-Title: Multi-Product Review: Various AGP Erotic Aids; and, Implications for Society
+Title: Multi-Product Review: AI for AGP
Date: 2022-11-26
Category: commentary
Tags: autogynephilia, review (product), America Ferrera
Status: draft
-This is a chemistry fanblog now! I've decided that my favorite chemical element is [silicon](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Silicon). Atomic number 14, like the fourth [Catalan number](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Catalan_number). Forms _four_ covalent bonds at once. Did you know some scientists believe that there may be [silicon-based life](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypothetical_types_of_biochemistry#Silicon_biochemistry) somewhere in the universe?
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-And used in making so many beautiful things ...! The [microchips](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Integrated_circuit) on which our electronic Society is built, obviously, but [silicone](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Silicone) polymers also have a wide range of applications in industrial and consumer products.
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-Today, I'd like to review some ... _consumer_ products.
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-Except—this isn't actually a chemistry fanblog. If you'd rather avoid being spiritually contaminated by discussion of certain _consumer products_—specifically, pornography-equivalents for men who love women and want to become what they love—you might want to stop reading and close the tab now.
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-Come back next month! We're not always like this; this is usually a blog about the _science and philosophy_ of autogynephilia, not the _practice_ of it. It's just—I need to host this page of product reviews somewhere, and because science and philosophy unfortunately require some amount of empirical data, this is the place.
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-<p class="flower-break">⁕ ⁕ ⁕</p>
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-... if you're still here (why?!), the reviews follow.
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-### [Gold Seal NAKED Silicone Bodysuit](https://thebreastformstore.com/gold-seal-naked-silicone-bodysuit/)
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-<a href="/images/bodysuit_zipper_error.jpg"><img src="/images/bodysuit_zipper_error.jpg" width="240" style="float: left; margin: 0.4pc;"></a>
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-One of the disappointing things about breastforms is that they're [noticeably—not actually part of your body.](/2017/Sep/hormones-day-156-developments-doubts-and-pulling-the-plug-or-putting-the-cis-in-decision/#first-breastforms) There is an _edge_ between the form and your actual chest.
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-(One could _argue_ that I sort of have breasts in real life now, if you were gullible and generous to count the male gynecomastia from my five-month [HRT experiment](/tag/hrt-diary/) in 2017, which is nice, but hasn't sated the curiosity as to what it would be like to have _big_ breasts, _unarguable_ breasts—and if we can't make biological functionality out of silicone, we can at least make _size_.)
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-In contrast, this bodysuit featuring fake breasts _and_ a fake vulva, all in one piece, seemed like an appealing thing to try out. ("The most jiggle and bounce imaginable", promises the website.) Compared to breastforms, the bodysuit promised to offer both a "bottom" experience, and, not a more _seamless_ transformation on "top", but rather, to put the seams in a potentially less conspicuous location (at the neck/arms/legs, rather than on the chest where they interfere with the illusion of actually having breasts).
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-The suit only comes in one size, but according to the sizing chart, I ought to fit given my 37½″ underbust measurement.
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-When the package arrived and I greedily opened it—the fake purple rose petals in the box were a nice touch—it became clear that it would be a tight fit, and the instructions said to apply talcum powder to my skin and the inside of the suit first. So I booked a last-minute motel room, and set out to buy talcum powder. (The CVS didn't have it, but the Berkeley Bowl had all-nautral baby powder that seemed likely to be equivalent? It said "talc-free", but I doubted the instruction authors were set on talc _specifically_.) And then to the motel to try on my new purchase in privacy away from my flatmate.
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-... I did not fit. It took a huge struggle just to get the suit on at all, and I did substantial damage to it in the process, ripping a huge tear in the back (from the center to the left hip), _and_ derailing the zipper, _and_, somehow, detaching the sides of the zipper from the suit (!?).
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-In retrospect, I should have taken care to heed the direction to apply the powder first before stuggling so much (I was excited, and was for some reason having trouble opening the cylinder of baby powder), and on that count, I'll easily accept the rip in the back as "my fault", but the way the zipper derailed and detached so easily seems like more of an indicator of a low-quality product?
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-After the struggle and the damage, the experience of having the suit on was—underwhelming. The cleavage is visually nice (no seam when looking own at one's chest!), but the breasts hung significantly too low, which could very well be due to the way it was awkwardly draped over my shoulders with no zipper to support it in the back—but we have already spoken of what became of the zipper. The "bottom" illusion is visually pretty nice—standing some distance from the mirror and squinting. The uniformly beige skin is somehow slightly sticky (?) and looks more like silicone (which it is) than flesh. I would describe the overall effect as "cartoony."
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-The suit features a condom catheter for urination. (And a vaginal cavity, though I'm not sure what that's for.) The catheter was _also_ a tight fit—that's part of the product review, not boasting—and when using the urination feature, I swear a bit of urine leaked out of the seams around my legs (!?). I'm still not sure how the hydraulics worked there.
