drafting "'I Tell Myself'"

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@@ -24,31 +24,44 @@ So, I've spent basically my entire adult life in this insular little intellectua
 
 I guess I feel pretty naïve now, but—I _actually believed our own propoganda_. I _actually thought_ we were doing something new and special of historical and possibly even _cosmological_ significance.
 
-And so when I moved to "Portland" (which is actually Berkeley) in 2016, and met some people who gave me reason to reëvaluate 
+And so when I moved to "Portland" (which is actually Berkeley) in 2016, and encountered evidence that convinced me of the homosexual/autogynephilic two-types theory of MtF transgenderism that I had previously assumed was false (while being privately grateful that [there was a _word_ for my thing](/2017/Feb/a-beacon-through-the-darkness-or-getting-it-right-the-first-time/)) because everyone _said_ it was false, that seemed like information worth signal-boosting.
 
+We're all about, like, science and rationality and stuff, right? And so if there's a theory that's been sitting in the psychology literature for twenty years, that looks _correct_ (or at least, ah, less wrong than the mainstream view), that's _directly_ relevant to a _lot_ of people around here, that seems like the sort of thing 
 
-I confess that I _may have overreacted somewhat_
 
-because people weren't converging (or even engaging) with me on the two-types/autogynephilia thing. Psychology is a genuinely difficult empirical science
+https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/9KvefburLia7ptEE3/the-correct-contrarian-cluster
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+I confess that I _may have [overreacted](/2017/Mar/fresh-princess/) [somewhat](/2017/Jun/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-i-the-unanswerable-words/)_ when people weren't converging (or [even engaging](/2017/Jan/im-sick-of-being-lied-to/)) with me on the two-types/autogynephilia thing. Psychology is a genuinely difficult empirical science
 
 I would _never_ write someone off for disagreeing with me about a complicated empirical thing, because complicated empirical things are complicated enough that I have to take the Outside View seriously: no matter how "obvious" I think my view is, I might still be wrong for real in real life. So, while I was pretty upset for my own idiosyncratic personal reasons, it wasn't cause to _give up entirely on the dream of a rationality community_.
 
 https://www.overcomingbias.com/2007/07/beware-the-insi.html
 
-http://unremediatedgender.space/2017/Jun/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-i-the-unanswerable-words/
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 https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/wustx45CPL5rZenuo/no-safe-defense-not-even-science
 http://slatestarcodex.com/2017/03/24/guided-by-the-beauty-of-our-weapons/
-/2017/Jan/im-sick-of-being-lied-to/
-/2017/Feb/a-beacon-through-the-darkness-or-getting-it-right-the-first-time/
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  we live in a world where reason doesn't work
 
+not gaslight me about the most important thing in my life?
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+I don't think I'm setting [my price for joining](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/Q8evewZW5SeidLdbA/your-price-for-joining) particularly high here?
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 if you're doing systematically correct reasoning, you should be able to get the right answer even on things that don't matter
 
+there has to be a way to _correct_ errors, and possibly even profit from correcting errors
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+outside view hobby-horse
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+standards
 
 cognitive dissonance
 
 smart people clearly know
 
+free-speech norms
 
 I'll be alright. Just not tonight.