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3 days agomemoir tap master
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 3 Oct 2022 00:41:14 +0000 (17:41 -0700)]
memoir tap

4 days agomemoir: defeat, should have known, bot therapy
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 2 Oct 2022 22:05:15 +0000 (15:05 -0700)]
memoir: defeat, should have known, bot therapy

4 days agomemoir: Category War initial defeat
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 2 Oct 2022 19:33:20 +0000 (12:33 -0700)]
memoir: Category War initial defeat

4 days agomemoir: skeleton prep for Category War initial defeat §
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 2 Oct 2022 18:13:19 +0000 (11:13 -0700)]
memoir: skeleton prep for Category War initial defeat §

4 days agomemoir check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 2 Oct 2022 02:59:32 +0000 (19:59 -0700)]
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4 days agomemoir: trans kids on the margin
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 2 Oct 2022 00:33:21 +0000 (17:33 -0700)]
memoir: trans kids on the margin

This is going to need some editing and is definitely subject to prior
constraint. But I think it's much stronger to have this part, rather
than to say "not my story to tell" and move on without a hint.

5 days agomemoir: trans kids in historical context
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 1 Oct 2022 18:57:51 +0000 (11:57 -0700)]
memoir: trans kids in historical context

5 days agocheck in
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5 days agomemoir: building up to my private Document
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 1 Oct 2022 01:21:00 +0000 (18:21 -0700)]
memoir: building up to my private Document

5 days agocheck in, incl. walrus tap and deleting a stale draft
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 30 Sep 2022 23:33:03 +0000 (16:33 -0700)]
check in, incl. walrus tap and deleting a stale draft

The "Abridged Guide" draft, based on a January 2019 email, is
superceded by the § in "Hill" built off of the same email.

5 days agogo back to "Beyond the Binary" title
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 30 Sep 2022 23:26:02 +0000 (16:26 -0700)]
go back to "Beyond the Binary" title

"Subspatial Distribution Overlap and Cancelable Stereotypes" is just—
a really bad, boring title. This is more fun and memorable.

6 days agomemoir poke (egregore doesn't care about the past, adversarial norms)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 30 Sep 2022 22:26:26 +0000 (15:26 -0700)]
memoir poke (egregore doesn't care about the past, adversarial norms)

I am not having a great Friday. But it's only half past fifteen;
there's still time to step it into gear! It's not—over.

6 days agomemoir poking and shoveling; incl. "out of patience" email excerpt
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 30 Sep 2022 19:00:48 +0000 (12:00 -0700)]
memoir poking and shoveling; incl. "out of patience" email excerpt

6 days agocheck in
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6 days agomemoir: poke at April 2019
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 29 Sep 2022 23:56:34 +0000 (16:56 -0700)]
memoir: poke at April 2019

7 days agocheck in
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10 days agopublish "Friendship Practices"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 26 Sep 2022 06:20:19 +0000 (23:20 -0700)]
publish "Friendship Practices"

10 days agocheck in
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10 days agomemoir: "Gonna Get Over You"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 26 Sep 2022 04:17:06 +0000 (21:17 -0700)]
memoir: "Gonna Get Over You"

10 days agomemoir: MIRIcult, SRS roulette
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 26 Sep 2022 01:04:11 +0000 (18:04 -0700)]
memoir: MIRIcult, SRS roulette

10 days agomemoir: fill more details—second outreach attempt; meet with Ziz & Gwen
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 26 Sep 2022 00:02:14 +0000 (17:02 -0700)]
memoir: fill more details—second outreach attempt; meet with Ziz & Gwen

12 days agocheck in
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13 days agocheck in
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2 weeks agomemoir: considering another ridiculous digression about privacy
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 19 Sep 2022 05:58:21 +0000 (22:58 -0700)]
memoir: considering another ridiculous digression about privacy

2 weeks agocheck in
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2 weeks agomemoir: motive to deal reputational damage; Scott gets a pass
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 19 Sep 2022 01:06:57 +0000 (18:06 -0700)]
memoir: motive to deal reputational damage; Scott gets a pass

2 weeks agomemoir: a ridiculous digression about adherence to privacy norms
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 19 Sep 2022 00:42:32 +0000 (17:42 -0700)]
memoir: a ridiculous digression about adherence to privacy norms

2 weeks agomemoir: edit pass on beginning of pt. 3
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 18 Sep 2022 20:24:27 +0000 (13:24 -0700)]
memoir: edit pass on beginning of pt. 3

This may have been suboptimal task ordering (it would be weird if I
ended up getting tired and shoving something out the door in 2023
where the beginning was tightly optimized from me having started an
edit pass "from the top" so many times, but the middle was a rough
mess), but that's not important; sustained engagement with the ms. is
our limiting resource and is approximately always a good thing.

