Tags: personal, software industry
Status: draft
-> _There's a heart that must be free
-> To fly
-> That burns with the need to know
-> The reason why
-> Why must we all conceal
-> What we think, how we feel?
-> Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?_
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-> —"Reflection", _Mulan_ (as performed by Christina Aguilera)
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_(Attention conservation notice: petulant navel-gazing is boring. [Please subscribe](/feeds/all.atom.xml) for actual content later, I double-dog promise!)_
February has been a pretty exciting month for me in terms of advancing in my chosen profession!
bundling and marketing channels, negotiation for space; I can keep quiet in a particular venue, but "not in X space" becomes "shut up and die" if X encompasses all spaces
+psychological hazards of embracing the "evil" label
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+people just like me who read different books in a different order
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+"Everyone is entitled to her religion/belief" is a peace treaty
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+tempted to escalate to misgendering just as a protest against mind control (even though I wouldn't be inclined to fight about pronouns if I could get people to agree about the theory), but that's not a winning move
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+How strong is the hypothesized "if you ever gerrymander a category, then parsimony is ever after your enemy" effect?
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+clickthrough rates are bad, which is a point against the bundling strategy of writing good non-gender-war content under the same pseudonym
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+lack of a positive vision
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+so tempting to endlessly relitigate every minor point of conversation, when I should just let it go
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+the "rationalist" banner is a source of huge cognitive dissonance if the majority gets it wrong
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+cis women also get surgery / "seems fake" / 13th century word meanings
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+I can't be friends with people who are going to gaslight me this hard
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+important to notice that the ideological repression narrative is one of microaggressions/exclusion: should be a source of empathy!
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+reach for condescending rhetoric: "pretending to be stupid" is emotionally satisfying rhetoric that does point to a real problem, but it's not a precise formulation, and the meta-level "you're irrational" dicussion is already so fraught that it needs all the precision it can get (ridicule might help as a violent appeal to shared values, but you need a coalition for that)
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+the relevance of AGP is to provide a non-intersex mechanism for why males might want to be female; it's not "autoerotic people can't be female", to which claim "cis women are AGP too" would be a counterexample
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+my obsessive personality (being angry about school felt _just_ like this)
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+B.'s advice about the unwarranted assumption of good faith
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+summing over three conversations, don't want to get into details because don't want to relitigate object-level points addressed in prev. (and future) posts, and because I don't want to leak too much info about private conversations
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+part of the reason I've been slow to finish my draft to Ozy is the sense that it doesn't really matter
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+I didn't explain the Schelling point thing
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+at first I was upset about two-types in 2016/17, but that may have been premature; but now a recent flurry of activity about the hidden-Bayesian-structure-of-cognition thing
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+"Wilhelm" told me to give up, but I have a _massive_ homefield advantage that doesn't port; that's an incentive to stand my ground and fight a culture war, unpleasant as that is
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+trans women who I love and admire and don't want to hurt—but who are a _different thing_ from actual women—_sufficiently_ different in a way that deserves either a separate noun, _or_ at least https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Markedness ("women"/cis-women as the central thing, and "trans" as a wierd version); the "women, cis or trans; neither kind more central than the other" is not going to fly. Which isn't to say that "cis" is a bad word to have (I don't mind having words for "straight" or "heterosexual") (this could be its own post)
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