+Straight men who fantasize about being women do not particularly resemble actual women! We just—don't? This seems kind of obvious, really? _Telling the difference between fantasy and reality_ is kind of an important life skill?! Notwithstanding that some males might want to make use of medical interventions like surgery and hormone replacement therapy to become facsimiles of women as far as our existing technology can manage, and that a free and enlightened transhumanist Society should support that as an option—and notwithstanding that _she_ is obviously the correct pronoun for people who _look_ like women—it's probably going to be harder for people to figure out what the optimal decisions are if no one is ever allowed to use language like "actual women" that clearly distinguishes the original thing from imperfect facsimiles?!
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+I think most people in roughly my situation (of haboring these gender-feelings for many years, but thinking that it's obviously not the same thing as being Actually Trans, only to later discover that it's _not_ obviously not the same thing) tend to conclude that they were Actually Trans all along—and sometimes express intense bitterness at Ray Blanchard and all the other cultural forces that let them ever doubt.
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+I ... went the other direction. In slogan form: "Holy shit, _almost no one_ is Actually Trans!"
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+Okay, that slogan isn't right. Again, I'm a transhumanist. I believe in morphological freedom! If someone wants to change sex, that's a totally valid desire that Society should try to accomodate as much as feasible given currently-existing technology! In that sense, anyone can [_choose_ to](https://thingofthings.wordpress.com/2016/04/11/1327/) become trans.
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+The _problem_ is that the public narrative doesn't seem to be _about_ making a principled case for morphological freedom. Instead, we're told that everyone has an internal sense of their own gender, which for some people does not match their assigned sex at birth. Okay, but what the fuck does that _mean_? Are the things about me that I previously attributed to autogynephilia actually an internal sense of my own gender, or did I [get it right the first time](http://unremediatedgender.space/2017/Feb/a-beacon-through-the-darkness-or-getting-it-right-the-first-time/), and how could I tell? No one seems interested in clarifying!
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+[I believe that Ziz isn't AGP https://sinceriously.fyi/intersex-brains-and-conceptual-warfare/ ]
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+[TODO: September 2016: I start my "secret" blog under a pen name]
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+[TODO: October 2016: I wrote Eliezer to ask about the conflict with "Changing Emotions" and made a Cheerful Price offer to talk about it https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/MzKKi7niyEqkBPnyu/your-cheerful-price (shut up, we're not a cult) ]
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+[it was around this time I snuck a copy of _Men Trapped in Men's Bodies: Narratives of Autogynephilic Transsexualism_ into the [MIRI](https://intelligence.org/) office library. (It seemed like something Harry Potter-Evans-Verres would do—and ominously, I noticed, not like something Hermione Granger would do.)]
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+[TODO: early 2017, eventually I start being louder on Facebook and eventually have a nervous breakdown]
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+[TODO: one thing that kept coming up during the private and Facebook discussions was this category boundary argument—including, e.g., with MIRI comms director Rob Bensinger. That part, I knew I could win]
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+[TODO: so when I quit my job in order to write (mention HRT experiment too), the capstone of my sabbatical was to be "The Categories Were Made for Man to Make Predictions", which I later followed up with the "Reply on Adult Human Females" ... and mostly, things were fine—I was disappointed with my impact, but it wasn't grounds to declare the whole community a fraud]
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+[TODO: I was at the company offsite browsing Twitter (which I had recently joined with fantasies of self-cancelling) when I saw the "Hill of Validity in Defense of Meaning", and I _flipped the fuck out_]
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+[TODO: getting support from Michael + Ben + Sarah, harrassing Scott and Eliezer]
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+[TODO: proton concession]
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+[TODO: "Blegg Mode", "Where to Draw the Boundaries?", and failure]
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+[TODO: more blogging (https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/5aqumaym7Jd2qhDcy/containment-thread-on-the-motivation-and-political-context), 2019 Christmas party, disclaimer on "Categories Were Made"]
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+[TODO: categories clarification from EY—victory?!]
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+[TODO: "simplest and best" pronoun proposal, sometimes personally prudent]
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+[TODO: why you should care; no one should like Scott and Eliezer's proposals; knowledge should go forward, not back]