2 weeks agocheck in
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2 weeks agoJavaScript conditionals require parens as part of the grammar
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 18 Sep 2022 01:06:30 +0000 (18:06 -0700)]
JavaScript conditionals require parens as part of the grammar

Maybe correctly remembering JavaScript syntax will help me feel less
gross.

2 weeks agospecial-case zero for comment count
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 18 Sep 2022 01:05:16 +0000 (18:05 -0700)]
special-case zero for comment count

Maybe tweaking some JavaScript will help me feel less gross.

2 weeks agoshove "The Signaling Hazard Objection" out the door
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 18 Sep 2022 01:00:33 +0000 (18:00 -0700)]
shove "The Signaling Hazard Objection" out the door

What if publishing a post from my buffer makes me feel less gross?

2 weeks agocheck in while feeling gross
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 18 Sep 2022 00:52:43 +0000 (17:52 -0700)]
check in while feeling gross

I'm not having a good day today—relaxing and pursuing pleasure isn't
actually fulfilling when it's an excuse for not being brave enough to
write; I had thought of slapping together this auto-auto erotica tools
filler post (there are some Stable Diffusion images to go with it)
with some of my spare free energy (in parallel with memoiring), but
now I'm feeling so disgusted and weak that I don't think I believe in
spare energy—maybe I'll pick it up again in a moment where I don't
feel gross and believe in free energy.

2 weeks agocheck in
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2 weeks agomemoir: a battle between Feelings and Truth
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 17 Sep 2022 00:59:04 +0000 (17:59 -0700)]
memoir: a battle between Feelings and Truth

2 weeks agomemoir: finish draft § on "tossed in a Bucket" ambiguity
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 16 Sep 2022 21:15:57 +0000 (14:15 -0700)]
memoir: finish draft § on "tossed in a Bucket" ambiguity

3 weeks agomemoir: gamete size obfuscation
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 15 Sep 2022 22:31:58 +0000 (15:31 -0700)]
memoir: gamete size obfuscation

3 weeks agomemoir section reorder shoveling
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 15 Sep 2022 18:47:44 +0000 (11:47 -0700)]
memoir section reorder shoveling

I think my discussion of the bucket metaphor belongs chronologically
while I'm addressing the Feb. 2021 pronouns post, then we can
transition from that to the discussion of bad faith.

3 weeks agoedits to "filler" (?) posts
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 15 Sep 2022 17:57:52 +0000 (10:57 -0700)]
edits to "filler" (?) posts

"Friendship Practices" isn't "filler"! What I mean is, this
isn't where my mind should be now.

I think just cutting the "frustrating" topic sentence does a lot
to hide the ball.

3 weeks agocheck in
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3 weeks agomemoir: quick note on the optimization lens?!
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 12 Sep 2022 01:50:57 +0000 (18:50 -0700)]
memoir: quick note on the optimization lens?!

3 weeks agomemoir: "Doublethink (Choosing to be Biased)"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 12 Sep 2022 01:36:58 +0000 (18:36 -0700)]
memoir: "Doublethink (Choosing to be Biased)"

3 weeks agomemoir check in
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3 weeks agomemoir: novices like me and Michelle Alleva ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 11 Sep 2022 01:51:26 +0000 (18:51 -0700)]
memoir: novices like me and Michelle Alleva ...

3 weeks agomemoir: not liking to be tossed into a Student Bucket
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 10 Sep 2022 23:41:29 +0000 (16:41 -0700)]
memoir: not liking to be tossed into a Student Bucket

We should probably try to cut some words in editing, but this is OK
draft material, and I think I'm seeing the transition sentences to
string the parts together.

Perhaps another draft pass should play up the analogy between student
dysphoria and gender dysphoria: I can't expect people to have read the
link.

3 weeks agomemoir: internet-enabled references, next waypoints
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 10 Sep 2022 18:52:34 +0000 (11:52 -0700)]
memoir: internet-enabled references, next waypoints

3 weeks agocheck in
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4 weeks agomemoir: beating on the hair surgery example
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 6 Sep 2022 05:44:34 +0000 (22:44 -0700)]
memoir: beating on the hair surgery example

4 weeks agomemoir: hair surgery does not propogate backwards in time
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 6 Sep 2022 01:27:59 +0000 (18:27 -0700)]
memoir: hair surgery does not propogate backwards in time

4 weeks agomemoir: bitter ending?
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 5 Sep 2022 20:31:04 +0000 (13:31 -0700)]
memoir: bitter ending?

I probably shouldn't actually end this on such a spiteful note. (I'm
trying to communicate a lot of complicated things, not just "Yudkowsky
Bad".)

