drafting "'I Tell Myself'"

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 I guess I feel pretty naïve now, but—I _actually believed our own propoganda_. I _actually thought_ we were doing something new and special of historical and possibly even _cosmological_ significance.
 
 
 I guess I feel pretty naïve now, but—I _actually believed our own propoganda_. I _actually thought_ we were doing something new and special of historical and possibly even _cosmological_ significance.
 

-And so when I moved to "Portland" (which is actually Berkeley) in 2016, and met some people who gave me reason to reëvaluate 
+And so when I moved to "Portland" (which is actually Berkeley) in 2016, and encountered evidence that convinced me of the homosexual/autogynephilic two-types theory of MtF transgenderism that I had previously assumed was false (while being privately grateful that [there was a _word_ for my thing](/2017/Feb/a-beacon-through-the-darkness-or-getting-it-right-the-first-time/)) because everyone _said_ it was false, that seemed like information worth signal-boosting.

 
 

+We're all about, like, science and rationality and stuff, right? And so if there's a theory that's been sitting in the psychology literature for twenty years, that looks _correct_ (or at least, ah, less wrong than the mainstream view), that's _directly_ relevant to a _lot_ of people around here, that seems like the sort of thing 

 
 

-I confess that I _may have overreacted somewhat_

 
 

-because people weren't converging (or even engaging) with me on the two-types/autogynephilia thing. Psychology is a genuinely difficult empirical science
+https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/9KvefburLia7ptEE3/the-correct-contrarian-cluster
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+I confess that I _may have [overreacted](/2017/Mar/fresh-princess/) [somewhat](/2017/Jun/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-i-the-unanswerable-words/)_ when people weren't converging (or [even engaging](/2017/Jan/im-sick-of-being-lied-to/)) with me on the two-types/autogynephilia thing. Psychology is a genuinely difficult empirical science

 
 I would _never_ write someone off for disagreeing with me about a complicated empirical thing, because complicated empirical things are complicated enough that I have to take the Outside View seriously: no matter how "obvious" I think my view is, I might still be wrong for real in real life. So, while I was pretty upset for my own idiosyncratic personal reasons, it wasn't cause to _give up entirely on the dream of a rationality community_.
 
 https://www.overcomingbias.com/2007/07/beware-the-insi.html
 
 
 I would _never_ write someone off for disagreeing with me about a complicated empirical thing, because complicated empirical things are complicated enough that I have to take the Outside View seriously: no matter how "obvious" I think my view is, I might still be wrong for real in real life. So, while I was pretty upset for my own idiosyncratic personal reasons, it wasn't cause to _give up entirely on the dream of a rationality community_.
 
 https://www.overcomingbias.com/2007/07/beware-the-insi.html
 

-http://unremediatedgender.space/2017/Jun/memoirs-of-my-recent-madness-part-i-the-unanswerable-words/
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 https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/wustx45CPL5rZenuo/no-safe-defense-not-even-science
 http://slatestarcodex.com/2017/03/24/guided-by-the-beauty-of-our-weapons/
 https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/wustx45CPL5rZenuo/no-safe-defense-not-even-science
 http://slatestarcodex.com/2017/03/24/guided-by-the-beauty-of-our-weapons/

-/2017/Jan/im-sick-of-being-lied-to/
-/2017/Feb/a-beacon-through-the-darkness-or-getting-it-right-the-first-time/
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  we live in a world where reason doesn't work
 
 
  we live in a world where reason doesn't work
 

+not gaslight me about the most important thing in my life?
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+I don't think I'm setting [my price for joining](https://www.lesswrong.com/posts/Q8evewZW5SeidLdbA/your-price-for-joining) particularly high here?
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 if you're doing systematically correct reasoning, you should be able to get the right answer even on things that don't matter
 
 if you're doing systematically correct reasoning, you should be able to get the right answer even on things that don't matter
 

+there has to be a way to _correct_ errors, and possibly even profit from correcting errors
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+outside view hobby-horse
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+standards

 
 cognitive dissonance
 
 smart people clearly know
 
 
 cognitive dissonance
 
 smart people clearly know
 

+free-speech norms

 
 I'll be alright. Just not tonight.
 
 I'll be alright. Just not tonight.