3 > _There's a heart that must be free
5 > That burns with the need to know
7 > Why must we all conceal
8 > What we think, how we feel?
9 > Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?_
11 > —"Reflection", _Mulan_ (as performed by Christina Aguilera)
13 > "My dear, let us hope it is not true; but, if it is true, let us hope it will not become generally known."
15 > —[probably apocryphal](http://quoteinvestigator.com/2011/02/09/darwinism-hope-pray/) reaction to Darwin's theory of natural selection
17 (This is Worth a Fight?)
18 > "—but if one hundred thousand straights can turn up, to show their support for the gay community, why can't you?"
20 > I said wearily, "Because every time I hear the word _community_, I know I'm being manipulated. If there is such a thing as _the gay community_, I'm certainly not a part of it. As it happens, I don't want to spend my life watching _gay and lesbian_ television channels, using _gay and lesbian_ new systems ... or going to _gay and lesbian_ street parades. It's all so ... proprietary. You'd think there was a multinational corporation who had the franchise rights on homosexuality. And if you don't _market the product_ their way, you're some kind of second-class, inferior, bootleg, unauthorized queer."
22 > —"Cocoon" by Greg Egan
24 > What is the most beautiful in virile men is something feminine; what is most beautiful in feminine women is something masculine.
28 > I knew the mass of men conceal'd
29 > Their thoughts, for fear that if reveal'd
30 > They would by other men be met
31 > With blank indifference, or with blame reprov'd;
32 > I knew they liv'd and mov'd
33 > Trick'd in disguises, alien to the rest
34 > Of men, and alien to themselves—and yet
35 > The same heart beats in every human breast!
37 > "The Buried Life" by Matthew Arnold
39 > All should be laid open to you without reserve, for there is not a truth existing which I fear, or would wish unknown to the whole world
43 > Ultimately every examined life can be interpreted as a disaster; looking closely enough we can always discover psychological and social forces that provide fuel for unlimited rage. [...] But no life can transcend its own disasters unless it celebrates its uniqueness and contributes that which only it can contribute. Life is perverted if one is constantly reacting, never initiating, but always allowing rage to define it.
45 > —Steven Goldberg, _Why Men Rule: A Theory of Male Dominance_
47 quote that _Blindsight_ passage about an evil god setting males and females against each other
51 (Simple Models Plus Noise Are Better ...)
52 > The study of psychology is a violation of my privacy.
54 > —[@InstanceOfClass](https://twitter.com/InstanceOfClass/status/296450595420778497)
56 (response to hate mail)
57 > And believe me I am still alive
58 > I'm doing science and I'm still alive
59 > I feel fantastic and I'm still alive
60 > While you're dying I'll be still alive
61 > And when you're dead I will be still alive
63 > —_Portal_ end credits song
65 (Collective Guilt, Collective Shame)
66 > "My taxon, right or wrong; if right, to be kept right; and if wrong, to be set right."
68 > —Carl Shurz (paraphrased)
70 (Blanchard's Dangerous Idea)
71 > If you could only know
74 > —[_Steven Universe_ extended theme](https://youtu.be/H23rpzOAIzQ?t=48s)
76 (sex differences are the right thing to deny)
77 > Some mommies are ranchers, or poetry makers
78 > Or doctors or teachers, or cleaners or bakers
79 > Some mommies drive taxis, or sing on TV
80 > Yeah, mommies can be almost anything they want to be!
82 > (Well, they can't be grandfathers
85 > —"Parents Are People", _Free to Be You and Me_
87 (The Gender Czar's Compromise)
88 > Should array indices start at 0 or 1? My compromise of 0.5 was rejected without, I thought, proper consideration.
92 (critiquing Julia Serano on trans being natural)
93 > Because it's going to be the future soon
94 > And I won't always be this way
95 > When the things that make me weak and strange
98 > —"The Future Soon" by Jonathan Coulton
100 (how long can the lie endure?? what happens when it all falls down?)
101 > It's time to put an end to this deception
103 > When the whole thing is at an end
104 > And you learn that it's just pretend
105 > You'll cry "Deception"
107 > —"Deception", _Jem_
109 > Ooh-bi-doo, I wanna be like you
110 > I want to walk like you, talk like you, too
111 > You see it's true, an ape like me
112 > Can learn to be like you, too
114 > —"I Wanna Be Like You", _The Jungle Book_
117 Moliere on "dormative virtue"
119 (Blanchard's Dangerous Idea)
121 > The man has only one look, for Christ's sake! Crossdresser, demigirl, trans woman? They're the _same people_!
123 > Doesn't anyone notice this? I feel like I'm taking crazy pills!
125 > —[_Zoolander_](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mbKBWtoH93Q) (paraphrased)
127 > Perhaps someday we [...] will be able to forthrightly acknowledge the paraphilic hand we were dealt and play that hand without equivocation or apology.
