-As the tension between what I was seeing and what I felt allowed to say in public kept mounting, I started
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-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/07/concerns/
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/07/identity/
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/07/apostasy/
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/07/wicked-transcendence/
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/08/ineffective-deconversion-pitch/
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/08/falself/
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/08/prescription/
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/09/the-world-by-gaslight/
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/09/the-roark-quirrell-effect/
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/09/book-recommendations-i/
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/09/wicked-transcendence-ii/
-http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/09/concerns-ii/
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-[TODO: September 2016: I start my "secret" blog under a pen name]
+As the tension continued to mount through mid-2016 between what I was seeing and hearing, and the socially-acceptable public narrative, [my](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/07/concerns/) [frustration](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/07/identity/) [started](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/07/apostasy/) [to](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/07/wicked-transcendence/) [subtly](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/08/ineffective-deconversion-pitch/) [or](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/08/falself/) [not-so-much](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/08/prescription/) [leak](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/09/the-world-by-gaslight/) [out](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/09/the-roark-quirrell-effect/) [in](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/09/book-recommendations-i/) [my](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/09/wicked-transcendence-ii/) [blog](http://zackmdavis.net/blog/2016/09/concerns-ii/), but I wanted to write more directly about what was going on.
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+At first I was imagining a post on my existing blog, but a couple of my very smart and cowardly friends recommended a pseudonym, which I reluctantly agreed was probably a good idea. So I made up a pen name and [started this blog](http://unremediatedgender.space/2016/Sep/apophenia/).
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+[TODO—aside on pen name, URL
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+I had already claimed _ultimatelyuntruethought@gmail.com_ in 2014, to participate in [a contest](http://celebbodyswap.blogspot.com/2014/02/magic-remote-caption-contest.html) by one of the [transformation/bodyswap captioned-photo erotica blogs](/2016/Oct/exactly-what-it-says-on-the-tin/)
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+ hyphenated last name (a feminist tradition)
+ abbreviated-first-initial + gender-neutral middle name (as if suggesting a male ineffectually trying to avoid having an identifiably male byline)
+ "Saotome" from a thematically-relevant Japanese graphic novel series
+ "West" (+ an extra syllable) after a character in a serial novel whose catchphrase is "Somebody had to and no one else will"
+]