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+* I haven't been doing so well, and I need to tell the story for my own sanity
+* I spent my entire adult life in "rationality", and I actually believed
+* In 2016, it was a huge shock to realize that I could be trans, too (I thought AGP was a different thing), and making this less confusing for other people seemed in line with the rationality mission
+* slowly waking up from sex-differences denialim through LessWrong
+* It was pretty traumatizing when it turned out not to be!
+* But I notice people kept brining up this "Categories are arbitrary, therefore it's not wrong to insist that TWAW", and that's _definitely_ wrong; that, I knew I could win
+* But then Eliezer did it, too, and I _flipped the fuck out_, and set out on a mission to try to get this shit settled in public
+* Theory of jurisprudence, standing, rudeness; Outside View of bad-faith nitpickers
+* When email didn't work (details redacted), I thought, "Oh, it's probably because of the politics", so I wrote up the completely general version with examples about dolphins and job titles and Mullerian mimickry in snakes
+* And this is _still_ being perceived as too political, even though everyone else shot first?!?!
+* And I can't object without looking
+* What I think is going on. People want to say on the good size of the Blue Egregore, and that means they can't even defend the _basics_ if there's _any_ political context, or even the context of a _person_ with political cooties
+* I don't know what the optimal play is ("pretend that political constraints don't exist" might not actually work in the real world), but this is pretty bad for our collective sanity, and my mental health, and I wish we could at least try to deal with it on the meta level
+* I'm politically constrained, too: I don't talk about race differences even though I believe them (link to apophasis/hypocritical humor)
+* conscious, deliberate dishonesty/cageiness is better than the egregore piloting your moves without you knowing
+* social incentive gradients towards truth, forged by status
+* not sure what the path forward is, my quest for Truth continues onwards (but I'm going to try to unwind the cult-speak)
+* concern that people will be drawn to the beacon of the sequences, and end up in a shitty Bay Area cult
+* mandatory obfuscation (Anne Vitale syndrome)
+* if part of the resistacne to an honest cost/benefit analysis is
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+* what did I expect, taking on an egregore so much bigger than me?
+* if I agree that people should be allowed to transition, why am I freaking out? Because I _actually care about getting the theory correct_
+* culture matters: if you're surrounded by crazy people
+* it's not particular to social justice; I'd punch right in a Christian theocracy
+* what I mean by "gaslighting"
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+person paper on purity
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+Sara Bareilles song
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