From 64b8d89fbd76ce3c7cd6fb248df28bc77aa536b2 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: "M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake" Date: Sat, 19 Nov 2016 21:25:40 -0800 Subject: [PATCH] various edits, drafts --- content/drafts/blame-me-for-trying.md | 1 + ...nd-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossdreamer.md | 43 +++++++++++++++++++ content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea.md | 7 --- ...could-self-reports-really-be-that-wrong.md | 21 --------- content/drafts/estranged-family.md | 4 +- content/drafts/review-of-nevada.md | 9 ++++ ...ans-woman-is-a-transitioned-trans-woman.md | 14 ++++++ post_ideas.txt | 1 + 8 files changed, 70 insertions(+), 30 deletions(-) create mode 100644 content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossdreamer.md delete mode 100644 content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea.md delete mode 100644 content/drafts/could-self-reports-really-be-that-wrong.md create mode 100644 content/drafts/review-of-nevada.md create mode 100644 content/drafts/yes-the-only-real-trans-woman-is-a-transitioned-trans-woman.md diff --git a/content/drafts/blame-me-for-trying.md b/content/drafts/blame-me-for-trying.md index 3240374..d82737f 100644 --- a/content/drafts/blame-me-for-trying.md +++ b/content/drafts/blame-me-for-trying.md @@ -1,6 +1,7 @@ Title: Blame Me for Trying Date: 2017-01-02 5:00 Category: fiction +Tags: epistemic horror Status: draft Spambots were invariably among Eliza's last favorite clients. diff --git a/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossdreamer.md b/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossdreamer.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..08ec209 --- /dev/null +++ b/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea-and-the-plight-of-the-lucid-crossdreamer.md @@ -0,0 +1,43 @@ +Title: Blanchard's Dangerous Idea and the Plight of the Lucid Crossdreamer; Or, Could Self-Reports Really Be That Wrong?? +Date: 2020-10-01 05:00 +Category: commentary +Tags: autogynephilia +Status: draft + +"all gender dysphoric males who are not sexually oriented towards men are instead sexually oriented toward the thought or image of themselves as women" + +even if you weaken _all_ to _almost all_ (Anne Lawrence: "I am firmly convinced that the overwhelming majority—probably 98% or more—of cases of severe gender dysphoria in men arise in connection with either effeminate homosexuality or autogynephilia; most of the rare exceptions probably arise in connection with conditions such as schizophrenia and certain personality disorders"), or even _most_ + + +"Why, yes, of course my female gender identity is an outgrowth of my paraphilic erotic desire to have a woman's body—after all, that's one of the two and probably only two causal pathways along which male-to-female sex reassignment could possibly seem like a good idea to someone, and you can probably already tell from my appearance and behavior that I'm not one of the androphilic kind." + + + +How to account for people disagreeing? + +* ppl can have false beliefs about themselves, have to infer explanations for behavior (Julia Serano could not explain, picking the gift on the right) +* exact type of AGP and whether you remember it in childhood make a difference in how obvious the right answer is +* ppl have heard a strawman of the theory, not read "Becoming What We Love"; innoculated against smart version of theory + +type of dysphoria also matters + +two fictional case studies: one with childhood AGP and interpersonal fantasy, another like me (Ranma 1/2, transformation fantasies, sex differences denial, encountering AGP first) + +when they meet in Portland, they note their obvious similarities and know that they have to be the same type of thing (I'm actually trans, you're just AGP is not an option) + +So, when I encountered the word _autogynephilia_ ("love of oneself as a woman") at age 18, I immediately thought, _There's a word for it_, and was actually surprised that it was coined in a the context of a theory of the etiology of transsexuality, because I was a psychological sex differences denialist at the time () + +Just, you know, one of those guys who is pointedly insistent on not being _proud_ of the fact that they're guys, and who is romantically obsessed with fantasies about being a girl. + + + +Mark is like "You lying bastards!" and the first is like "You poor, soul, misled by the BBL lies" + +"That poor girl!" + +Mark looks at Katherine with a mixture of jealousy and contempt. "Wait. Wait a minute. So this _entire fucking time_, _actual trans women_ were really just _guys like me_ who were _less self-aware about it_, who had all the same happy erotic and romantic fantasies about being a girl, and then _took them literally_?! I didn't know you were allowed to take them literally! You bastards! You delusional bastards! You beautiful, lucky bastards who get all nice things I can't have, at the terrible cost of never being able to say _why_! I'm so upset about this that I feel motivated to start an entire pseudonymous blog dedicated to dismantling the shitty epistemology that led to this absurd situation!" + + +but the real takeaway is that everyone should be more skeptical of why they think they do what they do + + diff --git a/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea.md b/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea.md deleted file mode 100644 index 442df9a..0000000 --- a/content/drafts/blanchards-dangerous-idea.md +++ /dev/null @@ -1,7 +0,0 @@ -Title: Blanchard's Dangerous Idea and the Plight of the Lucid Crossdreamer -Date: 2016-09-04 5:00 -Category: commentary -Tags: autogynephilia -Status: draft - -Ray Blanchard proposed that there are two distinct etiologies for MtF transsexualism: the primary type are males who behave extremely effeminately from early childhood in a way that is obvious to everyone, grow up to be attracted to men, and transition in their late teens because they find it easier to fit into society as women than as super-femme gay men. The second type, more common in Western countries, were fairly typical as boys but after puberty somehow develop autogynephilia, a kind of misdirected ordinary heterosexuality in which in addition to wanting to get the girl, they want to, ah, be the girl. diff --git a/content/drafts/could-self-reports-really-be-that-wrong.md b/content/drafts/could-self-reports-really-be-that-wrong.md deleted file mode 100644 index 3b3029f..0000000 --- a/content/drafts/could-self-reports-really-be-that-wrong.md +++ /dev/null @@ -1,21 +0,0 @@ -Title: Could Self-Reports Really Be That Wrong?? -Date: 2020-10-01 05:00 -Category: commentary -Tags: autogynephilia -Status: draft - -How to account for people disagreeing? - -* ppl can have false beliefs about themselves, have to infer explanations for behavior (Julia Serano could not explain, picking the gift on the right) -* exact type of AGP and whether you remember it in childhood make a difference in how obvious the right answer is -* ppl have heard a strawman of the theory, not read "Becoming What We Love"; innoculated against smart version of theory - -type of dysphoria also matters - -two fictional case studies: one with childhood AGP and interpersonal fantasy, another like me (Ranma 1/2, transformation fantasies, sex differences denial, encountering AGP first) - -when they meet in Portland, they note their obvious similarities and know that they have to be the same type of thing (I'm actually trans, you're just AGP is not an option) - -Mark is like "You lying bastards!" and the first is like "You poor, soul, misled by the BBL lies" - -but the real takeaway is that everyone should be more skeptical of why they think they do what they do diff --git a/content/drafts/estranged-family.md b/content/drafts/estranged-family.md index 1e1b162..c0ce853 100644 --- a/content/drafts/estranged-family.md +++ b/content/drafts/estranged-family.md @@ -4,7 +4,7 @@ Category: fiction Tags: cathartic, autogynephilia Status: draft -"How was your trip?" +"How was your trip?" I ask. "_Ugh._ The hotel I was in was hosting a _furry_ convention. Who do those perverts think they are, parading around their fetish in public?" @@ -12,7 +12,7 @@ Status: draft "What?" -"You're a _lesbian trans woman_." +"Alexa, you're a _lesbian trans woman_." "So?" diff --git a/content/drafts/review-of-nevada.md b/content/drafts/review-of-nevada.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..abf6842 --- /dev/null +++ b/content/drafts/review-of-nevada.md @@ -0,0 +1,9 @@ +Title: Review of Nevada +Date: 2020-01-01 +Category: review +Tags: autogynephilia +Status: draft + +I don't understand why this book is so popular. + +I mean, I understand exactly why this book is so popular, but I'm not happy about it. diff --git a/content/drafts/yes-the-only-real-trans-woman-is-a-transitioned-trans-woman.md b/content/drafts/yes-the-only-real-trans-woman-is-a-transitioned-trans-woman.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..832506b --- /dev/null +++ b/content/drafts/yes-the-only-real-trans-woman-is-a-transitioned-trans-woman.md @@ -0,0 +1,14 @@ +Title: Yes, the Only Real Trans Woman Is a Transitioned Trans Woman +Date: 2020-01-01 +Category: commentary +Tags: discourse +Status: draft + +People who are concerned with social justice + + +straight white (er, white-passing?—I guess this pseudonym suggests the character to whom this blog should be imputed likely has recent Japanese ancestry, even if the physical human writing it doesn't necessarily) + +But when the designated victim group is _straight boys who wish they were girls_, then _I have standing_. Girl, do I have standing! And I will put an _end_ to this _toxic bullshit_. + +(critique of https://medium.com/@jencoates/i-am-a-transwoman-i-am-in-the-closet-i-am-not-coming-out-4c2dd1907e42#.5dlc2qog6) diff --git a/post_ideas.txt b/post_ideas.txt index c7995ef..84878b5 100644 --- a/post_ideas.txt +++ b/post_ideas.txt @@ -23,6 +23,7 @@ Bucketing (go through Wikipedia list of trans women, categorize everyone) Someone Has To Say It God, I hope it's just a coincidence that Steven Goldberg gets the fact/value thing right and everyone else gets it wrong horror story about trans activists being pro-porn, &c. indicating how aliens would analyze them as a subtype of males +Engineering possibilities (Anne Lawrence identitfy early) criticism— Yes, the Only Real Trans Woman Is a Transitioned Trans Woman (critique of https://medium.com/@jencoates/i-am-a-transwoman-i-am-in-the-closet-i-am-not-coming-out-4c2dd1907e42#.5dlc2qog6) -- 2.17.1