4 weeks agomemoir check in
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4 weeks agomemoir: not doubting how the algorithm feels
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 5 Sep 2022 01:26:04 +0000 (18:26 -0700)]
memoir: not doubting how the algorithm feels

4 weeks agocheck in
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4 weeks agodraft: "The Signaling Hazard Objection"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 4 Sep 2022 19:56:44 +0000 (12:56 -0700)]
draft: "The Signaling Hazard Objection"

4 weeks agomemoir check in
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4 weeks agomemoir: Abram Demski on wireheading
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 4 Sep 2022 02:09:55 +0000 (19:09 -0700)]
memoir: Abram Demski on wireheading

4 weeks agomemoir: poking
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 3 Sep 2022 23:17:10 +0000 (16:17 -0700)]
memoir: poking

4 weeks agomemoir: victim of systemic abuse
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 3 Sep 2022 20:21:05 +0000 (13:21 -0700)]
memoir: victim of systemic abuse

Could probably cut some more words here? But that's for the editing
phase; we still have so much further to go to a completed ms. ...

4 weeks agomemoir: poke and fold
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 3 Sep 2022 19:22:20 +0000 (12:22 -0700)]
memoir: poke and fold

4 weeks agomemoir: memoir reluctance, some 2019 outline clarity
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 3 Sep 2022 18:34:22 +0000 (11:34 -0700)]
memoir: memoir reluctance, some 2019 outline clarity

4 weeks agomemoir: shovel reply to Xu into main ms.; section TODO queue
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 3 Sep 2022 02:59:52 +0000 (19:59 -0700)]
memoir: shovel reply to Xu into main ms.; section TODO queue

I think designating sections that look "easy" (easier, less
impossible) to get started on (rather than writing contiguously
top-to-bottom) is OK and I've done it before.

Does it make sense to write "easy" sections first, instead of saving
them as a treat? You tell me.

4 weeks agomemoir: the making of "... Boundaries?" behind the scenes
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 3 Sep 2022 01:12:38 +0000 (18:12 -0700)]
memoir: the making of "... Boundaries?" behind the scenes

4 weeks agomemoir: edits
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 2 Sep 2022 17:21:01 +0000 (10:21 -0700)]
memoir: edits

4 weeks agocheck in
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The next three days are going to be a retreat. I'm going to be alive
again.

5 weeks agocheck in
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5 weeks agomemoir: replying to David Xu
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 28 Aug 2022 20:18:41 +0000 (13:18 -0700)]
memoir: replying to David Xu

5 weeks agomemoir: beginning to explain "... Boundaries?"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 28 Aug 2022 18:35:43 +0000 (11:35 -0700)]
memoir: beginning to explain "... Boundaries?"

5 weeks agomemoir: how to organize ending?
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 28 Aug 2022 01:20:11 +0000 (18:20 -0700)]
memoir: how to organize ending?

5 weeks agomemoir: "Challenges" coda § edit pass
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 27 Aug 2022 23:59:31 +0000 (16:59 -0700)]
memoir: "Challenges" coda § edit pass

5 weeks agomemoir: building towards "... Boundaries?"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 27 Aug 2022 22:20:55 +0000 (15:20 -0700)]
memoir: building towards "... Boundaries?"

5 weeks agomemoir: defend/alter the beacon, enter Jessica, misc. edits
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 27 Aug 2022 19:35:31 +0000 (12:35 -0700)]
memoir: defend/alter the beacon, enter Jessica, misc. edits

5 weeks agomemoir insertions: Norton lied to, Stadler lies, cis women too
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 27 Aug 2022 17:17:07 +0000 (10:17 -0700)]
memoir insertions: Norton lied to, Stadler lies, cis women too

5 weeks agomemoir: wrapping up with Scott
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 27 Aug 2022 02:46:19 +0000 (19:46 -0700)]
memoir: wrapping up with Scott

5 weeks agomemoir: the story about Melkor's orcs
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 27 Aug 2022 01:21:23 +0000 (18:21 -0700)]
memoir: the story about Melkor's orcs

5 weeks agomemoir: finish proton "concession" §
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 27 Aug 2022 00:29:32 +0000 (17:29 -0700)]
memoir: finish proton "concession" §

5 weeks agocheck in
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5 weeks agograb some quotes using internet access
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 26 Aug 2022 06:45:19 +0000 (23:45 -0700)]
grab some quotes using internet access

I was sad and lazy today. I think I can turn it around tomorrow.

