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+Diary entry no. 318, 24 March 2009—
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+> If it makes sense to speak of stripping away my autogynephila and my explicitly egalitarian-individualist ideology, would my very soul be revealed as male?
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+(Editor's note: _yes_.)
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+> And if so, what can I do about it? What violence could I inflict upon me to make me my _self_?
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+> I don't think I ever told you: someday it would be nice to experiment with some androgen-blocking drugs―you know, to see what it would feel like to be on them. But if I'm going to do something like that, it would be nice to have a better job and not be living with my parents―oh Diary, how it all hangs together!