gatekeeping sessions finished, I finally started HRT at the end of December 2016 ... the promise didn't take. There was just too much gender-identity nonsense on my Facebook wall; I _had_ to push back on some of it. -[TODO: at first I made some pushback comments on other people's posts; e.g., Robby's thread on 7 Feburary -Then it blossomed into an extended tantrum on my own wall— -31 posts total between—"some of you may have noticed" Sat 11 Feb, and promising to quite Facebook for a week 0844 15 Feburary - -my terrible date with Anna T. was actually on 12 February—that explains why I remember being so distracted! - -I had some self-awareness that I was going off the rails— -> She had a delusional mental breakdown; you're a little bit manic; I'm in the Avatar state. https://www.facebook.com/zmdavis/posts/10154813104220199 - -sent Anna T. Oops / Ooops / Cooperate 6x messages on Thu 16 Feb at around 1530 ... - - -Ziz: Vassar was talking about you recently approvingly, having read your facebook wall. Something about a war between being able to think and gaslighting. -Like he named you as one of three fronts the war is playing out on. Jack also seemed to agree. \"Sarah vs Ben, Rob vs Ben Todd, Zack Davis vs the world Thu Feb 16 2017 16:06:42 GMT-0800 - -I remember being afraid that the thing that happened to Eliezer and then Scott was going to happen to me, and that it would be bad; I told Ben, "I don't think I want to be the Avatar yet" Thu Feb 16 2017 15:51:32 - -to Ben: "I'm so sorry; I want to be part of the coalition but I'm so confused; and the fact that I was confused made me say Defect a bunch of time" Fri Feb 17 2017 14:23:53 - -to Ben: "I thought I got a message from Michael Vassar saying that the main coalitions were you, and Sarah Constantine, and Zack Davis vs. the world" Fri Feb 17 2017 14:30:55 GMT-0800 - -scared that Orion was going to kill me - -to Ben: You can use police cars as Ubers???? Fri Feb 17 2017 15:19:59 GMT-0800 - -/2017/Mar/fresh-princess/ -/2017/Jun/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-i-the-unanswerable-words/ - -] - - +[TODO: the story of my Facebook crusade, going off the rails, getting hospitalized] [TODO: one thing that kept coming up during the private and Facebook discussions was this category boundary argument—including, e.g., with MIRI comms director Rob Bensinger. That part, I knew I could win] diff --git a/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md b/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md index 451ab0e..8769549 100644 --- a/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md +++ b/notes/a-hill-of-validity-sections.md @@ -781,3 +781,41 @@ https://twitter.com/Kenku_Allaryi/status/1524646257976877057 Zvi claims the condescension is important information, which is why it's such a betrayal when he uses the condesension to score points https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/ax695frGJEzGxFBK4/biology-inspired-agi-timelines-the-trick-that-never-works?commentId=HB3BL3Sa6MxSszqdq + +Anna thinks that committees can't do anything worthwhile; for endeavors requiring a lot of coordination, it's useful for leaders to have slack to make decisions without having to justify themselves to a mob. Anna endorses Straussianism: writing for the few is different from writing for the many, and that some of Ben's stuff may have veered too far towards loading negative affect on EA leaders; I and my model of Michael have reservations about the extent to which \"writing for the few\" could also be described as \"colluding to deceive the rest of the world\ + +[TODO: at first I made some pushback comments on other people's posts; e.g., Robby's thread on 7 Feburary +Then it blossomed into an extended tantrum on my own wall— +31 posts total between—"some of you may have noticed" Sat 11 Feb, and promising to quite Facebook for a week 0844 15 Feburary + +my terrible date with Anna T. was actually on 12 February—that explains why I remember being so distracted! + + +an irony: in my psychosis, I was scared that the world was far less legible than I had imagined, but that _wasn't_ why my ordeal's and Devi's were so traumatic _at all_: the psych ward is _very much_ governed by legible rules, rules that I had no control over + + +I had some self-awareness that I was going off the rails— +> She had a delusional mental breakdown; you're a little bit manic; I'm in the Avatar state. https://www.facebook.com/zmdavis/posts/10154813104220199 + +sent Anna T. Oops / Ooops / Cooperate 6x messages on Thu 16 Feb at around 1530 ... + + +Ziz: Vassar was talking about you recently approvingly, having read your facebook wall. Something about a war between being able to think and gaslighting. +Like he named you as one of three fronts the war is playing out on. Jack also seemed to agree. \"Sarah vs Ben, Rob vs Ben Todd, Zack Davis vs the world Thu Feb 16 2017 16:06:42 GMT-0800 + +I remember being afraid that the thing that happened to Eliezer and then Scott was going to happen to me, and that it would be bad; I told Ben, "I don't think I want to be the Avatar yet" Thu Feb 16 2017 15:51:32 + +to Ben: "I'm so sorry; I want to be part of the coalition but I'm so confused; and the fact that I was confused made me say Defect a bunch of time" Fri Feb 17 2017 14:23:53 + +to Ben: "I thought I got a message from Michael Vassar saying that the main coalitions were you, and Sarah Constantine, and Zack Davis vs. the world" Fri Feb 17 2017 14:30:55 GMT-0800 + +scared that Orion was going to kill me + +to Ben: You can use police cars as Ubers???? Fri Feb 17 2017 15:19:59 GMT-0800 + +/2017/Mar/fresh-princess/ +/2017/Jun/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-i-the-unanswerable-words/ + +] + +You gave me hot chocolate last night, right? I was worried that you were subconsciously poisoning me; not on purpose, but because there are just a lot of contaminants in cities; things that taste sweet to children but are actually poisonous; but, Anna said that most events are normal; I don't remember that note" -- 2.17.1