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> —"Reflection", _Mulan_ (as performed by Christina Aguilera)
+_(Attention conservation notice: petulant navel-gazing is boring. [Please subscribe](/feeds/all.atom.xml) for actual content later, I double-dog promise!)_
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February has been a pretty exciting month for me in terms of advancing in my chosen profession!
First, I flew to "Munich" to participate in the all-hands team meeting for the "Blerp-d9aa89fd"[ref]As part of this blog's æsthetic tradition, we're pretending that I actually care about protecting my identity, so identifying place and proper names continue to be changed, with the replacements enclosed in "scare quotes" in their first appearance in each post, even though it's probably not hard for someone with curiosity and a search engine to work out that "Portland" is actually Berkeley, alphanumeric suffixes are the first eight bytes of the SHA256 hash of the actual name, _&c._[/ref] open-source project that I've been contributing to for the past couple years. My own contributions have been pretty modest so far: mostly plumbing that makes the error messages better, rather than the feats of computer-scientific mastery that one might naïvely expect to be necessary to contribute at all to such cutting-edge technology. This makes it all the more exciting to be accepted as part of the Team, part of the in-crowd. I'm eager to work hard to be worthy of the honor—to continue to grow and contribute more to the infrastructure [holding up the sky](http://esr.ibiblio.org/?p=4196) of our glorious technological civilization!
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+!!Con is doing way better than Rust on the diversity front; is that because they're doing somrething different, or because of talks vs. contribs
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-!!Con is doing way better than Rust on the diversity front; is that because they're doing somrething different, or because of talks vs. contribs
+OUTLINE—
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+ * Requiem for the Rationalists
+ * I've been involved in this subculture that's specifically about truthseeking for the past 10 years, and so in late 2016, early 2017 I kind of freaked-out, because the two-types thing seemed pretty obvious to me, and I thought that if we were going to be an epistemic community, we should get this one right, and if we can't, that's really confusing—there was actually a nervous breakdown and hopsitalization involved
+ * that may have bene slightly pre-mature; psychology is hard!
+ * lately I've been focusing on this philosophy-of-language thing, which seems _much_ more solid
+ * And ... I'm still not impressed.
+ * All the actually-smart people clearly _see_ the Bayes-structure I'm trying to point to, but they either find some excuse to dismiss it (often using the word "whatever"; I consider this blameworthy), or say that they don't want to touch the subject in public (which I don't find blameworthy if you do it explicitly)
+ * nothing is _really_ changing, but I need to stop attaching value to the rationalist brand name
+ * expecting "rationalist" social consensus to be reasonable creates a _huge_ amount of cognitive dissonance
+ * "If you speak overmuch of the way, you will not attain it."
+ * my open-source peeps are way worse
+ * martyrdom, strategy, pseudonyms
+ * I had fantasized about _suddenly_ stopping preference-falsifying on Twitter to be a Damore- or Lindsay-Shepard-like hero
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+(The virtue of navel-gazing is that it takes less effort to just bare your soul, but this still feels like it takes enough effort to get right-enough that I might not even bother? We'll see if I summon up the energy to just bang it out in one sitting on a dedicated day: that's what "Untitled Metablogging" was, and it was a hit; and the anti-martyrdom thing is important)
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