129 > —Anne Lawrence, _Men Trapped in Men's Bodies_
131 (The Hand I Was Dealt)
132 > Well this is the one that I had to write, it's like a
133 > A letter of love with no love left out
135 > —"Dying to Begin" by Stretch Princess
137 (The Hand I Was Dealt?)
138 > I'll write my way out
139 > Write everything down, far as I can see
140 > I'll write my way out
141 > Overwhelm them with honesty
142 > This is the eye of the hurricane
143 > This is the only way I can protect my legacy
145 > —"Hurricane", _Hamilton_
148 > The other side of me
149 > I'm just like anybody else, can't you tell
152 > The girl that I want you to know
153 > If only I could show
154 > The other side, the other side, the other side of me
156 > —"The Other Side of Me" by Hannah Montana
159 > I would be your girl
161 > —"The One That Got Away" by Katy Perry
163 > He once said, "None of the other Rationals I've ever met have anything but an empty-head for an Emotional. I'm lucky." She had said, "But the other Rationals seem to like empty-heads. Why are you different from them, Odeen?" Odeen did not deny that the other Rationals liked empty-heads. He just said, "I've never figured it out and I don't think it's important that I do. I'm pleased with you and I'm pleased that I'm pleased."
165 > —_The Gods Themselves_ by Isaac Asimov
169 Less obviously fitting—
171 > Knowing his occupation and observing him briefly and superficially were sufficient, together, for me to guess confidently about aspects of Edwin's life that he never mentioned. I know what he was like as a boy. I know what kind of person he is sexually attracted to. I know what kinds of activities interest him and what kinds do not. I am least sure what he will look like five years from now.
173 > —J. Michael Bailey, _The Man Who Would Be Queen: the Science of Gender-Bending and Transsexualism_, Preface
175 > I cannot believe my eyes
176 > How the world's filled with filth and lies
177 > But it's plain to see
181 > —"My Eyes", _Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog_
183 > "I will destroy you and steal your fiancé, booty booty booty booty rocking everywhere!"
185 > —[from](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AF2HCgzxMDA) _Friendship Is Witchcraft_, "Foaly Matripony"
187 > And there's a fine, fine line
188 > Between what you wanted
190 > You've got to go after the things you want
191 > While you're still in your prime
193 > —"There's a Fine, Fine Line", _Avenue Q_
195 > I know there's more that's out there
196 > And I just haven't found it yet
197 > I know there's more that's out there
198 > Another me I haven't met
200 > —"What More Is Out There", _My Little Pony Equestria Girls: Friendship Games_
202 > I don't give a damn about my reputation
203 > You're living in the past it's a new generation
204 > A girl can do what she wants to do
205 > And that's what I'm gonna do
207 > —"Bad Reputation" by Joan Jett
209 > "The Order of Silent Confessors exists in the hope that, so long as humanity is sane, it can make choices in accordance with its true desires. Thus there is our Order dedicated _only_ to that, and sworn not to interfere in politics. So you will spend more time discussing this scenario, my lords, my ladies, and only then generate solutions. And then ... you will decide."
211 > —[_Three Worlds Collide_](http://lesswrong.com/lw/y6/war_andor_peace_28/) by Eliezer Yudkowsky
213 > The realization blasted through Harry like a vast dam breaking, releasing out all its water, bursting through his mind in an irresistible flood that swept everything away.
215 > There is only one reality that generates all of the observations.
217 > If different observations seem to point in incompatible directions, it means the true hypothesis is one you haven't thought of yet.
219 > —_Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality_ by Eliezer Yudkowsky
221 > I don't want to sabotage you
222 > But you see, I've got to try
224 > —"I'll Fly", _My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic_
226 > Sometimes the things you want
227 > Are not the things you need
228 > And it was right there in front of me
230 > —"Right There in Front of Me", _My Little Pony Equestria Girls: Friendship Games_
232 http://www.orwell.ru/library/essays/politics/english/e_polit/
234 > Here's to those who love not too wisely, no, not too wisely, but too well
235 > To the girl who sighs with envy when she hears that wedding bell
236 > To the guy who'd throw a party if he knew someone to call
237 > Here's to the losers, bless them all
239 > —"Here's to the Losers"
241 > This book is about the female primates who have evolved over the last seventy million years. It is dedicated to the liberated woman who never evolved but with imagination, intelligence, an open mind, and perserverance many of us may yet become.
243 > —Sarah Blaffer Hrdy, dedication to _The Woman That Never Evolved_
245 > Given that females prefer to live with female relatives if they are going to live in groups at all, and given that the size and dispersion of these groups is determined by the interaction of food availability and predation risk, how should males map themselves onto the female distribution?
