Tags: autogynephilia, review (product)
Status: draft
-Our civilization can do a lot of cool things with silicon
+This is a chemistry fanblog now! I've decided that my favorite chemical element is [silicon](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Silicon). Atomic number 14, like the fourth [Catalan number](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Catalan_number). Forms _four_ covalent bonds at once. Did you know some scientists believe that there may be [silicon-based life](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypothetical_types_of_biochemistry#Silicon_biochemistry) somewhere in the universe?
-### Gold Seal NAKED Silicone Bodysuit
+And used in making so many beautiful things ...! The [microchips](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Integrated_circuit) on which our electronic Society is built, obviously, but [silicone](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Silicone) polymers also have a wide range of applications in industrial and consumer products.
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+Today, I'd like to talk about some ... _consumer_ products.
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+Except—this isn't actually a chemistry fanblog. If you'd rather avoid discussion of certain _consumer products_, you might want to stop reading and close the tab now.
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+[TODO: better intro/transition]
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+### [Gold Seal NAKED Silicone Bodysuit](https://thebreastformstore.com/gold-seal-naked-silicone-bodysuit/)
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+<a href="/images/bodysuit_zipper_error.jpg"><img src="/images/bodysuit_zipper_error.jpg" width="240" style="float: left; margin: 0.4pc;"></a>
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+[One of the disappointing things about breastforms is that they're noticeably—not actually part of your body.](/2017/Sep/hormones-day-156-developments-doubts-and-pulling-the-plug-or-putting-the-cis-in-decision/#first-breastforms) There is an _edge_ between the form and your actual chest.
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+In contrast, this bodysuit featuring fake breasts _and_ a fake vulva, all in one piece, seemed like an appealing thing to try out. Compared to breastforms, the bodysuit promised to offer a "bottom" experience, and, not a more _seamless_ transformation on "top", but rather to put the seams in a potentially less conspicuous location (at the neck/arms/legs, rather than on the chest where they interfere with the illusion of actually having breasts).
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+It only comes in one size, but according to the sizing chart, I ought to fit given my 37½″ underbust measurement.
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+... it did not fit. I did _substantial_ damage to the suit just struggling to get it on: ripping a huge tear in the back to the left hip, _and_
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+(In retrospect, I should have taken care to heed the direction to apply talcum powder to my skin and the inside of the suit, before stuggling so much.)
* I could not get this on, at all: huge rip on the back side, and the zipper came off; the former seems unambiguously like "my fault", but the zipper actually seems like low-quality product?
- * breasts hang too low, but that could be due to broken zipper
+ * should've listened to the baby powder direction before trying to squeeze it on
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+The breasts hang significantly too low—but
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* hard to fit member in urination option, I swear it leaked urine out side?—not sure how the hydraulics worked there
- * customer service was very nice and helpful, offered glue for zipper
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* cleavage is nice
- * should've listened to the baby powder direction before trying to squeeze it on
- * purple fake rose petals in box are a nice touch
- * overall effect I would describe as cartoony
+ * also: can't masturbate with the bottom on!
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+I would describe the overall effect as "cartoony."
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+Customer service was very nice and helpful when I wrote to them about my experience.
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+The product page had already warned that all sales of this item were final (would _you_ want to buy one of these used?)
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+ * customer service was very nice and helpful, offered glue for zipper (I assume they don't hire actual women for those jobs)
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* I ended up cutting it in half to try to wear the pieces separately, but the cut was a little too below waist for the now-"shorts"
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+(The fake purple rose petals in the box were a nice touch.)
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* I like the idea, but overall, do not recommend
-https://thebreastformstore.com/gold-seal-naked-silicone-bodysuit/
-Cost: $600
-Rating: ★½
+**Cost:** $600
+**Rating:** ★½
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+### [Crea FX Taylor Silicone Mask](https://www.creafx.com/en/special-make-up-effects/taylor-silicone-mask/)
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+<div style="float: right;">
+<a href="/images/mask_plain.jpg"><img src="/images/mask_plain.jpg" width="240" style="margin: 0.4pc;"></a>
+<a href="/images/mask_with_wig_and_rose-colored_glasses.jpg"><img src="/images/mask_with_wig_and_rose-colored_glasses.jpg" width="140" style="margin: 0.4pc;"></a>
+</div>
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+It really looks like a woman's face!
