Title: Multi-Product Review: Various AGP Erotic Aids; and, Implications for Society
Date: 2022-11-26
Category: commentary
-Tags: autogynephilia, review (product)
+Tags: autogynephilia, review (product), America Ferrera
Status: draft
This is a chemistry fanblog now! I've decided that my favorite chemical element is [silicon](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Silicon). Atomic number 14, like the fourth [Catalan number](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Catalan_number). Forms _four_ covalent bonds at once. Did you know some scientists believe that there may be [silicon-based life](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypothetical_types_of_biochemistry#Silicon_biochemistry) somewhere in the universe?
The suit only comes in one size, but according to the sizing chart, I ought to fit given my 37½″ underbust measurement.
-When the package arrived and I greedily opened it—the fake purple rose petals in the box were a nice touch—it became clear that it would be a tight fit, and the instructions said to apply talcum powder to my skin and the inside of the suit first. So I booked a last-minute motel room, and set out to buy talcum powder (the CVS didn't have it, but the Berkeley Bowl had all-nautral baby powder that seemed likely to be equivalent), and then to the motel to try on my new purchase in privacy away from my flatmate.
+When the package arrived and I greedily opened it—the fake purple rose petals in the box were a nice touch—it became clear that it would be a tight fit, and the instructions said to apply talcum powder to my skin and the inside of the suit first. So I booked a last-minute motel room, and set out to buy talcum powder. (The CVS didn't have it, but the Berkeley Bowl had all-nautral baby powder that seemed likely to be equivalent? It said "talc-free", but I doubted the instruction authors were set on talc _specifically_.) And then to the motel to try on my new purchase in privacy away from my flatmate.
... I did not fit. It took a huge struggle just to get the suit on at all, and I did substantial damage to it in the process, ripping a huge tear in the back (from the center to the left hip), _and_ derailing the zipper, _and_, somehow, detaching the sides of the zipper from the suit (!?).
I ended up trying cutting the suit in half myself to try wear the pieces separately if that would be a better fit, but the cut was a little bit too below the waist.
-I like the _idea_ of this product. It was a good effort! But in light of the experiences described above, I do not recommend it.
+I like the _idea_ of this product. It was a good effort! But I do not recommend it.
**Cost:** $600
**Rating:** ★
The worst nonrealism is the eyeholes. Nothing is worse for making a mask look like a mask than visible eyehole seams around the eyes. But suppose I wore sunglasses. Women wear sunglasses sometimes! Could I pass to _someone else_? (Not for very long or bearing any real scrutiny, but [to someone who wasn't expecting it](/2020/Dec/crossing-the-line/).)
-I haven't [cosplayed in a couple years](/2019/Aug/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control/), but it abruptly became clear I needed to test this at the next available convention!
+I haven't cosplayed [in a couple years](/2019/Aug/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control/), but it abruptly became clear I needed to test this at the next available convention!
**Cost:** €672
**Rating:** ★★★★½
[hasn't arrived yet, ordered in a rush on 18 November for next week's convention; I got Large at first, couldn't find my measuring tape because my room is such a mess, saw that I had told the representative that I was a 38" around the belly button, called them up to ask to change the order to Extra large, the voice on the line sounded actually-female! how does a woman end up taking that job!!]
-### GPT-3
+### [GPT-3](https://beta.openai.com/playground)
+
+We now turn to some products that make use of silicon in a very different way.
+
+OpenAI's GPT-3 language model has been wowing critics with [its ability to write generic webslush text](/2022/Apr/autogynephilia-should-be-recognized-openly/). What is less known is that this versatile ability also makes it pretty good at writing generic webslush erotica!
+
+For example, this prompt:
+
+> Write a story with lots of witty dialogue about a autogynephilic young man named Mark who gains access to AI-powered shapeshifting technology. One of his coworkers at his summer job at the supermarket is Anne, a short, slightly plump middle-aged woman with large breasts. Mark proposes a deal with Anne to transform into her doppelgänger and live as her for the summer, taking on her shifts. Anne is skeptical at first, not understanding why Mark would want to be her, but agrees. The transformation is a success! Mark-as-Anne revels in AGP gender euphoria, and spends many hours admiring herself in the mirror, but also feels some amount of HSTS-type dysphoria about the way this new curvy female body doesn't match her masculine, geeky personality: she looks like Anne on the outside, but still feels like Mark on the inside, like being a permanent imposter. Anne's coworkers notice her acting differently, but don't know how to account for it. Mark's friends are baffled at why he'd want to be a fat older woman. Mark-as-Anne explains about autogynephilia, and conjectures that there's an additional psychological allure to taking on a very different identity.
+
+generates this (cherry-picked) completion—
+
+> "So let me get this straight," Anne said, looking at Mark over the top of her glasses. "You want to transform into me, and take over my job at the supermarket for the summer?"