247 > Robin I. M. Dunbar, Primate Social Systems, Ch. 7, "Evolution of Grouping Patterns"
249 > "LMAO", says a member of the Community Team. A colleague approaches him and asks why he is laughing. "I just heard the funniest joke in the world!" "Well, go ahead, tell me!" says the other judge. "I can't–I just gave someone a code of conduct violation for it!"
251 > —old Soviet joke (paraphrased)
254 > If you think, then don't speak.
255 > If you think and speak, then don't write.
256 > If you think, speak, and write, then don't sign.
257 > If you think, speak, write, and sign, then don't be surprised.
261 https://xkcd.com/1942/
263 > A woman came up to me and said
264 > "I'd like to poison your mind
265 > With wrong ideas that appeal to you
266 > Though I am not unkind"
268 > —"Whistling in the Dark" by They Might Be Giants
270 > "The only thing standing in the way of my own progress," Sagreda said, "is that the forces that once dealt with us honestly have been buried too deep to reach. All I can touch now is the surface, which is shaped by nothing but whim."
272 > —["Bit Players"](https://subterraneanpress.com/magazine/winter_2014/bit_players_by_greg_egan) by Greg Egan
274 > Every asshole these days has a blog. Every asshole with a blog wants to “change the world.” But the great thing about being right is that, when the world catches on, you really can’t tell whether or not they heard it from you. The truth, being true, belongs to all.
276 > — https://www.unqualified-reservations.org/2010/11/ur-heard-it-here-first-files/
278 > Too long I've been afraid of
279 > Losing love I guess I've lost
280 > Well, if that's love
281 > It comes at much too high a cost!
283 (Kolmogorov's Iron Triangle)
284 > Go, Soul, the body’s guest,
285 > Upon a thankless arrant:
286 > Fear not to touch the best;
287 > The truth shall be thy warrant:
288 > Go, since I needs must die,
289 > And give the world the lie.
291 > Say to the court, it glows
292 > And shines like rotten wood;
293 > Say to the church, it shows
294 > What’s good, and doth no good:
295 > If church and court reply,
296 > Then give them both the lie.
298 > —["The Lie"](https://www.bartleby.com/40/48.html) by Sir Walter Raleigh
301 > Do not at the outset of your career make the all too common error of mistaking names for things. Names are only conventional signs for identifying things. Things are the reality that counts. If a thing is despised, either because of ignorance or because it is despicable, you will not alter matters by changing its name.
303 > —W. E. B. duBois (http://www.virginia.edu/woodson/courses/aas102%20%28spring%2001%29/articles/names/dubois.htm)
306 > "Any evolutionary advantage must come from a feature affecting our behavior. Thus, there is no evolutionary advantage to simply having a belief about our identity. Self-identity can matter and could have mattered only if it affects behavior, in which case it is really a _process_ of self-identification. Moreover, it is not a matter of affirming a self-identity that we possess. For a belief that needs to be affirmed is not a belief at all."
308 > Joseph M. Whitmeyer, "How Evolutionary Psychology Can Contribute to Group Process Research", in <em>The Oxford Handbook of Evolution, Biology, and Society</em>
311 > Stuck, in the middle of fear and shame
312 > Everybody's looking for someone to blame
313 > Like it's a game, like it's a game
315 > And now, I am better than win or lose
316 > There's a new direction that I like to choose
317 > It's called the truth, it's called the truth
321 > In general, our society less and less encourages looking sexually attractive to other people and more and more encourages acting out inner fantasies that are unattractive to others to make yourself even more of a victim of society.
323 > —[Steve Sailer](http://www.unz.com/isteve/the-woke-war-on-homosexuals/)
326 > Chasing down a daydream
331 > Things, the way they were
333 > —"I Can See the Light"
335 > Yet each generation seems to accept the craziness of the past generation, even when balking at the craziness of the new generation. We think that in the past, academia was on track, and that those who opposed progress were crazy, right-wing nut-jobs. But we dissidents think that this time, this new generation–well–they have gone too far and have gone crazy. There is a certain Cthulian horror when suddenly you realize that many of the nut-jobs in the past were actually right. Many were slandered retroactively, not because they were wrong, or evil, not because they made bad predictions, but because they lost and the winners wrote the histories. There is a horror in realizing that you are just like them, this cycle has played out before, and that your children’s generation will see you as the nut-job.
337 > —[Devin Helton](https://devinhelton.com/historical-amnesia.html)
339 [Dagny talking to Wyatt and being in pain that he thinks she's one of the moochers]
341 [You must say it, because it is true]
343 > A similar definition of intelligence was expressed by Aquinas as "the ability to combine and separate"—the ability to see the difference between things that seem similar and to see the similarities betweeen things which seem different.
345 > —Arthur R. Jensen, "How Much Can We Boost IQ and Scholastic Achievement?"