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+The skin color and texture is much more realistic than the cartoon beige of the Gold Seal bodysuit reviewed above.
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+(I wonder how much it helps that Crea FX are visual-effects artists by trade—makers of male masks and monster masks for movies and plays—rather than being in the MtF business specifically like the Breast Form Store. They know—I assume they _must_ know—that a lot of their female masks are purchased by guys like me,
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-### Crea FX Taylor Silicone Mask
- * really good; it actually looks like a woman's face!!
* somehow looks worse in photographs than it does in the mirror?]
* worst nonrealism: visible eyeholes; fix—sunglasses?
* going to reprise Ens.-Sylvia-Tilly-wearing-sunglasses at Fan Expo 2022 to see if I can pass at all
* Is it possible that I stretched out the nose area??
* standing a distance from the mirror in a dark hotel room, I actually bought it?!
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-https://www.creafx.com/en/special-make-up-effects/taylor-silicone-mask/
-
-Cost: €672
-Rating: ★★★★½
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+**Cost:** €672
+**Rating:** ★★★★½
### GPT-3
stock phrase "Mark had always been fascinated by women. He loved the way they looked, the way they smelled, the way they sounded"
-Cost:
-Rating: ★★★
+**Cost:**
+**Rating:** ★★★
### Xpression Camera
* it's limited in the sense of noticeably not being a magic mirror (that key fraction of a second behind real time, pixelly, it's just doing basic eye-mouth tracking, so expressions are limited in that sense, distortion if you tilt your head too much), but it gets _close enough_ to being a magic mirror to be really exciting: I blink, the woman on the screen blinks; I open my mouth, she opens her mouth. Amazing!!
* I haven't actually tried this on a video call yet (any readers interested in a call?)
-Cost:
-Rating: ★★½
+**Cost:**
+**Rating:** ★★½
### Stable Diffusion
+<a href="/images/stable_diffusion_celebrity_img2img.png"><img src="/images/stable_diffusion_celebrity_img2img.png" width="650" style="margin: 0.4pc;"></a>
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* For some reason, I really love celebrity prompts! (Where "individual people whose faces I recognize" is the actual thing, but celebrities are the way to realize that)
* Yeah, you can already see lots of pictures of celebrities online
* still in the distorted uncanny-valley regime, most of the time
* img2img for pose customization!!
-Cost:
-Rating: ★★★½
+**Cost:**
+**Rating:** ★★★½
It's weirdly better at depicting America Ferrera
https://laion-aesthetic.datasette.io/laion-aesthetic-6pls/images?_search=oprah&_sort=rowid Oprah
### Takeaways
-Why write about this? Why write about icky erotic stuff on a blog that also has Science and Philosophy stuff that's safe for work? Well, in the current year I think there's actually a public interest in being clear that—if I'm the kind of person who becomes a trans women in Berkeley, which no one seems to dispute—this is the kind of thing people like me spend a lot of time on. And—it just, doesn't really seem like something actual-females would relate to
+Why write about this? Why write about icky erotic stuff on a blog that also has Science and Philosophy stuff that's _unambiguously_ safe for work? Well, in the current year I think there's actually a public interest in being clear that—if I'm the kind of person who becomes a trans women in Berkeley, which no one seems to dispute—this is the kind of thing people like me spend a lot of time on. And—it just, doesn't really seem like something actual-females would relate to
* I didn't masturbate from Sat. until Wed. in anticipation of trying on the mask in a hotel room; I was delighted that I came a little bit (entirely flaccid) while shitting—that's a sign that I had succeeded in building up, and yet somehow I didn't feel very horny or get as much pleasure when the time came? Maybe I'm getting old?
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+"The most jiggle and bounce imaginable"
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