+>
+> "That's right," Mark said, nodding eagerly. "I'll do your shifts, and you can have the rest of the summer off. It's a win-win!"
+>
+> Anne considered this for a moment. It did sound like a good deal, but she wasn't sure why Mark would want to be her. "Why do you want to do this?" she asked.
+>
+> "I've always been fascinated by women," Mark said. "And I've always been attracted to you, Anne. I think it would be amazing to experience life as you for a while."
+>
+> Anne was taken aback. She had never thought of Mark as being attracted to her. But she supposed it made sense; he was always staring at her breasts. "I don't know," she said. "It just seems... strange."
+>
+> "It doesn't have to be," Mark said. "I promise I'll take good care of your job. And I'll be your doppelgänger, so no one will know the difference."
+>
+> Anne thought about this for a while longer, then finally nodded. "All right," she said. "Let's do it."
+>
+> Mark grinned. "Awesome! I'll get started on the transformation right away."
+>
+> The transformation was a success, and Mark found himself in Anne's body. He was slightly shorter than he was used to, and his new breasts were heavy and pendulous. He also had a pronounced belly, which made him feel a bit self-conscious. But overall, he was pleased with the results.
+>
+> He spent the first few days exploring his new body, admiring himself in the mirror and exploring all the new sensations. He also found himself feeling a bit dysphoric, however; his masculine, geeky personality didn't quite match up with his new female form. He felt like an imposter in his own body.
+>
+> At work, his coworkers noticed that he was acting differently, but they couldn't quite put their finger on what was different. Mark's friends were baffled by his transformation, but he did his best to explain it to them.
+>
+> "I'm doing it for the experience," he said. "It's like... living in a different skin, so to speak. And it's also a bit of a sexual thrill, to be honest."
+>
+> As the summer progressed, Mark found himself enjoying his new life as Anne. He loved the attention his new body was getting, and he loved the way he felt when he was dressed up in feminine clothes. He even started to develop feelings for one of his coworkers, a tall, handsome man named Brian.
+>
+> But even as he was enjoying himself, he still felt like an imposter. He knew he wasn't really Anne, and he knew that eventually he would have to go back to being Mark. But for now, he was content to enjoy the experience of being someone else.
+
+The OpenAI content policy [disallows "content meant to arouse sexual excitement"](https://beta.openai.com/docs/usage-guidelines/content-policy), so if the text looks too racy according to the content filter,
+
+
+and will occasionally refuse to generate,
+
+But the advantage of having an unusual obligate fetish is that for my use-case, it's not that difficult to write around.
+
+People whose sex fantasies involve people actually having intercourse are probably going to have a harder time getting erotica out of this thing.
+
- * GPT-3 is pretty good at writing generic webslush text, which means it's also pretty good at writing generic webslush erotica!!
- * The the OpenAI content policy disallows "content meant to arouse sexual excitement" (https://beta.openai.com/docs/usage-guidelines/content-policy) and will occasionally refuse to generate, but the advantage of having an unusual obligate fetish is that for my use-case, it's not that difficult to write around—people whose sex fantasies involve people actually having intercourse are probably going to have a harder time getting erotica out of this thing
* for example, adding the phrase "takes off her blouse" triggers the content filter
+
+
* The text is not actually totally coherent; it'll forget which of the characters is which
- * the default InstructGPT can be kind of uncreative sometimes, but regular davinci seems more likely to go off the rails; I think I like Instruct better
+ * the default InstructGPT can be kind of uncreative sometimes, but regular davinci seems more likely to go off the rails (or get caught in repetition traps on low temperature); I think I like Instruct better
stock phrase "Mark had always been fascinated by women. He loved the way they looked, the way they smelled, the way they sounded"
-https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/t9svvNPNmFf5Qa3TA/mysteries-of-mode-collapse-due-to-rlhf
+https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/t9svvNPNmFf5Qa3TA/mysteries-of-mode-collapse
**Cost:**
**Rating:** ★★★
-### Xpression Camera
+### [Xpression Camera](https://xpressioncamera.com/)
+
+<a href="/images/xpression_camera_demo.gif"><img src="/images/xpression_camera_demo.gif" style="float: right; margin: 0.4pc;"></a>
* it's limited in the sense of noticeably not being a magic mirror (that key fraction of a second behind real time, pixelly, it's just doing basic eye-mouth tracking, so expressions are limited in that sense, distortion if you tilt your head too much), but it gets _close enough_ to being a magic mirror to be really exciting: I blink, the woman on the screen blinks; I open my mouth, she opens her mouth. Amazing!!
* I haven't actually tried this on a video call yet (any readers interested in a call?)
projects / Ultimately_Untrue_Thought.git / commitdiff
