✓ Vassar discourse II
✓ ordering DIY hormones
✓ asking Anna for promise
-_ Vassar discourse III
+- Vassar discourse III
_ emailing Blanchard/Bailey/Hsu/Lawrence/Cantor/Dreger
_ proposed credit-assignment ritual
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(I had promised my father to wait a month after my psych ward ordeal to re-start HRT, but I [would restart](/2017/Mar/hormones-reboot-spironotacular/).)
* Alice said something about how every once in a while, someone runs off with the payments database
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+To the extent that I was seeing things that weren't there, it was a matter of misinterpreting actual sensory inputs rather than having de novo hallucinations.
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+What I thought was a dog turd inside the kitchen actually turned out to be a cork.
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+When I was borrowing someone's computer, I thought I saw an icon peek out from the side of the screen, as if a possibly-malevolent agent were spying on me—a disturbing visual hallucination. Later that year, when trying out the stock Ubuntu Unity desktop on my new computer, I discovered that the app-notification animation actually does feature an app icon "sliding out" and shaking, like I remembered seeing—I wasn't imagining it!
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+I remember seeing text on my phone and being distinctly convinced that it was misspelled. Five years later, looking at the distorted lettering output by text-to-image models that can't spell seemed subjectively similar. (Good news for alignment, if it looks like deep learning and sleep-deprived human brains are doing "the same thing"?)
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