Tags: autogynephilia, review (product)
Status: draft
-Our civilization can do a lot of cool things with silicon
+This is a chemistry fanblog now! I've decided that my favorite chemical element is [silicon](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Silicon). Atomic number 14, like the fourth [Catalan number](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Catalan_number). Forms _four_ covalent bonds at once. Did you know some scientists believe that there may be [silicon-based life](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypothetical_types_of_biochemistry#Silicon_biochemistry) somewhere in the universe?
-### Gold Seal NAKED Silicone Bodysuit
+And used in making so many beautiful things ...! The [microchips](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Integrated_circuit) on which our electronic Society is built, obviously, but [silicone](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Silicone) polymers also have a wide range of applications in industrial and consumer products.
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+Today, I'd like to talk about some ... _consumer_ products.
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+Except—this isn't actually a chemistry fanblog. If you'd rather avoid discussion of certain _consumer products_, you might want to stop reading and close the tab now.
+
+[TODO: better intro/transition]
+
+### [Gold Seal NAKED Silicone Bodysuit](https://thebreastformstore.com/gold-seal-naked-silicone-bodysuit/)
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+<a href="/images/bodysuit_zipper_error.jpg"><img src="/images/bodysuit_zipper_error.jpg" width="240" style="float: left; margin: 0.4pc;"></a>
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+[One of the disappointing things about breastforms is that they're noticeably—not actually part of your body.](/2017/Sep/hormones-day-156-developments-doubts-and-pulling-the-plug-or-putting-the-cis-in-decision/#first-breastforms) There is an _edge_ between the form and your actual chest.
+
+In contrast, this bodysuit featuring fake breasts _and_ a fake vulva, all in one piece, seemed like an appealing thing to try out. Compared to breastforms, the bodysuit promised to offer both a "bottom" experience, and, not a more _seamless_ transformation on "top", but rather, to put the seams in a potentially less conspicuous location (at the neck/arms/legs, rather than on the chest where they interfere with the illusion of actually having breasts).
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+It only comes in one size, but according to the sizing chart, I ought to fit given my 37½″ underbust measurement.
+
+... I did not fit. It took a huge stuggle just to get it on at all, and I did substantial damage to the suit in the process, ripping a huge tear in the back (from the center to the left hip), _and_ derailing the zipper, _and_, somehow, detaching the sides of the zipper from the suit.
+
+In retrospect, I should have taken care to heed the direction to apply talcum powder to my skin and the inside of the suit, before stuggling so much, and on that count, I'll easily accept the rip in the back as "my fault", but the way the zipper derailed and detached so easily seems like more of an indicator of a low-quality product?
+
+ The cleavage is nice
+
+The breasts hang significantly too low—but
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+I would describe the overall effect as "cartoony."
- * I could not get this on, at all: huge rip on the back side, and the zipper came off; the former seems unambiguously like "my fault", but the zipper actually seems like low-quality product?
- * breasts hang too low, but that could be due to broken zipper
* hard to fit member in urination option, I swear it leaked urine out side?—not sure how the hydraulics worked there
- * customer service was very nice and helpful, offered glue for zipper
- * cleavage is nice
- * should've listened to the baby powder direction before trying to squeeze it on
- * purple fake rose petals in box are a nice touch
- * overall effect I would describe as cartoony
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+ * also: can't masturbate with the bottom on!
+
+The product page had already warned that all sales of this item were final (would _you_ want to buy one of these used?)
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+Customer service was very nice and helpful when I wrote to them about my experience.
+
+offered glue for zipper (I assume they don't hire actual women for those jobs)
+
* I ended up cutting it in half to try to wear the pieces separately, but the cut was a little too below waist for the now-"shorts"
+
+(The fake purple rose petals in the box were a nice touch.)
+
* I like the idea, but overall, do not recommend
-https://thebreastformstore.com/gold-seal-naked-silicone-bodysuit/
+**Cost:** $600
+**Rating:** ★½
+
+### [Crea FX Taylor Silicone Mask](https://www.creafx.com/en/special-make-up-effects/taylor-silicone-mask/)
+
+<div style="float: right;">
+<a href="/images/mask_plain.jpg"><img src="/images/mask_plain.jpg" width="240" style="margin: 0.4pc;"></a>
+<a href="/images/mask_with_wig_and_rose-colored_glasses.jpg"><img src="/images/mask_with_wig_and_rose-colored_glasses.jpg" width="140" style="margin: 0.4pc;"></a>
+</div>
+
+It really looks like a woman's face!
