+And I was like, I agree that I was unreasonably emotionally attached to that particular bird, which is the direct cause of why I-in-particular am freaking out, but that's not why I expect _you_ to care. The problem is not the dead bird; the problem is what the bird is _evidence_ of: if you're doing systematically correct reasoning, you should be able to get the right answer even when the question _doesn't matter_. (The causal graph is the fork "canary-death ← mine-gas → human-danger" rather than the direct link "canary-death → human-danger".) Ben and Michael and Jessica claim to have spotted their own dead canaries. I feel like the old-timer Rationality Elders should be able to get on the same page about the canary-count issue?
+
+Math and Wellness Month ended up being mostly a failure: the only math I ended up learning was [a fragment of group theory](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2019/05/group-theory-for-wellness-i/), and [some information theory](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2019/05/the-typical-set/) that [actually turned out to super-relevant to understanding sex differences](/2021/May/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems/#typical-point). So much for taking a break.
+
+[TODO:
+ * I had posted a linkpost to "No, it's not The Incentives—it's You", which generated a lot of discussion, and Jessica (17 June) identified Ray's comments as the last straw.
+
+> LessWrong.com is a place where, if the value of truth conflicts with the value of protecting elites' feelings and covering their asses, the second value will win.
+>
+> Trying to get LessWrong.com to adopt high-integrity norms is going to fail, hard, without a _lot_ of conflict. (Enforcing high-integrity norms is like violence; if it doesn't work, you're not doing enough of it).
+
+ * posting on Less Wrong was harm-reduction; the only way to get people to stick up for truth would be to convert them to _a whole new worldview_; Jessica proposed the idea of a new discussion forum
+ * Ben thought that trying to discuss with the other mods would be a good intermediate step, after we clarified to ourselves what was going on; talking to other mods might be "good practice in the same way that the Eliezer initiative was good practice"; Ben is less optimistic about harm reduction; "Drowning Children Are Rare" was barely net-upvoted, and participating was endorsing the karma and curation systems
+ * David Xu's comment on "The Incentives" seems important?
+ * secret posse member: Ray's attitude on "Is being good costly?"
+ * Jessica: scortched-earth campaign should mostly be in meatspace social reality
+ * my comment on emotive conjugation (https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/qaYeQnSYotCHQcPh8/drowning-children-are-rare#GaoyhEbzPJvv6sfZX)
+
+> I'm also not sure if I'm sufficiently clued in to what Ben and Jessica are modeling as Blight, a coherent problem, as opposed to two or six individual incidents that seem really egregious in a vaguely similar way that seems like it would have been less likely in 2009??
+
+ * _Atlas Shrugged_ Bill Brent vs. Dave Mitchum scene
+ * Vassar: "Literally nothing Ben is doing is as aggressive as the basic 101 pitch for EA."
+ * Ben: we should be creating clarity about "position X is not a strawman within the group", rather than trying to scapegoat individuals
+ * my scuffle with Ruby on "Causal vs. Social Reality"
+ * it gets worse: https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/xqAnKW46FqzPLnGmH/causal-reality-vs-social-reality#NbrPdyBFPi4hj5zQW
+ * Ben's comment: "Wow, he's really overtly arguing that people should lie to him to protect his feelings."
+ * Jessica: "tone arguments are always about privileged people protecting their feelings, and are thus in bad faith. Therefore, engaging with a tone argument as if it's in good faith is a fool's game, like playing chess with a pigeon. Either don't engage, or seek to embarrass them intentionally."
+ * there's no point at being mad at MOPs
+ * me (1 Jul): I'm a _little bit_ mad, because I specialize in cognitive and discourse strategies that are _extremely susceptible_ to being trolled like this
+ * "collaborative truth seeking" but (as Michael pointed out) politeness looks nothing like Aumann agreement
+ * 2 Jul: Jessica is surprised by how well "Self-consciousness wants to make everything about itself" worked; theory about people not wanting to be held to standards that others aren't being held to
+ * Michael: Jessica's example made it clear she was on the side of social justice
+ * secret posse member: level of social-justice talk makes me not want to interact with this post in any way
+]
+
+[TODO: https://slatestarcodex.com/2019/07/04/some-clarifications-on-rationalist-blogging/]
+
+[TODO: "AI Timelines Scam"
+ * I still sympathize with the "mainstream" pushback against the scam/fraud/&c. language being used to include Elephant-in-the-Brain-like distortions
+ * Ben: "What exactly is a scam, if it's not misinforming people systematically about what you have to offer, in a direction that moves resources towards you? Investigations of financial fraud don't inquire as to the conscious motives of the perp."
+ * 11 Jul: I think the law does count _mens rea_ as a thing: we do discriminate between vehicular manslaughter and first-degree murder, because traffic accidents are less disincentivizable than offing one's enemies
+ * call with Michael about GiveWell vs. the Pope
+]
+
+[TODO: secret thread with Ruby; "uh, guys??" to Steven and Anna; people say "Yes, of course criticism and truthseeking is important; I just think that tact is important, too," only to go on and dismiss any _particular_ criticism as insufficiently tactful.]
+
+[TODO: "progress towards discussing the real thing"
+ * Jessica acks Ray's point of "why are you using court language if you don't intend to blame/punish"
+ * Michael 20 Jul: court language is our way of saying non-engagement isn't an option
+ * Michael: we need to get better at using SJW blamey language
+ * secret posse member: that's you-have-become-the-abyss terrifying suggestion
+ * Ben thinks SJW blame is obviously good
+]
+
+[TODO: epistemic defense meeting;
+ * I ended up crying at one point and left the room for while
+ * Jessica's summary: "Zack was a helpful emotionally expressive and articulate victim. It seemed like there was consensus that "yeah, it would be better if people like Zack could be warned somehow that LW isn't doing the general sanity-maximization thing anymore"."
+ * Vaniver admitting LW is more of a recruiting funnel for MIRI
+ * I needed to exhaust all possible avenues of appeal before it became real to me; the first morning where "rationalists ... them" felt more natural than "rationalists ... us"
+]
+
+
+[TODO: Michael Vassar and the theory of optimal gossip; make sure to include the part about Michael threatening to sue]
+
+[TODO: transition about still having trouble with memoir? double-check Git log to make sure this is right chronologically]