5 weeks agocheck in
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6 weeks agomemoir: aborting Michael's intervention, proton concession
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 22 Aug 2022 01:12:14 +0000 (18:12 -0700)]
memoir: aborting Michael's intervention, proton concession

6 weeks agomemoir: March–early April 2017 email review
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 21 Aug 2022 20:04:29 +0000 (13:04 -0700)]
memoir: March–early April 2017 email review

The email review notefile has been helpful for pt. 3 (working title "A
Hill ..."); let's do it for pt. 2 (working title "Blanchard's
Dangerous Idea ...") as well. Most of these emails are boring until we
get to the psych ward incident, which I don't feel like reading in
full detail ...

6 weeks agomemoir: some reading/editing in late 2018 region ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 21 Aug 2022 19:00:19 +0000 (12:00 -0700)]
memoir: some reading/editing in late 2018 region ...

Reading existing prose and making a few tweaks isn't the most
productive possible motion (it definitely needs to be done at the end,
but it doesn't obviously need to be done now, with so many gaps in the
ms.), but it is motion. Fire and motion!

6 weeks agomemoir: fold in Emperor Norton example
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 21 Aug 2022 02:07:21 +0000 (19:07 -0700)]
memoir: fold in Emperor Norton example

I've regretted not thinking to include the Rutherford B. Hayes quip in
the original "... To Make Predictions" and had considered back-editing
it in. But it fits here.

6 weeks agomemoir: more shoveling
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 21 Aug 2022 00:05:30 +0000 (17:05 -0700)]
memoir: more shoveling

I think I have enough of an idea of where these blocks of text should
live, that I can drop them into the ms. proper and continue to sculpt
and rearrange them there, rather than them being strewn through the
unreadable mess of the scrapfile.

The ms. proper having a larger wordcount than the "sections" scrapfile
seems like a significant milestone? But still so much further to go.

6 weeks agomemoir: shovel pronouns coda into ms.
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 20 Aug 2022 23:29:26 +0000 (16:29 -0700)]
memoir: shovel pronouns coda into ms.

6 weeks agoa few copy edits to "Friendship Practices"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 20 Aug 2022 23:13:28 +0000 (16:13 -0700)]
a few copy edits to "Friendship Practices"

6 weeks agomemoir: treachery, faith, and the great river §
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 20 Aug 2022 23:12:14 +0000 (16:12 -0700)]
memoir: treachery, faith, and the great river §

6 weeks agomemoir: tapping at sections ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 20 Aug 2022 20:12:10 +0000 (13:12 -0700)]
memoir: tapping at sections ...

6 weeks agocheck in
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6 weeks agocomplete draft of "Friendship Practices"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 20 Aug 2022 04:44:40 +0000 (21:44 -0700)]
complete draft of "Friendship Practices"

People really don't do things! I literally had this idea at least six
years ago, and I'm only now finishing the draft, which is ... less
than 1000 words. It shouldn't take more than two days to write 1000
words. How many day-equivalents did I spend doing less valuable things
for those six years?

6 weeks agocheck in
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6 weeks agomemoir: poke at outline and prose ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 19 Aug 2022 19:25:33 +0000 (12:25 -0700)]
memoir: poke at outline and prose ...

I probably have enough outlining? What I actually need to do with
large blocks of time is to honestly pick a TODO section (it could be
small, it could be out of order, but it has to be a specific section
with a specific subgoal) and start filling it in with actual
sentences. That's the only way to move forward; everything else is
lying.

6 weeks agomemoir: next pipeline step—revise roughy outline notes from email notes
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 19 Aug 2022 18:53:09 +0000 (11:53 -0700)]
memoir: next pipeline step—revise roughy outline notes from email notes

6 weeks agocheck in ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 19 Aug 2022 18:27:18 +0000 (11:27 -0700)]
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6 weeks agomemoir: finish email review
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 19 Aug 2022 00:21:39 +0000 (17:21 -0700)]
memoir: finish email review

Review of Sept. 2020 to present went faster because not much happened.

Having gone through the whole email history is useful, because it
gives me the complete temporal skeleton of what happened when to build
the ms. on—and because, now I don't have "I can do more email review
now" as an excuse to procrastinate the hard work of actually writing
prose.

7 weeks agocheck in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 18 Aug 2022 21:07:14 +0000 (14:07 -0700)]
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7 weeks agomemoir: on defending against "alt-right" categorization
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 14 Aug 2022 22:40:12 +0000 (15:40 -0700)]
memoir: on defending against "alt-right" categorization

7 weeks agomemoir: Anna–Michael feud
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 14 Aug 2022 21:05:26 +0000 (14:05 -0700)]
memoir: Anna–Michael feud

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7 weeks agomemoir: email review up to September 2020
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 14 Aug 2022 06:12:10 +0000 (23:12 -0700)]
memoir: email review up to September 2020