-Cost: $600
-Rating: ★½
+The skin color and texture is much more realistic than the cartoon beige of the Gold Seal bodysuit reviewed above. (I wonder how much it helps that Crea FX are visual-effects artists by trade—makers of male masks and monster masks for movies and plays—rather than being in the MtF business specifically, like the Breast Form Store. They know—I assume they _must_ know—that a lot of their female masks are purchased by guys like me with motives like mine, but we're not the _target_ demographic, the reason they mastered their skills.)
-### Crea FX Taylor Silicone Mask
+Getting the mask on and off was no problem at all.
- * really good; it actually looks like a woman's face!!
- * somehow looks worse in photographs than it does in the mirror?]
+
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+ * somehow looks worse in photographs than it does in the mirror?] standing a distance from the mirror in a dark hotel room, I actually bought it?!
+
* worst nonrealism: visible eyeholes; fix—sunglasses?
* going to reprise Ens.-Sylvia-Tilly-wearing-sunglasses at Fan Expo 2022 to see if I can pass at all
* Is it possible that I stretched out the nose area??
- * standing a distance from the mirror in a dark hotel room, I actually bought it?!
-https://www.creafx.com/en/special-make-up-effects/taylor-silicone-mask/
-
-Cost: €672
-Rating: ★★★★½
+
+**Cost:** €672
+**Rating:** ★★★★½
### GPT-3
stock phrase "Mark had always been fascinated by women. He loved the way they looked, the way they smelled, the way they sounded"
-Cost:
-Rating: ★★★
+https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/t9svvNPNmFf5Qa3TA/mysteries-of-mode-collapse-due-to-rlhf
+
+**Cost:**
+**Rating:** ★★★
### Xpression Camera
* it's limited in the sense of noticeably not being a magic mirror (that key fraction of a second behind real time, pixelly, it's just doing basic eye-mouth tracking, so expressions are limited in that sense, distortion if you tilt your head too much), but it gets _close enough_ to being a magic mirror to be really exciting: I blink, the woman on the screen blinks; I open my mouth, she opens her mouth. Amazing!!
* I haven't actually tried this on a video call yet (any readers interested in a call?)
-Cost:
-Rating: ★★½
+**Cost:**
+**Rating:** ★★½
### Stable Diffusion
+<a href="/images/stable_diffusion_celebrity_img2img.png"><img src="/images/stable_diffusion_celebrity_img2img.png" width="650" style="margin: 0.4pc;"></a>
+
* For some reason, I really love celebrity prompts! (Where "individual people whose faces I recognize" is the actual thing, but celebrities are the way to realize that)
* Yeah, you can already see lots of pictures of celebrities online
* still in the distorted uncanny-valley regime, most of the time
* img2img for pose customization!!
-Cost:
-Rating: ★★★½
+**Cost:**
+**Rating:** ★★★½
It's weirdly better at depicting America Ferrera
https://laion-aesthetic.datasette.io/laion-aesthetic-6pls/images?_search=oprah&_sort=rowid Oprah
### Takeaways
-Why write about this? Why write about icky erotic stuff on a blog that also has Science and Philosophy stuff that's safe for work? Well, in the current year I think there's actually a public interest in being clear that—if I'm the kind of person who becomes a trans women in Berkeley, which no one seems to dispute—this is the kind of thing people like me spend a lot of time on. And—it just, doesn't really seem like something actual-females would relate to
+Why write about this? Why write about icky erotic stuff on a blog that also has Science and Philosophy stuff that's _unambiguously_ safe for work? Well, in the current year I think there's actually a public interest in being clear that—if I'm the kind of person who becomes a trans women in Berkeley, which no one seems to dispute—this is the kind of thing people like me spend a lot of time on. And—it just, doesn't really seem like something actual-females would relate to
* I didn't masturbate from Sat. until Wed. in anticipation of trying on the mask in a hotel room; I was delighted that I came a little bit (entirely flaccid) while shitting—that's a sign that I had succeeded in building up, and yet somehow I didn't feel very horny or get as much pleasure when the time came? Maybe I'm getting old?
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+"The most jiggle and bounce imaginable"
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