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-[TODO: "Roberta" situation]
+[TODO: "Roberta" situation
+ * Michael writes to me, not sure that I wanted to be notified, but that someone needs help along lines that match my focus and experience (Subject: Another autogynophilic rationalist is in a psych ward)
+ * Asks if we know anyone in Pittsburgh, any CMU EAs there to help, if needed could I visit
+ * Asks if I could provide the "attentive, active listening that would emotionally support someone in a high integrity agitated state where their ideas may not be literally true, and also may be true but hard to justify, but the ideas are at least honest metaphorical pointers at something that they think is there and needs to be recognized for safety"
+ * I post to Facebook: "Do I know (or know anyone who knows) any EA/rationalist folk in the vicinity of Pittsburgh, PA available to help with an Azkaban (psych ward) rescue mission? Not a joke."
+ * Lex (whose email From field still used deadname) starts information centralizing thread, got commited while trying to board a plane
+ * based on Google Maps, we started calling hosptials in the area
+ * we found reason to believe she was at Western Psychiatric Institute and Clinic of UPMC, in contrast to getting explicit denials from Sewickley Hospital (closest to airport but not there. Said he would not be able to tell me she was there if she was, but can tell me she is *not* there.), Forbes Regional, and Mercy Behavioral
+ * "UPMC presbyterian has a record of a devi borg. she was discharged. he said she was probably taken to western psych and recommended calling them"
+ * I called, still getting stonewalling
+ * "adding Devi's address to the thread so that she can look at it later and decide whether we deserve to be condemned for not being competent enough to rescue her faster"
+ * The next day, I call in the morning, and in the afternoon, Cathy keeps Glomar'ing me; I ask to speak to manager; manager Laura just left; I leave a voicemail message to patient's rights; I ask Scott if he can claim to be Devi's Magical Authority Figure (offer to bribe him) (Subject: "a plea to our inside man")
+ * I call again and get visiting hours and ask Chana to visit (offer to bribe her) (Subject: "a plea to our on-site woman (was: Re: a plea to our inside man)")
+ * I believe that they wrote a number down, but I don't believe that Devi actually got the opportunity to call; we're extracting our friends from the bowels on an unaligned AI
+ * Michael backchannels to me: "Exactly the right characterization Zack. I would tone it down right now but write these things down and we can discuss them after the fact."
+ * Scott: no point in me calling, agree with what you're doing
+ * I get angry at Scott for the "no meddle" suggestiong (Subject: "Re: in which gratitude and skepticism is expressed; and, a profit opportunity (was: Re: a plea to our on-site woman)")
+ * Steven on increasingly black-arts methods
+ * Lex: systems are corrupt, when even Scott writes about lacking the agency to not commit people who should not be committed
+ * Scott: accepts the bet, it's illegal to keep patients incommunicado
+ * I'm treating this as a kidnapping (Subject: "Hijack Innocent People And Abscond")
+ * I talk to Karen Robinson, the manager of patient relations, who is a Christian
+ * Lex says one of us might have to fly to Pittsburg; might think some of us are agents
+ * I ask for clarification, and clarification about name (I took off the trailing 'a' in the To: header)
+ * I concede the bet based on Chana's testimony
+ * Scott offers to nullify; I insist
+]
+
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-[TODO: overheating in April, staying at Volterra, Hamilton purchase]
+[TODO: starting to overheat]
+
+[TODO: staying at Volterra, Hamilton purchase]
[TODO: BABSCon]
[TODO: "my call with Western Psychiatric's Manager of Patient Relations"]
-[TODO: chat transcript relevant to War on Optimization for Generalized Secrecy]
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[TODO: final $18200 credit-assignment ritual: $5K to Michael, $1200 each to "Rebecca", 3 care team members (Alicorn Sarah Anna), Ziz, "Helen", and Sophia, $400 each to Steve, A.M., Watson, "Thomas", Jonah, James, Ben, Kevin, Alexei (declined), Andrew, Divia, Lex, Devi
http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2017/03/friends-can-change-the-world-or-request-for-social-technology-credit-assignment-rituals/
]
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+Anyway, that, briefly—I mean it—is the story of how the stress of confronting people on Facebook about the illogic of gender-identity ideology caused me to go insane from sleep deprivation, twice, shattering most of my remaining faith in Society and institutions along the way.
+
+It's probably not that interesting! If it weren't somewhat-informative backstory presaging my accidental instigation of a full-on robot-cult religious civil war two years later, I wouldn't have bothered to tell the story in this much detail—as evidenced by the fact that, [later in 2017, I started telling the story in considerably less detail, and didn't even end up finishing that](/2017/Jun/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-i-the-unanswerable-words/).
+
+I think I learned a lot during this period, but I wish there could have been some way to learn it with less drama—to take the form I took, without the disastrously formative experience. I wonder how the rest of this Whole Dumb Story would have gone, if I had just _shrugged and logged off_ earlier in February 2017, rather than losing sleep—if I would have had the strength to fight, later, without the memory of fighting until it broke me. Sometimes, I worry that human psychology is built such that things couldn't have been too much otherwise—that the _realistic_ alternative to taking things too seriously (to the severe detriment of one's health) is taking them lying down.
+
+But that's almost certainly giving me too much credit. To be continued.
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