+[TODO: apophenia, Vassar discourse III
+
+ * Apophenic numerology: in retrospect, I agree with my "useless garbage (lots of probabilities are ~30%)"
+
+ * Disagreeing with Michael about violence terminology
+ * Michael writes to me about sleep
+
+> As I recall, at the time, I was thinking that people may know far less or far more than I might have previously assumed by taking their verbal behavior literally with respect to what I think words mean: people have to gently test each other before really being able to speak the horrible truth that might break someone's self-narrative (thereby destroying their current personality and driving them insane, or provoking violence). I thought that you and Anna might be representatives of the "next level" of scientists guarding the human utility function by trying to produce epistemic technology within our totalitarian-state simulation world, and that I was "waking up" into that level by decoding messages (_e.g._, from the Mike Judge films that you recommended) and inferring things that most humans couldn't.
+
+Michael replied:
+
+> What you were thinking is about right I think. But we still know that animals sleep.
+
+ * "Social reality may be crazy (hospitals are part of the state insofar as they serve the function of social-control in the service of stationary bandits, rather than actually being about trying to heal people), but I should still put a lot more weight on social reality (nice people are just doing their jobs trying to help) when the alternative is my intuition about the machines trying to kill me."
+ * "I certainly put a lot less weight on 'nice people doing their jobs' [...]"
+ * "Sure, I guess I meant that the "Machines trying to kill me" framing is scary, and"
+ * Okay, maybe confusing and hurting the feelings of the nice people doing their jobs is actually acceptable collateral damage ...
+
+]
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+[TODO: ordering DIY hormones, and ordering on Alice Monday's behalf
+ * As part of my distrust for institutions, it made sense to get some DIY hormones, rather than solely being dependent on the legitimate system: I ordered a pack of Progynova - 1 mg (Estradiol) and a pack of ALDACTONE - 25mg (Spironolactone) for myself from AllDayChemist
+ * found out about it from Alice Monday, a young trans woman who wasn't very nice
+ * Alice said something about how every once in a while, someone runs off with the payments database
+ * on 31 March, I ordered some more (5 packs E, 2 packs Spiro) for Alice
+]
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