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-The seller, TheBreastFormStore.com, also offers a breast plate and "v-panties" as separate items, rather than as the one suit, and while admiring the cleavage, I suddenly realized a practical reason to prefer "top" and "bottom" as separate items. (Can't masturbate with the bottom on!)
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-The product page had already warned that all sales of this item were final (would _you_ want to buy one of these used?), but the customer service rep for TheBreastFormStore.com was very nice and helpful when I wrote to them about my experience. She offered to send me glue to reattach the zipper when it was in stock, and said she could talk to her supervisor about a offering a discount on the breastplate and v-panty combination. (The emails were signed with a female name, but I assume they don't get actual women to fill these jobs?)
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-I ended up trying cutting the suit in half myself to try wear the pieces separately if that would be a better fit, but the cut was a little bit too below the waist.
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-I like the _idea_ of this product. It was a good effort! But I do not recommend it.
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-**Cost:** $600
-**Rating:** ★
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-### [Crea FX Taylor Silicone Mask](https://www.creafx.com/en/special-make-up-effects/taylor-silicone-mask/)
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-<div style="float: right;">
-<a href="/images/mask_plain.jpg"><img src="/images/mask_plain.jpg" width="200" style="margin: 0.1pc;"></a>
-<a href="/images/mask_with_wig_and_rose-colored_glasses.jpg"><img src="/images/mask_with_wig_and_rose-colored_glasses.jpg" width="165" style="margin: 0.1pc;"></a>
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-This product is _amazing_. It really looks like a woman's face! Just—a detached woman's face, wrapped in tissue paper, sitting in a box! [I _said_ buying this product was probably a smart move](/2021/May/sexual-dimorphism-in-the-sequences-in-relation-to-my-gender-problems/#movie-grade-mask), and it turns out that buying this product was a _smart move!_
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-The skin color and texture is much more realistic than the cartoon beige of the Gold Seal bodysuit reviewed above. (I wonder how much it helps that Crea FX are visual-effects artists by trade—makers of male masks and monster masks for movies and plays—rather than being in the MtF business specifically, like the Breast Form Store. They know—I assume they _must_ know—that a lot of their female masks are purchased by guys like me with motives like mine, but we're not the _target_ demographic, the reason they mastered their skills.)
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-[TODO: "they must know" link to blog post about their appaearance at the German Fetish Fair]
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-Getting the mask on and off was no problem at all. (By this point, I had opened the can of baby powder.) It somehow manages to look worse in photographs than it does in the mirror? Is it possible my big Jewish nose streches out the mask's nose a bit? Whatever. Standing a distance from the mirror in a dark hotel room, I swear _I actually bought it_, and if the moment of passing to myself in the mirror was an anticlimax, it was an anticlimax I've been waiting my entire life (since puberty) for.
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-The worst nonrealism is the eyeholes. Nothing is worse for making a mask look like a mask than visible eyehole seams around the eyes. But suppose I wore sunglasses. Women wear sunglasses sometimes! Could I pass to _someone else_? (Not for very long or bearing any real scrutiny, but [to someone who wasn't expecting it](/2020/Dec/crossing-the-line/).)
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-I haven't cosplayed [in a couple years](/2019/Aug/a-love-that-is-out-of-anyones-control/), but it abruptly became clear I needed to test this at the next available convention!
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-**Cost:** €672
-**Rating:** ★★★★½
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-### Gold Seal Padded Panties
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-[hasn't arrived yet, ordered in a rush on 18 November for next week's convention; I got Large at first, couldn't find my measuring tape because my room is such a mess, saw that I had told the representative that I was a 38" around the belly button, called them up to ask to change the order to Extra large, the voice on the line sounded actually-female! how does a woman end up taking that job!!]
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### [GPT-3](https://beta.openai.com/playground)
-We now turn to some products that make use of silicon in a very different way.
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OpenAI's GPT-3 language model has been wowing critics with [its ability to write generic webslush text](/2022/Apr/autogynephilia-should-be-recognized-openly/). What is less known is that this versatile ability also makes it pretty good at writing generic webslush erotica!
For example, this prompt:
### Takeaways
Why write about this? Why write about icky erotic stuff on a blog that also has Science and Philosophy stuff that's _unambiguously_ safe for work? Well, in the current year I think there's actually a public interest in being clear that—if I'm the kind of person who becomes a trans women in Berkeley, which no one seems to dispute—this is the kind of thing people like me spend a lot of time on. And—it just, doesn't really seem like something actual-females would relate to
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- * I didn't masturbate from Sat. until Wed. in anticipation of trying on the mask in a hotel room; I was delighted that I came a little bit (entirely flaccid) while shitting—that's a sign that I had succeeded in building up, and yet somehow I didn't feel very horny or get as much pleasure when the time came? Maybe I'm getting old?
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