it will never stop hurting until you do the true confrontation

Did I, perhaps, get a little distracted by FreeCell (in which I have
just yet to break 3 minutes, which is less impressive after you
consider how the aggressive the AisleRiot implementation's endgame
autoplay engine is), and shaving my chest, and (somehow, despite
yesterday) masturbating again?

Perhaps. But it should be clear to me, now, that that behavior is
choosing death. And equally clear that I do, in fact, want to live.

So prove it.