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> —Laura Barrett, ["Deception Island Optimists Club"](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7L4yB0LtP0U)
-Six or fifteen or twenty or forty-six months later—depending on when you start counting—I think I'm almost ready to stop grieving and move on with my life. I have two more posts to write for the robot-cult blog about the philosophy of language (a short one explaining the thing [Brian Skyrms and the other guy taught me about about how to separate denotative meaning from mere information-transfer by looking at the common interest subgame](/papers/skyrms-barrett-propositional_content_in_signals.pdf), and a long one re-stating my thesis about the cognitive function of categorization with _somewhat more math this time_ and then using it to give an account of _mimickry_)—and one long post to write here (some robot-cult liturgical commentary plus necessary autobiographical scaffolding)—and then I'll be _done_.
+Six or sixteen or twenty-one or forty-seven months later—depending on when you start counting—I think I'm almost ready to stop grieving and move on with my life. I have two more long blog posts to write—one for the robot-cult blog restating my thesis about the cognitive function of categorization with somewhat more math this time and then using it to give an account of _mimickry_, and one here doing some robot-cult liturgical commentary plus necessary autobiographical scaffolding—and then I'll be _done_.
-Not done writing. Done _grieving_. Done with this impotent rage that expects (normative sense) this world to be something other than what I know enough to expect (positive sense).
+Not done writing. Done _grieving_. Done with this impotent rage that expects (normative sense) this world to be something other than what I know enough to expect (positive sense). Maybe I'll start studying math again.
-Today I "e-ttended" the conference associated with this open-source scene I've been into for the past few years—although I've been so distracted by the Category War that I've landed exactly one commit in master in the last 13 months. (I think I'm still allowed to say "in master.") Traditionally (since 2016), this has been [my annual occasion](/2019/Aug/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control/#tech-conference) to travel up to Portland (the _real_ Portland, and not a cowardly obfuscation) and stay with friend of the blog [Sophia](/author/sophia/) (since 2017), but everything is remote this year because of the pandemic.
+Last week, I "e-ttended" the conference associated with this open-source scene I've been into for a while—although I've been so distracted by the Category War that I've landed [exactly one commit](https://github.com/rust-lang/rust/commit/d1cdb02e4d4) in master in the last 13 months. (I think I'm still allowed to say "in master", although ["whitelist" is out](https://github.com/rust-lang/rust/pull/74127).)
-I continue to be profoundly alienated by how thoroughly the finest technical minds of my generation are wholly owned by Blue Egregore. I fear the malicious glee with which they proclaim that everything is political, that anyone with reservations about the Code of Conduct is _ipso facto_ a bigot, how empathy is as important if not more so than technical excellence.
+Traditionally (since 2016), this [has](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/09/rustconf-2016-travelogue/) [been](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2017/10/some-excuse-for-a-rustconf-2017-travelogue/) [my annual occasion](/2019/Aug/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control/#tech-conference) to travel up to Portland (the _real_ Portland, and not a cowardly obfuscation) and stay with friend of the blog [Sophia](/author/sophia/) (since 2017), but everything is remote this year because of the pandemic.
-I can't even think of them as enemies. We're the _same people_. I was born in 1987 and grew up in California with the same [glorious ideal of equality](/2017/Dec/theres-a-land-that-i-see-or-the-spirit-of-intervention/) as everyone else. I just—did some reading outside the standard curriculum. And stopped receiving updates from the Egregore a few years back. I suppose from their perspective, an unpatched copy of Social Liberalism 2009 must look hopelessly out-of-date.
+Only if I'm serious about exiting my grief loop, I need to stop being so profoundly alienated by how thoroughly the finest technical minds of my generation are wholly owned by Blue Egregore. _I fear the successor ideology_—the righteous glee with which they proclaim that everything is political, that anyone with reservations about the Code of Conduct is _ipso facto_ a bigot, how empathy is as important if not more so than technical excellence ...
-https://arbital.greaterwrong.com/p/corrigibility?l=45
+I can't even think of them as enemies. We're the _same people_. I was born in 1987 and grew up in California with the same [beautiful moral ideal](/2017/Dec/theres-a-land-that-i-see-or-the-spirit-of-intervention/) as everyone else. I just—stopped receiving updates a few years back. From their perspective, an unpatched copy of Social Liberalism 2009 must look hopelessly out-of-date with the Current Year's nexus of [ideological coordination](https://palladiummag.com/2019/08/05/the-real-problem-at-yale-is-not-free-speech/), which everyone wants to be [corrigible](https://arbital.greaterwrong.com/p/corrigibility) to.
-The GPT-3 demos have been tickling my neuroticism.
+Or maybe I'm not _even_ running unpatched Liberalism 2009? I'm still loyal to the beau—to _my interpretation of_ the beautiful moral ideal. But I've done a lot of off-curriculum reading—[it usually begins with Ayn Rand](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/It_Usually_Begins_with_Ayn_Rand), but it [gets](/2020/Apr/book-review-human-diversity/) [much](/2017/Jan/and-yet-none-more-blameable/#goldberg) [worse](/2020/Aug/yarvin-on-less-wrong/). It ... leaves a mark. It's _supposed to_ leave a mark on the world-model without touching the utility function.
-[Lower Decks]
+One of the remote conference talks was about using our software for computational biology. There was something I wanted to say in the Discord channel, related to how I might want to redirect my energies after I'm done grieving. I typed it out in my Emacs `*scratch*` buffer, but, after weighing the risks for a few seconds, deleted a parenthetical at the end.
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+What I posted was:
> really excited to hear about applying tech skills to biology; my current insurance dayjob is not terribly inspiring, and I've been wondering if I should put effort into making more of an impact with my career
+The parenthetical I deleted was:
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> (_e.g._ if someone in the world is working on <https://www.gwern.net/Embryo-selection> and needs programmers)
-Ens. Mariner
+It probably wouldn't have mattered either way, with so many messages flying by in the chat. In some ways, Blue Egregore is less like an ideology and more like a regular expression filter: you can get surprisingly fair into discussing the actual substance of ideas as long as no _says a Bad word_ like "eugenics".
-fire
+The [GPT-3 demos](https://www.gwern.net/GPT-3) have been tickling my neuroticism.
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+My robot cult as currently
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+https://www.unqualified-reservations.org/2007/05/antisingularity/
+https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/KnQs55tjxWopCzKsk/the-ai-timelines-scam
-https://www.unqualified-reservations.org/2007/05/antisingularity/
+[Lower Decks]
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+Ens. Mariner personality tests
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+fire
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/2017/Sep/grim-trigger-or-the-parable-of-the-honest-man-and-the-god-of-marketing/
and the honest man said, "Cooperate."
There's more that I could say here, but I'm not sure that I should
"I use she/her pronouns"
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-> The best thing about the Rust community is that we are a community where empathy and personal maturity are as important. If not more important than technical excellence, and I've certainly seen that today.
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